It's been almost a year since i got into LE SSERAFIM.I've gotten into many new kpop groups in the past year and a half but they're the only one that i have the same amount of excitement after the honeymoon phase. I would say that they're my ult group. I actually listen to their music every day i haven't gotten bored of their songs they are just so good. The members, visuals, message, lyrics, vibe, fandom - i love everything about them, they are just a very lovable group. I'm so happy that this year has been successful for them and the hate train ended. They recently published their Japanese single "Different". The new JP album will also have a single "Kawaii", that will be a title track to Netflix My Melody&Kuromi series!

Right now they have been touring in Japan and Yunjin was on a one month break because she had back issues. Luckily she is recovered now and they will continue touring: they will do two concerts in Tokyo Dome for the first time! It was actually my dream to travel to Japan to see them there but unfortunately i'm unemployed and have no savings ;_;

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I love this song! Fresh vibes for the summer. I'm only annoyed that it's so short...
Fans have already pointed out how they put a song about being different during Pride Month! They also performed it with rainbow visuals. Both Yunjin and Chaewon have showed support for the community this month (and Sakura earlier in her career).

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I had to put the English version too because the visualizer is just so amazing. I need a le sserafim game asap!

I feel like i'm at a point in kpop where i've found the artists i'm really into. I've been checking new 5th gen artists just for the excitement of something new but i feel like i've found my thing now. Before i got back into kpop last year i actually only listened/stanned SM groups and now it's almost only Hybe groups. I've talked earlier on my blog about digital minimalism and curating my social media experience and how i engage with art. Kpop can be very consumerist, fast paced, chaotic hobby if you want it to. Luckily i left twitter and i use less tiktok and i only watch edits and don't care for fanwars, South-Korea "lifestyle" or recycled discourse. I really only buy stuff i'm 100% into and i don't collect multiple versions of the same album, i just get my favorite version. I also recently joined a kpop dance cover group(my first one!) for "older" fans and it has been super fun. I've been thinking about taking more dance classes next autumn now that i got more confidence to dance.

For Rolling Stone Japan August issue. I need to get my hands on this. I started collecting physical magazines when i got into Stray Kids (been collecting magazines with Hyunjin covers). I've been slowly getting into fashion and overall appreciating and looking for different aesthetics/visuals. I recently found shoes from a thrift store i manifested: silver sneakers with pink laces!

Also the new ILLIT song that dropped today "Do The Dance" has Yunjin credited as one of the songwriters! Even though i'm not ILLIT's target audience they do have a really cute vibe and i love the magical girl concept for this comeback.

Also if you're interested in getting into Le Sserafim i recommend this site !

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someone shared the template on discord the other day and sure, why not. posting this while watching idol radio so not many thoughts, just vibes.

I used to think hyunjae and younghoon were the members I shipped more easily with everyone but the 7 links to sunwoo, hello?! 6 for chanhee too.

besides, I'm a fickle gemini, my opinions may change next week. for example, I don't know how to link moonbae because my opinion keeps changing for them. (more often than not the yellow arrow is coming from jacob to kevin, though lol) let's be real here too, at the end of the day eric would kiss anyone and anyone would kiss jacob...

bbanghak is either making out regularly or they're about to, they just need to figure that out first!!!

Current Mood: worried

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📰 weekly reporter

vol 22 week of 06/08-06/14

reflecting — enjoying — playing — obsessing — recommending — treating — encountering — restoring — stats report — editors recap

📊 stats report

last week

☒ caleb birthday deco spread
☒ get ahead on homework
☒ find new training regime

— 3 goals for the upcoming week
☐ fix 2 pager weekly reporter
☇ homework backlog
☇ take it easy

📥 editors recap

honestly? this week was a hot mess. I procrastinated on ALL my school work, stayed up super late every night, skipped the gym multiple times, got nothing done for my to do list, lost my writing streak.... just one of those weeks where everything falls apart my lord. right before this, I ended up breaking the new weekly reporter layout and I'm not at all sure why it's acting so wonky now. tonight, I actually started here with editor's recap... if I were a little more savvy (perhaps something to add to the coding to do list), I'd love to make this front and center with regular reporter to follow.. maybe I'll give it a try haha!
this week I'd really like to focus on just getting caught up on everything. I'd like to go to bed at a reasonable time, get back on track in the gym and in my writing, get ahead on my homework, and have a better time than I did this week honestly. 🔝

💭 puzzling over code... branding... buying a domain.... reworking this section and brainstorming more stuff to write about every week...... what if big weekend update multi page reporter... what then?!

— reflecting

had the thought that I need to be a little more "aggressive" in my friend building. I've gotten so used to just hanging out and doing things by myself that I think I've lost that maintenance that comes with having friends. I've got the trivia group that I like to hang out with, but I'm particularly interested in better developing friendships with a couple girls I've been meeting up for dinner and coffee with. I think I'd like that casual comfort in being able to make on the fly plans and text them a bit more... I think I also need to be a little more proactive in developing friendships in class too and with my coworker mentor. my first step should be asking more questions about them, I think. now that I think about it.... it also applies here too gyah.
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— enjoying

a while back, I bought this little matching jacket and sweatpants (if you can call them that? theyre cropped and dont have the bunching at the ankle) and I pulled them out of the stack recently while I did homework. it's very soft and comfortable. I sit under an air vent and get cold at my desk, so the weight of both is just right. its kind of like a homework/house clothes uniform... better than staying in my work clothes, but not quite so relaxed that I'm in my pajamas.
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— playing

calebs birthday has just passed. I did all his birthday stuff last minute since my week was such a mess but you can see the cake here I'm debating on making a digital collage or a physical one.... I'd also like to do a backdated one for sylus.
the more important thing though, is rafayel's gorgeous new myth!!!!! we are finally getting his mermaid tail!!!!! the cards, thetrailer and all related marketing are so STUNNING!!!!
we are also getting a new zayne 10 days with you card and he's in scrubs!!! he looks heartbroken!!! i cant wait to read it yay. <3
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— obsessing

I wanna buy lads merch.... but I keep missing all the stupid preorder windows for pins... and I wanna preorder those silly dolls and now I've come around to the nendo....
sigh all i wanna do is buy things I am so ridiculous
also I'm considering buying some icon slots for all the lads boys... I tried to go through and get rid of some but I couldn't bring myself to delete them WAHAHA
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— recommending

being gentle with yourself..... I feel run through the ringer. also this comic is me this week LOL
also wanna recommend pants comics... theyre so full of life and so weird but delightful... reminder to rest!!!!
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— treating

my supervisor and one of my other coworkers share a birthday so we went out to lunch and had delicious empanadas!! I bought lunch on friday (because we had no leftovers) and had some awesome chicken tenders and a yummy brownie sundae dessert.
our power went out during a short thunderstorm yesterday, and since I had homework I needed to do I went out to my usual tea shop and got a jasmine fruit tea!! it was SUPER refreshing... drink of the summer I think. I wanna see if I can get boba in it next time
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— encountering

I really have no idea where my time is going. I might start one of those little trackers... I think I also need to make better to do lists? at work I'm not having any issues but my personal life is a mess!!!! have some fun life stuff happening starting at the end of the week... goodness. june is half over??? I feel like I'm still super lost??? I wanna write and do things and not feel so behind GYAH!!!!!!!!! I need a break!!! a day to get my life back in order GAHHHHHH!!!!!
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— restoring

there has been no restoring here.... but we will get back on track!!! a hard week is just drop in the bucket- I've got this!!! it one of those things where I've just been exhausted all week but not in a bad mood? a little overwhelmed with what I need to do..
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Current Mood: exhausted

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Moontime began today. I've got tea, pain relief cream, and some cloth pads as extra backup while I use period underwear.

My well-meaning friend, Sre, messaged me saying that she was sorry if this would bring up any negative feelings for me, but she knew mid-20th-century writers are my jam, and would help me shop for them when she was in my city. She attached a picture, and I didn't process it correctly at first, because it was a shelf full of Persephone Books. I assumed it was a picture from Persephone Books themselves, since they have a store full of shelves of just their books. I thought she was offering to buy one for me and bring it with her when she came here. I told her that she was sweet, and right about them being my jam, and also that after years of being unable to pick up a book without pain related to the bookstore that broke my heart, referred to on this journal as Spinebreaker, it was books like these–Virago green books that were out of print, and Persephone Books which are unavailable in my country, that helped me read again, specifically because I knew Spinebreaker would never be able to stock them. The owner had said that she was trying to bring Persephone Books to her store and wasn't able to get distribution here, and that was a few years ago.

Sre said she didn't know getting them here had been a challenge–and that's when I realise that the picture she had sent me was of Persephone Books stocked in Spinebreaker, and that's when I realise that she didn't know that I didn't clock it.

I've posted here before about moments when I was at risk of relapsing and didn't, and how far I've come and all that. Well... this particular moment is a struggle for me. I've been struggling with sorrow, suffocating waves of them, because... this is a bit like that moment when I visited Spinebreaker for the first time, saw Barbara Comyns on the shelves, and thought it must be A Sign because I had never seen her books here before. A whole shelf of just Persephone Books, in MY COUNTRY not to mention my city? It seems like a miracle. It was something I didn't think was realistic. Just like that whole damned bookstore, just like seeing Barbara Comyns stocked there, just like the chance to work there... it was just never realistic.

At the moment, I happen to be reading Amelia's Intrigue by Judith A. Lansdowne. It's sweet, gentle, cosy, funny and endearing. A perfect comfort reading. It's also out of print so Spinebreaker can never stock it, so there. I'm enjoying it.

When I was bringing myself back into reading I picked up books that would never be stocked at Spinebreaker, or so I thought. Books the owner couldn't get, books that were out of print, and books that were independently published or books she doesn't want to put on her shelves. I got to read some amazing indie books by friends on DW. I also bounced off quite a few books that are made for the indie market but not made for me, just not the sorts of books I enjoy.

The thing is, I imprinted so hard on Spinebreaker because of the books in it. I identified with it so hard because of how it's curated. This means that a book that is stocked there is highly likely to be a book I'll enjoy and a book that's not stocked there is not likely to be a book I'll enjoy. That sucks. But it is what it is.

I have to be okay reading books that are also stocked in Spinebreaker. I have to enjoy them without pausing for pain. I have to get to that point, and I guess I'm frustrated that I'm not there, that I've not healed completely so that there's no chance of feeling all that hurt all over again. It's also the kind of thing that very few of my friends IRL understand, because it just seems trivial to them, like they don't understand why it's been affecting me so much. So I'm glad I can journal about it here.

I'm touched that Sre thought of me when she saw the sorts of books I love, so I don't resent her bringing this up. I would have found out eventually. Because most people I know, including my closest friends, go there regularly and they have talked about the books they've gotten there without me feeling like this because those were books that were accessible otherwise as well, and available elsewhere. But I bet I would have heard about these at some point.

Sre said she could take me to Spinebreaker when she's in my city, if it would help me if she's there. I thanked her and told her I'd rather not go as I don't feel welcome there. I mean, the owner blocked me, lol. She said that instead she could go buy me a Persephone Book from there, but I really don't want to give Spinebreaker any money. Since all of the authors of Persephone Books are dead, I'll pirate them if I can't access them any other way. I love the publisher though and will buy their ebooks when possible; they don't publish most of their books as ebooks, which I think is a pity, but they do have a few in ebook format. I bought Diana Tutton's Guard Your Daughters that way, and of course they've made Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day by Winifred Watson available as an ebook, since it's their star title.

Current Mood: sad

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miiight have figured out the solution to my two page reporter idea. need to do some actual testing on it tonight after work

Current Mood: accomplished

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let's all live!!!!!

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📰 weekly reporter

vol 22 week of 06/01-06/07

⮡ reflecting — enjoying — playing — obsessing — recommending — treating — encountering — restoring — stats report — editors recap

— reflecting

let's see... I'd been good up until tonight and last night about going to bed before 10 but it's the weekend! (although I do have work tomorrow.) this week was good but busy. I had a lot going on with work, then classes were a little hectic.. so I felt pretty exhausted energy wise but it wasn't too bad. the power went out on thursday so I got some extra studying in too
today at the gym, I was so engrossed in a movie on tv (man on fire, 2004) that I didn't have any music playing for my hour long elliptical session. remembered an old tweet I had seen mentioning how it was good to reconnect with your body like that from time to time, so I've been thinking about that all day.
I also keep finding myself repeating "how can I fit everything in?" I struggle to pick a single focus and I told myself that june would be different, but I still find myself wanting to do do do so much more.
something something writing writing writing. piggy backing off of last week, I'm loving how I've been making time for it. I want to keep writing, and I want to write more. how do you get better at writing? write more. read some, but you have to get words onto paper(screen) and then go through those words and see what you could do better. 🔝

— enjoying

I love putting stickers on things yay! I went on a coffee date with a friend yesterday and deco'd up two more toploaders for zayne and xavier. they dressed super super cute in destiny cafe the other day. I also have some new plans to deco a spread for caleb for his birthday!!
another enjoyment is that we finally opened our pool and swam today!! the weather has been soooo rainy that we haven't been able to swim at all despite decent temps. we also got the new puppies into the pool and they seemed to like it enough? not like koko who wants to swim and play ball any chance he gets. its supposed to rain some more, but I'm hoping the nice sunny weather holds up. 🔝

— playing

pulled for xaviers feverish attempts and instead got caleb exclusive aftertaste, so that ruined my pity. ranking up his card was nice, but mr birthday boy, you were supposed to wait to come home on your banner! anyway, calebs birthday banner and event are out! apparently with the english localization there's a lot they had to cut out since they had to adjust his character story for western audiences.......... which I think is why I've hesitated to get into his character too much? it feels disingenuous that they changed some aspects of his character for western audiences since we don't have a comparable trope as far as I understand. this is always a big point of contention in the fandom and I've already seen suggestions of drama. bitching and complaining site never fails to get people bitching and complaining. there's already leaks for rafayel's upcoming new myth. he's supposedly getting his mermaid form... so we will wait and see.
in other gaming news, I've seen chatter about the light and night anniversary, and maybe its time to get into light and night. the cards are gorgeous, and I follow the translators anyway... its unlikely to get a global release but with the lads fandoms constant drama, maybe its for the better *heart hands emoji*
also saw a suggested reading for mahoyaku... 2025 the year I return to mobile gaming madness? maybe I make a simutaneous gwarentz and rutileflores twitter account return... wao wao... girl who is obsessed with gacha. sigh.
also excited about danchi days demo, inkonbini demo, and new trailers for grave seasons. need to check up on that by the sea shore game too. 🔝

— obsessing

thinking about kimmyvu jewelry, that silly pen case I mentioned last week... wanting to upgrade my desk space and build a pc... getting into new hobbies..... trying to figure out how to use my planner more... buying more stickers..... also waiting on jd acceptance, so I'm constantly checking my email, waiting.... (girl u applied one week ago calm down) 🔝

— recommending

started an article about tech that I didn't finish, actually read that henrik article I mentioned last week. there was something else I was really excited to put here earlier this week but now i have no idea what it was. 🔝

— treating

went on a coffee date yesterday and got an alright matcha, and mom made a white cake with lemon frosting that I kid you not tastes like a lemon froot loop. dad made chicken parm for dinner too. lil bro brought me a thai bubble tea at work on friday and in return, I got us pizza and breadsticks! 🔝

— encountering

I am pretty frustrated with my current workout regimen. dad is my "coach" and usually plans the workouts but I think we are starting to deviate in our goals. we've been kinda plateauing for a bit... I'm not really ready to get into strict dieting and cutting/bulking phases.. I'd really like to work on some mobility and calisthenics and really emphasize training my legs. I'd also like to get my powerlifting forms into better shape, especially my squats and deadlifts. We really focused on building my upper body. Dad doesn't like doing legs, so I feel like mine have withered away T_T okay that's being melodramatic, but I don't feel as strong as I was.
I probably need to get more serious about eating too. I just don't want to hardcore meal prep and track all my calories and do all that craziness. sigh. I need to get back on protein shakes, and probably start taking creatine and tracking my steps and daily calorie burn. gotta get a fitness tracker too... sigh.... fitness is so fun until you get into the tedious stuff like all the Gainz related optimization shit. 🔝

— restoring

been better about not letting homework fall too far behind and getting enough sleep. we've been taking it easy training wise, so I don't feel nearly as sore as I have in the past. I've also been watching my water intake and don't feel so dried out. 🔝

weekly highlights 🆕 toploader decos! 🆙 productivity 💭 what can I do differently? 📚 articles (misc) 📺 man on fire (finished) 🎵 oh no! marina 🎮 lads

📊 stats report

last week

☒ 1000 words of summer
☇ homework
☑ go to bed before 11pm

— 3 goals for the upcoming week
☐ caleb birthday deco spread
☐ get ahead on homework
☐ find new training regimen

— upcoming
🖉 bitesized
🖉 24 week clay retrospective
🖉 goals doc......
🖉 coolness theory 3 parter
🖉 oc intros
🖉 greenhouse missive/intro

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📥 editors recap

I already want to update the layout to a version 2 hehe. I have an idea of trying to make a second page but no idea how to actually execute it. I think I might have to play around with some javascript buttons to get it to work or else figure out some css hacky way. I think I've going to have to use visibility or display to get it to work. and probably a button of some sort? if anyone has any knowledge on how to get it to work or any direction.... I'm all ears.
I think I need to figure out a way to track more stuff during the week to really fill out some sections on reporter. I felt pretty inspired and definitely had things I wanted to incorporate into reporter but poof... gone when I sit down to actually write plus your brain isn't that great for storing bite sized stray thoughts.
speaking of bitesized, I have unfortunately given up on 1000 words of summer. I'm just too damn busy to do it (excuses, I mentally scoff). so I'm changing it a bit to a challenge I'm calling bite sized. I want to get better at writing, and writing well means increasing my exposure to words either through reading, or writing more. so I want to write 100 words well. so we have to get into practice of writing 100 well written words. I'd like to incorporate the weekly bite size highlights into reporter when I figure out that second page. there's also a couple other things I want to try and play around with for our second page.
I was busy doing homework earlier but had a lot of inspiration for reporter so I jotted down some notes. looking over it I think I've incorporated everything I wanted to say but I'd like to track more grrr... I need to look at the newspaper for more inspiration.

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DVD commentary for Like a Sword aka Divorced JC

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Current Music: traffic jam - dragon pony

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I'm participating in The Wheel of Chaos in which we collectively pounce on our keyboards and become chaos gremlins for an unforeseen amount of time. Signups are here: link!

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Q. have you ever ranked all the songs in a fob album? if not would you consider it and would you also start with ttyg pretty please

I looked at the release date of this album and we gotta put me down like a dog

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title: my heart's a rollercoaster (so hold me tight and never let go)
rating: teen
pairing: Hsu Nientzu | Nien/Kamimoto Kotone
side pairings: Ji Suhyeon | Jiyeon/Yoon Seoyeon, Kim Nakyoung/Seo Dahyun
word count: 32,198

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"A heaven without you must be like hell"

The concept photos and concept cinema for this comeback were really amazing: bdsm, horror, scifi. Based on them lot of fans speculated this album was going to be like Dark Blood given the dark vampire vibes. But compared to that album, Bad Desire is more emotional, desperately romantic, and the sound is more fresh than dark. I would say this is top3 album from them. Dark Blood is number one and second is Romance: Untold daydream version. Based on the concept photos i had excepted maybe a little bit more from this album. But it's still very good overall. One thing that annoys me is that the title track Bad Desire is too short! It's a beautiful song and i feel like it should have been longer since it's an emotional song (if it makes sense?). Some people said it was underwhelming, but i see it as a similar emotional title track as Le sserafim's "Hot". But it definitely goes to my top Enhypen songs!

This album really makes me want to get into their vampire lore that their manhwa is about. (and also read more vampire sunsun fics...)

My favorite part is of course my bias Heeseung's heavenly vocals. Apparently he's been making a mixtape for a year now and recently posted a photo with a producer. I'm super excited for his solo because he is so talented.

Song ranking:
Bad Desire (With or Without You)
Helium (this is such a good song and Jay was one of the producers! Apparently he came up with the idea and had a major part in making this song)
Flashover
Loose
Too Close
Outside

Also with both Bad Desire and Loose i prefer the English version.

Current Music: ENHYPEN - Bad Desire (With or Without You)

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— treating

— encountering

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📰 weekly reporter 06.01-06.07

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— reflecting

— enjoying

— playing

— obsessing

— recommending

— treating

— encountering

— restoring

📊 stats report

📥 editors recap

Sorry I did this to myself and you (Like a Sword DVD commentary)

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[commentary] my heart's a rollercoaster (so hold me tight and never let go)

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