pantomimes: (handong)

here i am again, slapping january and february together in a single post because i was too lazy to do one of these last month. and also because my media consumption lately has been... well, basically non-existent. hopefully this will change in the next few months, but while we're here, let's get into it!

echo, echo, echo in my brain )
pantomimes: (aseul)
β™‘

me, waking up in the middle of the night, sweating and panting: what if you collected data about every single fic you’ve written since age 11 for no fucking reason and drove yourself insane while you're at it?
πŸ’—βœοΈ )
pantomimes: (barbie)
inspired by sleepyshamrocks's and lovebalance's posts. let's get into it!

yuri is love yuri is life )
pantomimes: (lottie)

alternatively titled local wanda stan loses her mind after watching multiverse of madness. this post contains major multiverse of madness (2022) spoilers, please proceed with caution. that being said, let's get into it!

every morning, the same nightmare
πŸ•’ 18:28
strange: runes.
wong: this isn't sorcery.
strange: it's
witchcraft.

  • the movie starts with america and strange running away from some sort of demon? which doesn't end well, because stephen decides to sacrifice america so he can use her powers for the "greater good". it turns out that it's all a dream, or at least that's what stephen believes for a while- until he's proven wrong during christine's wedding.
  • it was a solid start and it immediately had me excited for what was about to come. i was sooo happy to finally see miss america chavez in the mcu and let me say, she's adorable. i wanted to take care of her so bad, but then the wandavision theme started playing and suddenly nothing else mattered. ladies and gentlemen, it was time for #HER.

πŸ•’ 19:11
wanda: you know, a family is forever. we never could truly leave each other, even if we tried.

  • what we first see of wanda in this movie is her, billy and tommy living in the same house from wandavision. she's cooking with the boys and puts them to sleep after, saying the iconic "family is forever" phrase from the show. then, like strange, she wakes up and realizes it was all a dream.
  • this is where i started descending into complete madness because why must my girl go through so much pain all the time. i was so ready to start crying already but i held myself together and kept watching the movie. little did i know wanda's situation was about to become so much worse!!!!!!!!!!! yay fun.

πŸ•’ 21:52
wanda: you never told me her name, did you?
strange: no. no i didn't.

  • strange visits wanda and asks for her help with the multiverse situation. wanda then slips and ends up mentioning america's name, which gives away the fact that she's the one sending demons that have been chasing america down.
  • shit starts to get reeeeeal crazy after this part and to me it was the peak of the movie. wanda going absolutely nuts and destroying kamar taj ALL BY HERSELF? sign me up. she looked so hot while she was murdering all of those people. i want her to do it again. also, the "run" part? i got chills.

(the look of complete insanity on this woman's face... mommy? sorry)

  • strange attempts to imprison wanda in the mirror dimension, but it isn't enough to hold her. wanda quickly finds a way out of it and shows up in the room where america, strange and wong are in.
  • this was such a badass moment and i was so proud of my girl. wanda managing to escape the mirror dimension is just one of many moments where she "wins" over strange throughout the movie, showcasing how powerful she actually is. i can't wait to be able to see this in full hd when the movie is on disney plus.

(wanda my beloved stop looking at me like that. i'm getting shy)

  • the scene from the screenshot above is from when wanda takes over the body of her variant, which is the second most emotional (in my opinion, at least) moment from the entire movie. the kids ask her where she's going, she says she's going to take out the trash but they have something to show her. they sing her a song to convince her to let them have ice cream and wanda is tearing up while they do it, because that's the first time since the events of westview that she's seeing her children in front of her.
  • OOF... that hurted like a bitch. the look in her when she heard the word "mom" broke me into a million pieces. this woman literally just wants to be happy for once in her life :( it's so, so sad.

πŸ•’ 54:33
wanda
: i need the darkhold's spells. you're the sorcerer supreme, tell me what you know.
wong
: you'll have to kill me, witch.
wanda
: not you. them.

  • the rollercoaster of emotions i went through during these scenes. like yes wanda my poor meow meow is such a sad little person but she is also so HOT as a villain, what am i supposed to say? she's so mean when she's threatening wong and forcing him to take her to the mountain where she can find a copy of the darkhold and i'm obsessed with the energy... name a hotter milf. actually don't waste your time because wanda maximoff is the only milf to ever exist.

(shout-out to my best friend maria rambeau)

  • this is the high anticipated illuminati scene, but to be honest it was actually the worst part of the movie for me? like, yes, i liked to see maria rambeau, but everything else was so...? i don't know if the scene was actually boring or if i was expecting more people who were rumored (loki? sylvie?) to appear and ended up being disappointed. plus the movie theater i went to was full of boring old people and no one screamed... like what. this is a marvel movie and you're BRAZILIAN, you have to scream. it's the rule. anyways.
  • i did, of course, LOVE seeing wanda killing them all. i know how this sounds and call me insane but how is she so... !@#$%#$ what haven't i said about this woman at this point? she is GOD to me and she can do ANYTHING SHE DESIRES because she's HOT AND PERFECT!

πŸ•’ 1:06:14
wanda
: look around you. it’s carved in stone, i was meant to rule everything. but that’s not what i want. i just want my boys.
wong
: at the cost of a child’s life? aren’t you in peace knowing even though you can’t be with the ones you love there are worlds where you are together? is that not enough?
wanda:
no.

  • now wong sir... i kinda like you and everything but what kind of question was that LMAO. i said NO so fast, isn't that obvious to you and everyone else already? she does not give a fuck if she's with them in another universe- she wants, and honestly, deserves, to be happy in her universe too.
  • and after this it just gets... really depressing.

(my precious girl...)

  • this scene destroyed me. like, this was literally the worst thing that could happen to wanda now and of course it fucking did. and by "this" i mean the boys being terrified of her, throwing things and her and telling her to not hurt them- or their mom, which is the wanda from another universe. this has to be one of the saddest marvel scenes ever, and if you don't feel sorry for this woman at this point do you even have a heart?
  • the other wanda calms the boys down by telling them it's okay, gets up and comforts "our" wanda, assuring her that the boys will be very loved. it's heartbreaking to think that this is the first time she's been comforted by someone after everything she went through since westview, and the fact that the person who did it is herself... ouch. it can't get more painful than this.

(this summarizes how i feel about this movie better than this entire post)

doctor strange in the multiverse of madness (2022) β˜…β˜…β˜…β˜…½
when did i watch: may 5th, 2022
overall: i liked the movie. i thought of giving it five starts, but i'll wait and see if any of my opinions will change after being able to rewatch the whole thing properly. most of my thoughts on this movie revolve around wanda, of course, but i'm excited to see how the events of this movie are going to affect future marvel projects too. do i think wanda is dead? no. do i have any idea of what's going to happen to her next or how she's going to make it out of that place alive? also no. but lizzie said she's aware of two new projects with wanda in the moment, so i'll hold on to that and hope for the best. if you made it this far, thank you so much for reading!

pantomimes: (she-hulk)

i recently decided to watch all the pitch perfect movies again, which resulted in multiple bechloe breakdowns and also made me remember i have a full list of all the ships i've been obsessed with since i was a literal child on my notes (because yes, i'm also obsessed with making lists and rankings and writing random shit on my phone at 4am, i can't help it) so i decided to make a dreamwidth post about it, because 1. i love to ramble about women kissing women and 2. why the hell not?

list + commentary
brittany/santana β™‘
show: glee
year i got into them:2011
canon: βœ…
++ the blueprint. what can i say, this is literally the ship of a lifetime. these two literally raised me and were my first "real" ship, as in i didn't even know what shipping and fanfic etc etc was before i started googling about these two. and it was also through them that i had the realization that i was a lesbian at age TEN so thanks for that ig <3

quinn/rachel
show: glee
year i got into them: 2011
canon: ❌
++ *scratches head* yes it happened look away i was literally a CHILD. faberry aka baby's first queerbait <3

emily/alison
show: pretty little liars
year i got into them: 2011
canon: βœ…
++ i can still use the i was a child argument for this one and I WILL! i know it's a terrible ship etc etc but that scene from season 2 when emily wakes up and alison is there and they kiss made me feel so insane back then i'm sorry

jade/tori β™‘
show: victorious
year i got into them: 2011
canon: ❌
++ i absolutely adore these two and i still remember how fucking insane i felt when i learned people actually shipped them. i had a whole #jori_obsessed moment last year when i was rewatching victorious and i kind of already want to do it again

princess bubblegum/marceline
show: adventure time
year i got into them: 2011
canon: βœ…
++ does anything smells more like CHILDHOOD and INNOCENCE and FIRST REPRESENTATION than bubbline? i don't think so. and i'll always love them for that

naomi/emily
show: skins
year i got into them: 2011/2012
canon: βœ…
++ baby's first bury your gays. skins fire you are my worst enemy

luce/rachel
movie: imagine me and you
year i got into them: 2011/2012
canon: βœ…
++ um you guys have no idea how many times i've rewatched this movie. it's one of my favorite movies of all times and i remember watching it EVERY SINGLE school break when i was younger while drinking toddynho <333 a massive comfort ship/movie

beca/chloe β™‘
movie: pitch perfect
year i got into them: 2012
canon: ❌
++ here these fuckers are. i literally have so much to say about these two and about pitch perfect too that i'd had to make a whole post about it. they just make me so happy it's crazy? the happiness that hit me while watching the pitch perfect movies again + reading bechloe fics + consuming bechloe content after so long was something else. the just a dream/just the way you are mashup????? MASTERPIECE. 10/10 would recommend

laura/carmilla
show: carmilla
year i got into them: 2014
canon: βœ…
++ why does it feel like the carmilla era never happened even though it was like... A BIG DEAL ON TUMBLR?? creampuffs were literally everywhere. where are they. why no one talks about this camp ass youtube show anymore. i miss them

marina/clara
novela: em família
year i got into them: 2014
canon: βœ…
++ the absolute CHAOTIC vibes of being a closeted lesbian in brazil when this novela was airing. me constantly sneaking into the living room to watch it + obsessing hard over the actress who played them at the time... how was my family NOT suspicious

emma/regina β™‘
show: once upon a time
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ❌
++ [bites fist] it was so serious guys. they had a son. THEY HAD A SON. sometimes i forget this ship isn't canon because that does not make sense at all?? and i'm actually thinking of watching ouat again so i'm already expecting some swanqueen insanity to hit me somewhere through this year

misty/cordelia
show: american horror story: coven
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ❌
++ i’m gonna be honest, i don’t remember much about ahs plus i was actually terrified of that damn show so. i’m putting them here because i do remember i liked them a lot

allison/lydia
show: teen wolf
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ❌
++ i literally started watching teen wolf because i thought the girls were so pretty and they were EVERYWHERE on tumblr/twitter so i decided to give it a try… and became obsessed with allydia. i even had a journal where i used to write about them *sigh* i miss my teen wolf era

malia/kira
show: teen wolf
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ❌
++ i’ll never forget that scene where they dance together. like come on they had so much chemistry plus the fics were soooo nice too. like i mentioned before i miss my teen wolf era a lot

karma/amy
show: faking it
year i got into them: 2014
canon: βœ…
++ faking it was such a questionable show and they were such a questionable ship but i loved it. sue me. that stupid show was my everything when it first aired i swear to god

daisy/jemma β™‘
show: agents of shield
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ❌
++ baby’s first marvel-related obsession. skimmons was so so so so so good my brain is melting just thinking about it and the FICS? god-tier i’m not even kidding. it used to scratch my brain just right. i need to watch agents of shield again asap because i know it’ll be even better now

lica/samantha
show: malhação
year i got into them: 2018
canon: βœ…
++ not the four year gap between this and the previous one thanks to KPOP OBSESSION (derogatory) but anyways, me when i’m the best version of malhação <3 limantha were so fun and refreshing

syd/elena
show: one day at a time
year i got into them: 2018
canon: βœ…
++ one minute of silence to remember the death of the BEST SHOW TO EVER EXIST. i’ll never get over the fact that odaat got canceled not once but twice? anyways. i miss syd and elena so much they were my everything SOBS

kate/emaline
show: everything sucks
year i got into them: 2018
canon: βœ…
++ og sydney sweeney stans let me hear you make some NOISE. i was in love with this woman way before euphoria was a thing and this show is the reason why so i’m forever thankful <3 still pissed it got canceled tho

izzie/casey
show: atypical
year i got into them: 2018
canon: βœ…
++ THE CULTURAL IMPACT OF CAZZIE… “oh but izzie is so toxic how can people even like her bla bla bla” do i look like i give a fuck? exactly. i’ll always stand up for my beloved baby she did absolutely nothing wrong!

hana/hana
show: a-teen
year i got into them: 2019
canon: ❌
++ the way korean lesbians ate this ship up. the fanarts? incredible. and i ate it up too 2hana forever idc

cheryl/toni
show: riverdale
year i got into them: 2019
canon: βœ…
++ “are you not EMBARAZZED??????” yes i am but listen. every lesbian is allowed to go through a phase where they become obsessed with a ship from a terrible cw show for character development. i no longer know or am interested in what's happening in that show or to them but i promise you those 100k fics on ao3 i used to read about these two like an insane person in 2019 were GOOD

yuna/nari
show: girls’ world
year i got into them: 2020
canon: ❌
++ any YUNARI shippers here????!??? [me and my two mutuals who also watched this webdrama raise our hands] this was such a fun little ship i was so sad when girls’ world ended :/

kieu my/fatou β™‘
show: druck
year i got into them: 2021
canon: βœ…
++ godddd kieutou. i love these two so much it makes me want to cry. don’t you just love a sapphic ship that doesn’t involve WHITE PEOPLE?????? because i do. i love their dynamic and their height difference and their kisses and EVERYTHING <3 they’re such a blessing

sol/jiwan β™‘
show: nevertheless
year i got into them: 2021
canon: βœ…
++ screaming crying throwing up etc etc what can i even say about soljiwan that i haven’t said a million times already. they live in my head rent free to this day. one thing about me is that i’m SOLJIWANIST before i’m human

neil/todd
movie: dead poets society
year i got into them: 2021
canon: ❌
++ anderperry is the only non-sapphic ship in this list which says a lot about me LMAO. anderperry is a curious case because there’s nothing in this life i hate more than white boys but they get a pass. my beloved artistic gay sons who i’ll protect forever

luna/monet
show: gossip girl reboot
year i got into them: 2021
canon: ❌
++ ummm this was like a quick obsession considering i didn’t even watch the second half of the first season yet so… but the fics i’ve read were so good istg

luz/amity
show: the owl house
year i got into them: 2021
canon: βœ…
++ [holds lumity in my arms while crying] they are my daughters and i will protect them

emily/sue
show: dickinson
year i got into them: 2021
canon: βœ…
++ emisue is so delicious are we kidding. i still have to finish dickinson but it’s not like i haven’t watched 90% of their scenes already anyway soooooo. what’s there not to love about a ship that involves an unhinged writer? exactly

wanda/natasha β™‘
movie: mcu
year i got into them: 2021
canon: ❌
++ i’m literally holding myself together to not make a literal WANDANAT PRIMER right now but… everyone already knows that i’ve been obsessed with these motherfuckers for what? seven months now? and it’s still so strong + i still read fics about them every single day + daydream about wandanat headcanons all the damn time??? and it’s not like i want it to end any time soon because why is this literally the ship of my dreams. the one i’ve been waiting for all these years. a ship that is so not canon and completely built on nothing but insanity + headcanons can be so important and fulfilling actually. i have thousands of other wlw mcu ships that i adore but nothing will ever come close to wandanat so i won’t even put them in the list LMAO

so, that’s all i have to say! thanks for reading this mess <3
pantomimes: (rosΓ© #2)
i've been stanning kpop groups since 2014/15, which means 6~7 years have passed by already. that's a lot and many things changed during these years, so i thought it would be interesting to make a timeline and analyze my kpop preferences.

the story )
pantomimes: (hyunjung)
 

hi! today i'm gonna try to rank my top 5 favorite ships in wjsn and as someone who has always been a big multi-shipper this is going to be hard as hell but... oh well. please keep in mind that these are just my favorites and that if a ship is not in my top five it doesn't mean i don't like it. tbh this ranking is only valid for now (may 11 2021) because i'm insane and get obsessed with a different wjsn ship every week... anyways. let's do this!

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bonus + final thoughts )

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