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2031-05-11 12:32 pm

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달이 익어가니 서둘러 젊은 피야, 민들레 한 송이 들고
lettie, she/her, 25.
ao3 + twt

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pantomimes: (kotone)
2026-03-08 10:32 pm

sss ao3 stats


data collected on: feb 21, 2026
# of fics: 1.250

girls never die, 절대 never cry )
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2026-02-04 07:15 pm

3sf 2026 fills

my [community profile] threesentenceficathon fills so far! i still want to write some more for this fest because it turned out to be an incredible way for me to come out of writer's block (and finally become brave enough to write stuff that isn't kpop rpf), so if i do it i'll just update this post with the new ones.

Buffyverse/BTVS, Tara/Willow, enchanted · buffy the vampire slayer, willow/tara
any k-pop fandom, any(/any), I love you more than our fans do · triples, sohyun/dahyun
Any, any, varieties of homesickness · triples, kotone/jiyeon
Any, any/any, “Fuck you!” “Fuck me yourself, coward!” · buffy the vampire slayer, willow/anya
Any, any, This is just a storm inside a teacup / But shelter here with me, my love · buffy the vampire slayer, willow/faith
any, any, one last time · spice girls, geri/mel b
Any, any f/f, carnal · gossip girl, blair/georgina
any, any F/F, i want to fucking tear you apart · buffy the vampire slayer, willow/faith
any, any, eating together · triples, kotone/jiyeon
Any, Any, There's more to do, and I still want to live · triples, yooyeon & yubin
pantomimes: (aseul)
2026-01-27 01:22 am

triples wip graveyard

"when will i finally publish a triples fic?" i ask god as he laughs and spits on me. in all seriousness, it's getting bleak out here! all i seem to do is write half a sss fic and then abandon it for months and it's driving me insane!!! anyway. these are some dead wips of mine that will probably never see the light, so i thought i might as well share them here as i usually do.

untitled - dahyun/sohyun | road trip au | 256w | (was supposed to be) rated e
hey there summer girl, let's go for a drive
This whole situation is ridiculous, Dahyun thinks as she frowns, letting her forehead drop against the car window with a soft thud.

She’s had worse dreams. A lot of them, actually. Last week she had to sleep with the lights on after dreaming she was being chased by an army of demons, or whatever those nasty monsters from the horror movie Kaede forced her to watch were.

But, of course, the dream where she’s in the club with Sohyun and everyone wants a piece of her girlfriend is the one that actually fucks her over and ruins her mood to the point where her hands are itching with the urge to beat the shit out of someone—one of the vultures her brain made up, preferably.

Dahyun is so busy glaring at the poor lake they’re parked in front of that she doesn’t notice Sohyun slowly blinking her eyes open, hands instinctively reaching out, searching for Dahyun’s.

The thoughts of murder and violence vanish from Dahyun’s brain for a second when Sohyun intertwines their fingers, but when that lazy smile that Dahyun adores oh so much blooms on Sohyun’s face, she finds she has no choice but to move to the driver’s seat, legs straddling each side of Sohyun’s waist as she holds her girlfriend’s face between her hands.

Pretty, Dahyun admires. Sohyun is so pretty.

“Hi,” Sohyun murmurs, voice still hoarse with sleep. Dahyun melts.

“Hi,” Dahyun's hands move from Sohyun's face to the back of her neck, nails dancing through her lover's nape. “Slept well?”

untitled - dahyun/mayu | canon compliant | 640w | rated t
love me, love me, say that you love me
“You know what I just noticed?”

Dahyun looks up from her plate, the chocolate cake momentarily forgotten as she gives Yooyeon her full attention. Mayu, sitting beside her, does the same.

Yooyeon grins, then uses her fork to gesture between Dahyun and Mayu as she says, “I’ve never seen you two standing this close. Like, ever.”

Oh, Dahyun thinks, biting the inside of her cheeks while she processes the words Yooyeon threw at them. Then Dahyun turns to her right and—god, as if her situation couldn’t get any worse—she’s greeted by the view of Mayu looking every bit like an abandoned puppy, her big sad eyes tearing Dahyun’s soul apart.

“Yooyeon unnie is right,” Mayu whines, then drops the bomb, “Do you not like me, Dahyun-ah?”



When Dahyun says her life ended that day, she means it.

She knows that Yooyeon didn’t mean to send her mind spiraling and that Mayu—sweet, gentle, kind Mayu—was just playing along when she threw that fateful question at her.

Still, her brain refuses to get it together and cooperate, making her act all sorts of weird whenever she has to share the same space as Mayu—which is manageable, at first, but as soon as they start the preparations for their yearly full-group comeback, it becomes obvious to everyone and their mothers that there’s something very, very wrong with Dahyun.

“So,” Nakyoung drops beside her during their fifteen minute break, a half-empty water bottle in her hands, “are you going to tell me what’s going on or am I going to have to rip it off of you?”

Dahyun shoots her an annoyed glance, scoffs, then rests the back of her head against the mirror. “There’s nothing going on.”

It’s Nakyoung’s turn to scoff now. “Come on. I can’t remember the last time you screamed who are you into my face,” Nakyoung nudges Dahyun’s arm with her elbow, “not to mention the fact that you keep refusing to play stupid mobile games with me. I’ll have to switch gaming partners, maybe Mayu will be a better one—”

Dahyun groans, loud enough for her to receive confused looks from a few of the other members standing nearby, but thanks to Yubin’s deafening scream and string of complaints about something Chaeyeon did to her, the attention is short-lived.

Nakyoung doesn’t budge, though—much to Dahyun’s chagrin. Nakyoung’s gaze stays on her, focused and sharp, as if she was trying to read her mind. And when Dahyun hears a gasp, followed by the specific laugh Nakyoung lets out whenever she’s about to make her life a living hell, Dahyun knows she’s done for.

“Mayu is the problem, isn’t she?” Nakyoung asks, still giggling. When Dahyun lets out a tired sigh, turns away and refuses to answer, she starts laughing even more. “Yah!” Nakyoung shakes Dahyun’s shoulder, hands firm as she tries to get Dahyun to look at her again. “Did you two fight?”

“We didn’t fight!” Dahyun squeaks, slaps Nakyoung’s hands away. “It’s nothing, really.”

“It doesn’t sound like nothing,” Nakyoung presses, but Dahyun remains silent, a pout forming on her lips as she crosses her arms under her chest. “Tell me, princess,” Nakyoung sings, well aware that Dahyun is unable to resist the nickname. “What’s bothering you?”

And Dahyun spent a good minute trying to come up with a good excuse to push Nakyoung away, she really did—but at the end of the day she’s only human. And even though Nakyoung loves to tease her, she knows she can trust her with all of her thoughts, even the most nonsensical ones, so she lets her head drop over Nakyoung’s lap and tells her the truth.

“I think I’ve been a terrible friend to Mayu,” Dahyun confesses, surprised by how shaky her own voice sounds as she pours out the thought that’s been torturing her for an entire month.

untitled - dahyun/mayu | canon compliant | 720w | rated t
heaven is a home
Dahyun doesn’t know how she got herself in this situation.

One minute she was on the verge of tears, blaming herself for not being able to get a specific move right. In the next one she’s outside, fresh air filling her lungs, a soft hand pushing her forward.

“Manager unnie will be mad if she finds out we’re here,” Dahyun whispers, even though there’s no one around except the two of them.

“She won’t!” Mayu exclaims for the nth time that night, then hands Dahyun her phone. “I took care of it, look!”

Dahyun blinks a few times as she tries to adjust her tired eyes to the bright screen, and once the words start to make sense, she recognizes what seems to be the Japanese members’ group chat.

真友 🐇
distract manager unnie for me ❤️❤️❤️❤️ please
i'll be back soon~
01:25 AM

Dahyun stares at Mayu, then at the screen, then up at Mayu again. “You’re unbelievable, unnie,” Dahyun chuckles, hands back the phone. “You think they’re doing a good job at it?”

“Tone is, probably,” Mayu hums, stopping in front of Dahyun with a serious—yet painfully adorable—look on her face, pressing the tip of her finger over the crease between Dahyun’s eyebrows. “But you shouldn’t worry about that, okay? You’re here to relax. With me! Just focus on me.

“Fine,” Dahyun laughs, for real this time, and pretends the proud smile that blooms on Mayu’s face doesn’t make her heart skip a beat or two. “Now feed me, please,” Dahyun whines, tugs at the hem of Mayu’s grey hoodie. “I’m so hungry.”

“Fine, fine,” Mayu coos, pats the top of Dahyun’s head, then entwines their hands again. Dahyun is afraid she might combust into a million pieces of heart-shaped confetti if Mayu keeps being this cute towards her. “Let’s get you some food.”



“Feeling better now?”

Dahyun nods, pushing her chair even closer to Mayu’s so she can rest her head on her shoulder. Mayu, always delighted to receive any sort of physical contact, throws an arm around Dahyun and lets her hand wander through the extension of her back, pulling a content sigh from Dahyun’s throat.

“We need to go back, though, I still need—”

Dahyun gets interrupted by her own yawn—a long, loud one that grabs the cashier’s attention and Mayu can't help but chuckle at. Dahyun furrows her eyebrows, ready to reprimand Mayu for laughing at her when another one slips out of her mouth, louder this time.

Mayu, amused at the scene, brings her mouth near Dahyun's ear and whispers, “You were saying?”

“Unnie!” Dahyun complains, but to no one's surprise, lacks the strength to push her away. Mayu is soft and warm and the feeling of her breath against her skin makes it impossible for Dahyun to move an inch, even though she's being very, very annoying right now. “Stop teasing me. And we actually need to go back.”

“Why?” Mayu asks, bringing her lips even closer to Dahyun's ear this time. “Don't you like spending time with your unnie?”

Dahyun has to bite the inside of her cheeks to not let out the most embarrassing sound known to man. “I need to practice.”

“No way,” Mayu pulls back enough to study Dahyun’s face, but keeps her arms firm around Dahyun's frame, as if trying to get her point across. “No more practice for you today.”

“But—”

“No buts,” Mayu puts her index finger over Dahyun's lips, and it takes all of Dahyun's strength not to faint right then and there. Mayu will be the death of her, there's no room for doubt anymore. “We’ll go back, get our things, and go home.”

Dahyun opens her mouth again, gears herself up to blur out yet another ridiculous excuse as to why she needs to spend three more hours singing and dancing in front of a mirror, but then Mayu hits her with the cutest, least threatening frown in the entire world and she forgets why she’s being so hard on herself in the first place.

Right here, under a flickering—and nearly blinding, might she add—convenience store light is a beautiful girl, begging for the opportunity to take care of her. She’d be a fool not to take it.

“Alright,” Dahyun surrenders. Mayu’s entire face glows with happiness. “Take me home, unnie.”
pantomimes: (dark willow)
2025-08-08 01:42 pm

spells to end the world


my favorite excerpts from buffy the vampire slayer: the official grimoire: a magickal history of sunnydale, aka a compilation of diary entries and spells gathered and written down by the one and only willow rosenberg. endless amounts of btvs spoilers ahead!

blood of the slain, hear me )
pantomimes: (lottie)
2025-06-21 12:00 am

btvs initial thoughts

a few days ago i (finally) decided to start watching buffy. now that i'm done with the first season i'd like to write down my thoughts about the show so far. let's get into it!

*ominous voice*: she is the slayer )
pantomimes: (aseul)
2025-05-11 08:53 pm

wip graveyard '24 - mid '25

my second wip graveyard! as i said in the first one, all of these were written in questionable hours of the night so no, i didn't proofread/format them to perfection, but i'd still like to share them anyway.

nobody gets me - snsd, taeyeon/tiffany | canon compliant | 269w | rated t
only like myself when i'm with you
Taeyeon is sitting in the middle of Kibum’s living room when her phone starts vibrating inside her pocket.

Tiffany [08:35 PM]
Hey!!! Look at this!!!
anantara.com/en/riverside-bangkok
Pretty isn’t it?

Taeyeon closes her eyes and sighs. She knows what this means, and she knows that, this time, she won’t be able to say no—doesn’t have to heart so say sorry, I’m busy with work, let’s try to meet another day for the tenth time in a row.

Tiffany deserves better than this. It’s not her fault that—

“What? What is it?” Kibum points to Taeyeon’s phone, stretching his neck to catch a glimpse of the message. Taeyeon lets him, lacking the strength to lock her screen and push him away. Kibum frowns as he reads, shooting Taeyeon a sympathetic look once he’s done. “Oh, girl.”

Taeyeon rests her head on Kibum’s shoulder and stays there for a while, contemplating about what she should do next, about what she should say to Tiffany—beautiful, kind, patient Tiffany who just wants to spend some time with her, as they often did before she moved back to the U.S.

Before Taeyeon had to deal with some uncomfortable truths.

“Are you going to reply or not?” Kibum speaks up after minutes of silence between them, nudging Taeyeon’s ribs with his elbow.

“What should I do,” Taeyeon runs her fingers through her hair. “God, what should I do.

“I’m sure you know the answer already,” Kibum gives Taeyeon’s shoulder an encouraging squeeze. “Just do it.”

Taeyeon [08:56 PM]
Book us a room, Fany-ah
We’re going on a trip

for your eyes only - snsd, taeyeon/tiffany | canon compliant, established relationship | 251w | (was supposed to be) rated e
secretly, without anyone knowing
Taeyeon nearly dies the first time it happens.

She's in the passenger seat of the car, dozing off while her manager drives her to her last schedule of the day, when her phone starts beeping inside her bag.

She considers ignoring it, assuming it's Kibum sending her stupid memes he found on Instagram as usual, but the annoying sound keeps reaching Taeyeon's ears and, by extension, her manager's. Worried that the sound might be disruptive enough to cause an actual accident, Taeyeon unzips her bag and grabs her phone.

블랙티 🖤 sent you 10 new messages.

Taeyeon frowns. She has no idea why Tiffany would be sending her this many messages when it's not even eight in the morning in the U.S yet. Her girlfriend would usually start spamming her around lunch, when she'd spend at least an hour sending her countless links of pet clothes and rambling about how cute they'd look on Zero.

Fear starts taking over Taeyeon's senses, hands shaking at the mere thought of something bad happening to her girlfriend and—

Her phone slips from her grasp the second she unlocks her screen.

“Fuck,” Taeyeon curses under her breath, picking up the device from the floor and shoving it back inside her bag.

Her manager side-eyes her, asks if she's okay, to which she answers with a nod and a tight-lipped smile. Which is far from the truth because, fuck, she's not okay. She's far from okay. Actually, she thinks she might faint any minute now.

it's all me, just don't go - wjsn, seola/soobin | canon compliant, miscommunication, loser hyunjung | 1.2k | rated t
meet me in the afterglow
“Unnie,” Soobin starts tentatively, hands sliding under her own thighs. “Do you like me?”

Hyunjung doesn’t look up from her book, nor does she flinch at the question. She finds the situation kind of silly, actually. Hasn’t she made it obvious, like, a thousand times throughout the years they’ve known each other?

From the second they got over their initial awkwardness towards each other, Hyunjung has stuck to Soobin’s side like a lifeline—patient, unwavering, quietly planting seeds of affection with each action and word, hoping one day they would bloom and turn into a beautiful, endless garden.

“I do,” Hyunjung fixes her glasses with the tip of her finger, flips a page of the book she’s been engrossed in for hours. “Of course I do.”

“No,” Soobin huffs, growing impatient. Hyunjung doesn’t have to look at her to know her cheeks are red and puffed, as they usually are when she’s either embarrassed or annoyed. She’s probably going through a weird mix of both right now, given the situation. “Do you like me like that?

“Yes,” Hyunjung removes her glasses, bookmarks the page she was in, and leaves the novel on the nightstand before she turns to face Soobin. “Unnie likes you like that.

Silence falls between them. Soobin switches her gaze from Hyunjung’s face to the door, then to the floor, then to the abandoned cup of coffee over the computer table. Hyunjung keeps staring at her, lips curling up at the scene. A flustered Park Soobin is always a sight to see, for sure.

Soobin frowns, chews on her lower lip, seeming deep in thought. Then, still staring everywhere but Hyunjung, she asks meekly, “What now?”

“What do you mean, what now?

“God, you’re so frustrating!” Soobin exclaims, runs her fingers through her hair. She gets up from the couch and starts pacing back and forth, muttering nonsense under her breath. Hyunjung worries Soobin might accidentally dig a hole in her bedroom floor with the strength she’s putting in each step. “You like me. You like like me.”

“Do I have to say it again?” Hyunjung chuckles, shakes her head in disbelief. “I do like you. I like you a lot, Soobin-ah—”

“Stop—just stop!” Soobin squeaks, hands resting on each side of her cheeks. Hyunjung can see how flushed her skin is even with Soobin’s useless attempt to hide it. She keeps it to herself, though—Soobin might choke her to death if she dares to comment on it. “I just—I’m going home. See you later.”

“Wait, wait—” Hyunjung jumps out of her bed, grabs Soobin’s wrist before she can get to the knob. “It’s late. Stay over.”

Soobin swats Hyunjung’s hands away as if she’s been electrocuted, eyes all big and panic-stricken. Okay, Hyunjung thinks as she begrudgingly releases Soobin from her hold, now I’m a bit hurt.

Soobin slips out of Hyunjung’s bedroom without uttering another word, leaving Hyunjung bruised, anxious and confused.

“What the hell just happened,” Hyunjung mutters, rushing to grab her phone and type a message to the one person she knows will be, without a doubt, there for her.


김현정 • 11:23 pm
i think i fucked up

근덕이 • 11:25 pm
wow, shocking

김현정 • 11:25 pm
juyeon-ah…
it’s about soobin

근덕이 • 11:26 pm
fuck
i’ll be there in 15 minutes

김현정 • 11:26 pm
bring me some bread
please

근덕이 • 11:27 pm
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
you’re unbelievable, unnie



“You did what now?” Juyeon asks, eyes threatening to jump out of her skull as she leaves the bread bag over the kitchen table, throwing herself in the empty spot on the couch next to Hyunjung.

“I told Soobin I like her,” Hyunjung repeats, firmer this time. “Then she ran away.”

Juyeon pinches the bridge of her nose, body sinking further into the couch. “Out of nowhere?”

“She asked me,” Hyunjung explains, uneasy. “And I said yes, then—”

“No, no” Juyeon shakes her head and puts a hand up to get Hyunjung to stop talking. Hyunjung complies, blinks a few times. “Tell me exactly how it went down.”

“She came over this afternoon,” Hyunjung starts, making herself more comfortable on the couch and letting her eyes wander through the expansion of her living room ceiling. “We spent time as we usually do, each of us doing our own stuff, talking every once in a while. She was on her phone while I was reading a book in bed when she asked me if I liked her, and I said yes, because I do like her. Everyone knows. I thought she knew, too.”

“Unnie,” Juyeon facepalms, exasperated. “This is Park Soobin we’re talking about. She’s probably mad because you said it so, well—so carelessly. No effort, nothing. Did you even stop reading before you said it?”

Fuck, Hyunjung laments internally, throws one arm over her face. “No?”

“And you’re still wondering why she left?” Juyeon scoffs, irritation and disbelief written all over her face. “Soobin unnie loves attention. Your attention, especially. She was probably waiting for you to, I don’t know, kneel in front of her and confess your undying love for her in a million different ways.”

Hyunjung pauses at that, frown forming on her forehead as she processes Juyeon’s words. It didn’t feel careless to Hyunjung, it felt… natural. The sky is blue, grass is green and Hyunjung likes Soobin, simple as that.

“You think so?”

“I know so,” Juyeon sighs, expression melting into something softer, understanding. Juyeon is too kind for her own good, sometimes. Hyunjung is lucky to have her. “You have to fix this, unnie.”

“I will, I will,” Hyunjung says, even though she has no idea how she’s supposed to fix the mess she dragged herself into.

Hyunjung is a calm, subtle and reserved person. She was convinced that loving Soobin in her own, tranquil way would eventually lead them to their happily ever after, but it turns out that’s not the case. It never occurred to her that, after years of dancing around their feelings and hundreds of displays of devotion—some of them public, in front of their fans and friends, much to the rest of the members’ chagrins—Soobin could be expecting the refined, drama type of confession.

It’s a lot to take in.

“It will be fine, unnie,” Juyeon offers Hyunjung a reassuring smile. “Just don't waste time, okay?”



김현정 • 10:35 am
soobin-ah
can we talk?

Seen February 10, 10:35 AM.


김현정 • 02:30 pm
hey
me, sojung and juyeon are going out for dinner tonight
wanna come?

여보 • 02:42 pm
can't, busy

김현정 • 02:42 pm
ah, i see…
let me know when you're free?

Seen February 11, 02:44 PM.


김현정 • 11:15 am
soobin-ah
how long are you going to keep ignoring me? hm?

✓ Seen February 12, 11:15 AM.


Hyunjung lies face down on the bed when she realizes she’s been left on read again, cursing herself a thousand times into her pillows.

This is hell. Hyunjung feels like she’s going through withdrawals—Park Soobin withdrawals, the worst and most violent kind of them all. She isn’t sure how long she’ll be able to function without her daily dose of Soobin, is surprised she even made it this far.

love so sweet - wjsn, yeoreum/yeonjung | canon compliant, fluff | 1.3k | rated t
20, 20 decibel
“It’s time to get up. Come on, Yeonjung-ah.”

“Don’t want to,” Yeonjung whines, pulls the covers over her head. “Leave me alone.”

Yeoreum sighs, drags her hands through her face and groans in frustration. She knew waking Yeonjung up after the two of them stayed up watching movies until three in the morning would be hell, but she gave in to Yeonjung’s request anyway.

Why? Because Yeoreum missed her, terribly so, although she’ll never admit it out loud. Yeonjung would brag about it for months and Yeoreum refuses to give her a reason to tease her for as long as she lives. So she bites her tongue, swallows the words, and decides to show Yeonjung affection in other ways.

Which she kind of regrets now, considering the fact that it’s almost ten and they still have to prepare a cake for Hyunjung before they go to surprise her during music video shooting.

So much for being a fool for Yoo Yeonjung.

“I won’t cook for you anymore,” Yeoreum warns, pokes Yeonjung’s sides over the blanket, laughing quietly behind her fist when Yeonjung tries to slap it away, hands getting tangled in the fabric instead. “I mean it.”

“You wouldn’t dare,” Yeonjung says through a yawn, then pokes her head out. She looks adorable like this, face void of any makeup, eyes soft and puffy. Yeoreum wants to throw herself on top of her and stay there for the rest of the day. “Hi.”

“Hi,” Yeoreum smiles, tugs at the covers, and Yeonjung lets her pull them out of her without complaining this time. “Ready?”

“No,” Yeonjung deadpans, throws an arm over her eyes. “Can’t we just buy her a cake instead?”

Yeoreum rolls her eyes. “Of course not. But fine, keep sleeping if you don’t want to help, i’ll tell Hyunjung unnie you’re not coming anymore and—”

“Fine, fine!” Yeonjung pouts, throwing a glare at Yeoreum once she opens her eyes again. She looks as intimidating as a wet puppy.

“Get your ass up, then!” Yeoreum nags before she steps out of the bedroom, cackling when she hears Yeonjung cursing and telling her to stop treating her as if she’s a spoiled child.
This is bound to be an eventful morning, for sure.



It takes around twenty minutes for Yeonjung to join Yeoreum in the kitchen. She’s wearing an oversized blue hoodie, leggings, fluffy brown slippers and her hair is half up, half down. Yeoreum swoons at the sight, wishes she could wrap her arms around her waist and kiss her stupid until their lungs are about to burst.

She can’t, though, so she settles for a smile and motions for her to come closer, proudly showing off all the different sorts of ingredients and cooking supplies she bought for them to bake together.

Yeonjung looks both amused and confused, picking up a few of Yeoreum’s special spoons and bringing them closer to her face to analyze their shapes. Yeoreum giggles at the scene, aware that Yeonjung has no idea what any of them are meant for. “Always prepared, aren’t you?”

“It’s not like I can count on you to remember shit,” Yeoreum blurts out, and before she can keep teasing Yeonjung over how terrible her attention span is, she’s yelping in pain from the strength of Yeonjung’s hand hitting her arm. She scoffs, offended, and slaps her back. It infuriates her how Yeonjung doesn’t budge, standing there as if she’s been hit by a leaf and not by the hand of an adult woman. “What the fuck, Yeonjung! That hurted.”

“Don’t make fun of me and I won’t hit you,” Yeonjung warns, pointing one of the spoons in Yeoreum’s direction. “Simple as that.”

“Whatever,” Yeoreum huffs and decides to let go. Mostly because she knows she can’t stay mad at Yeonjung for too long, but also because they need to get this cake done for once and for all. “Put on your apron.”

Yeoreum puts her hair up in a bun, grabs her apron from where it lays over one of the kitchen chairs and puts it on, dusting it off as she makes sure it’s covering her clothes properly. Last week she forgot to bring hers and the result was Im Dayoung stumbling and pouring a whole glass of milk over one of her favorite shirts.

Yeoreum has learnt her lesson and will not go through that again, thank you very much.

When Yeoreum turns around, Yeonjung is standing in the same place, waving her obnoxiously pink apron around like a flag. Yeoreum lets out a frustrated huff at the sight, pinches the tip of her nose in order to calm herself down.

“What are you doing.”

“Yeoreum-ah,” Yeonjung calls in lieu of an answer, voice a tone higher, batting her eyelashes. “Put it on me.”

The worst—and most humiliating—part of the whole ordeal is that Yeoreum does find the scene cute. Very cute. There’s a lot of annoying things Yeonjung does that are cute in Yeoreum’s eyes, unfortunately. It turns out that being infatuated with someone does make you stupid. Dayoung was right every single time she told her so.

“Fine,” Yeoreum takes the apron from Yeonjung’s hand and stands behind her, putting it on as if being this close to her neck isn’t killing her inside. Yeonjung smells so good it should be a crime. For a second, Yeoreum considers throwing caution to the wind and placing a kiss on her soft, inviting skin. Maybe even turning her around, pressing her against the kitchen sink and—

“Your hands are shaking,” Yeonjung points out, bringing Yeoreum back to planet earth. Yeoreum can hear the grin in her voice, dangerous and vicious, and braces herself for whatever Yeonjung is about to spill out. “You like me that much?”

Yeoreum pushes Yeonjung away as if she’s been burnt and shoots her a glare, feeling a bit silly for acting like she said something absurd. She’s didn’t. Yeonjung’s never been more correct in her whole life. It’s embarrassing, really, how much Yeoreum likes her.

“Stop talking nonsense and get to work,” Yeoreum tries to scold her, but it comes out weak and weird, lacking bite.

Yeonjung laughs out loud, one hand over her chest, head tilting back. Butterflies fly wildly inside Yeoreum’s stomach, and she starts wondering if it’s possible that she’s falling in love with Yoo Yeonjung all over again.

“Yes, captain.”



“This is not what we planned last night.”

“What are you talking about? Of course it is.”

“No it’s not!” Yeoreum growls, cleaning her hands on her apron before she grabs her phone, handing it over to Yeonjung. “Look.”

Yeonjung takes Yeoreum’s phone, narrowing her eyes as she analyzes the picture for a while. Then, with a bashful smile on her face, she mutters, “I’m sorry, Yeoreum-ah. I won’t doubt you again.”

“You always say that,” Yeoreum sighs, patting Yeonjung’s shoulders when she sees the—adorable, she might add—pout on her lips. “Stop sulking like a baby, it’s okay.”

“I’m always making things harder for you,” Yeonjung says, and Yeoreum is ready to comfort her, but the gloomy look turns into a devilish smile in the blink of an eye. Uh oh. “Good thing you like me, right?”

Yeoreum scoffs, mouth opening and closing a hundred times as she tries to come up with a mean answer to that, something that will make her seem less like a deer caught in headlights, but unfortunately she’s too soft and too head-over-heels and not at all sharp like the leos of the group, so she bites her tongue, takes a deep breath, and says, “I don’t know where you got that idea.”

“Oh, you want me to give you a list? Alright—”

“No I do not—”

“Remember when I was sick and you canceled all your schedules to stay in the dorm with me—”

“I do that for everyone—”

“And you cooked me all of my favorite foods—”

“That too!”

“And stayed in bed with me the whole day, played with my hair to make me feel better and held me when I couldn’t sleep?”

Fuck, Yeoreum thinks, face burning hot even though it’s the middle of winter.

chasing that feeling - wjsn, bona/yeonjung | hero!au, fwb | 551w | rated m
it's all i know
“You,” Yeonjung hisses, removes her mask and shakes her head in an attempt to fix her hair. It’s useless, considering they’re on the rooftop of the tallest building in Seoul right now, wind always cold and unforgiving when you’re this high.

“Me,” Jiyeon sings, not at all bothered by Yeonjung’s disdain for her presence. Her nonchalance only serves to make Yeonjung even more annoyed. “It’s been a long time, Yeonjung-ah.”

“Not long enough,” Yeonjung spits out, mean and sharp. “Why are you back? And why did you look for me?”

“Slow down,” Jiyeon sits at the edge of the building, patting the empty space near her. When Yeonjung refuses to move, she continues, “I missed you. That’s why I’m back.”

Yeonjung scoffs, not believing Jiyeon had the audacity to utter those words. She’s been busy the whole day, relentlessly chasing after clues that would lead her to whatever was causing such a ruckus in the city, only for the culprit to be Kim Jiyeon. Fucking Kim Jiyeon, out of all people.

Last Yeonjung heard, Jiyeon was in Paris screwing some other girl. It was none of her business, but still. It would’ve been nice to have learnt Jiyeon left for another country from Jiyeon herself, not from an apologetic, careful Sojung after a mission debrief.

“Oh, you missed me?” Yeonjung barks through a bitter laugh and the lump forming inside her throat. She’s not one to be overly emotional, but she hasn’t had a second of peace today and she’s exhausted, muscles and bones worn out. All thanks to the woman standing in front of her, acting like this isn’t a big deal. “That’s why you left without saying a fucking word?”

Jiyeon pauses at that, frown visible on her forehead. She’s struggling to come up with something to say, Yeonjung can tell by the way her mouth opens and closes multiple times before she sighs, getting up so she can face Yeonjung properly. Now that they’re standing closer, Yeonjung can see a bruise on her lips and a cut on her cheek. Her hand is patched up, too. Yeonjung almost feels bad for her. Almost.

“I didn’t really know how to say goodbye to you,” Jiyeon confesses, each word dripping with uncharacteristic honesty, fiery gaze burning every inch of Yeonjung’s skin.

All that sincerity is disarming, really—big brown eyes studying her every move, drinking her in, eager for an answer. Yeonjung isn't used to it, not when it comes to Jiyeon.

She refuses to give her what she's silently asking for, though. Kim Jiyeon might be one hell of a sight to see with her dark hair flying against the wind, god-like face sparkling underneath neon lights, but Yeonjung is still hurt.

Hurt enough to not drag Jiyeon to her bedroom and fuck her until she's a panting, whiny mess underneath her, as it usually happens.

“Learn how to be a decent person first, then feel free to try again,” Yeonjung deadpans, hooks a wire around one of the light poles and positions herself on the edge of the building, making sure the equipment is rightfully stuck to her belt before she looks up at Jiyeon one last time. “You better fix all the shit you did today. Terrible way to grab my attention, don't do it again.”

mind if i stay - wjsn, seola/exy | legends of tomorrow!au | 431w | rated t
listen to the universe, you may find an answer
“There’s something I need to tell you.”

Hyunjung takes a step closer to Sojung, then another, then one more until their faces are only a few centimeters apart. Sojung notices that Hyunjung’s hands are shaking and feels the familiar urge to reach out and hold them in between hers, but decides against it.

Then the phrase that would haunt Sojung’s every waking thought finally slipped out of Hyunjung’s mouth, carving a dagger into her chest that would leave her bleeding for weeks.

“I love you, Sojung,” Hyunjung confesses, and Sojung's world ends. “I always have.”



It’s three in the morning and Sojung is getting ready to fly herself to a whole other decade.

Two weeks ago, the team dropped Yeoreum and Yeonjung in 1963 for a mission in Paris on their own. The visit was supposed to be simple and fast—their goal was to chat with a few students from Sorbonne University, gather some intel about the place, and then contact the team once they were done. But then a week passed, then another one, and the radio silence can only mean one thing: trouble.

Sojung didn’t think twice before owning up to her captain role and taking it upon herself to rescue the two of them. Mostly because the rest of the team can’t afford to get distracted about something else when a time anomaly back in 2014 is threatening to turn the entire universe upside down, but it’s also because she’s been grabbing onto any chance to be alone in the Waverider like a lifeline, no matter how dangerous said chance might be.

She wrote a quick note to the others, letting them know where she’s going and that Jiyeon is in charge until she returns, sticking it to the bedroom door of the house they were staying in for the time being before she finally leaves, backpack hanging over her shoulders.

Sojung rushes to the backyard, uncloaks the Waverider, activates the password and enters the ship, leaving her belongings over one of the seats before she turns around—and it’s only then that, to her terror, Sojung realizes that she’s not alone.

“What are you doing here?”

Sojung despises how mean she sounds as soon as the words slip out of her mouth. Hyunjung doesn’t deserve this. She doesn't deserve to be in love with someone like her. She doesn’t, she doesn’t—

“I’m not letting you go to 1963 alone,” Hyunjung explains, calm and collected, as if the reason was obvious and there was nothing weird about this situation. As if nothing changed. “I’ll come with you.”

all my poetry - triples, sohyun/dahyun | band!au | 1.1k | rated t
if i write it, does it matter?
Dahyun steps into Sohyun’s life in the middle of the harshest winter she’s ever faced.

She dropped out of college, her parents kicked her out of their house as retaliation, and to make the whole situation all the more depressing, every single demo she sent to music labels and radio stations were promptly ignored, not even worthy of receiving a single this sucks and we want nothing to do with it as an answer.

Then enters Dahyun, holding the shitty flyer that Nakyoung made in five minutes in her hands, a shy yet determined glow in her eyes as she says, “I’d like to audition for the lead singer spot.”

The sun is here, Sohyun thinks, dumbfounded, unable to form a coherent sentence as Nakyoung and Kotone welcome Dahyun in. God, it’s finally here.



It’s easy, working with Dahyun.

She’s punctual, isn’t afraid to voice out her opinions and, Jesus, Sohyun swears she’s never heard anything quite as breathtaking as her voice in her entire life. Even if Dahyun, in some twisted alternative universe, ended up being the most stuck-up, annoying brat she’s ever met in her life, Sohyun thinks she’d still choose to keep her around for sounding as heavenly as she does.

Thankfully, Dahyun is none of those things. Quite the opposite, Sohyun learns as time goes on and their relationship advances from co-workers, to friends, then to really close friends, then to—

“Unnie,” Dahyun asks, fidgets with the hem of her—Sohyun’s—old sweater. Sohyun hums in lieu of an answer, still staring at the computer in front of her, reading through the emails she received from the multiple music executives she contacted the past week with a frown on her face. “Are you seeing anyone?”

Sohyun freezes. Those four words wipe all the apologies from rich men she was previously reading through from her brain.

Sohyun spins around in her chair, taking in Dahyun’s appearance. Sohyun loves how it looks on her, hates that she can’t pull them off of Dahyun’s body herself. “I’m… not?”

Dahyun’s shoulders relax, her gaze softens. Sohyun tries not to delve too much into what that could mean. “You’d tell me—us, if you were, right?”

“Of course,” Sohyun reassures her with a gentle curl of her lips. Dahyun flashes Sohyun a smile of her own, too, and for a brief second they’re stuck in their own little world, until—

“Look! Look!”

Dahyun nearly drops from the couch in reaction to Kotone’s abrupt entrance, and Sohyun would ask her if she was alright, but Nakyoung comes in next, looking as excited as Kotone, and Sohyun figures she should finally give them her full attention.

Seoul Band Festival, reads the words in the paper Kotone is practically shoving into their faces. Sohyun blinks once, twice, then takes the pamphlet being held out to her, reading carefully through all the conditions to sign up for the festival and—

“This is crazy.”

Kotone nods enthusiastically. “Good type of crazy, right?”

“Yeah, too good,” Sohyun laughs in disbelief. She turns to Nakyoung who’s just as enthusiastic as Kotone, then to Dahyun, and all the air is knocked out of her lungs at the sight in front of her.

Seo Dahyun, all teary-eyed, still staring at the announcement as if she’s waiting for the words to change, to make it impossible for them to join the most prestigious festival in the country. Seo Dahyun, meeting her gaze, biting her lower lip to contain a smile that ends up blooming anyway, sparkling with nothing but hope.
Sohyun decides, right then and there, that they’re winning this thing. Hell, she’d give her own life in a heartbeat if it meant Dahyun would keep smiling at her like that.

As soon as the conversation dies down and they start to leave the studio one by one, Sohyun flops back into her chair and allows her heart to guide her art for the rest of the night.



The next weeks pass by in a blur.

They spend most—if not all—of their free time in Sohyun’s tiny, cramped-up studio, devoting themselves to their craft. The four of them come up with a bunch of songs—some okay, some good, some straight-up awful and a handful of masterpieces that are worth of being sung by thousands of people in a sold-out stadium—and the more they rehearse, the more hope seems to sink deep into their bones, spreading through their veins and creating an euphoric atmosphere whenever they were together.

And Dahyun, well—she’s still the center of Sohyun’s universe, pulling her into her orbit effortlessly. Sohyun’s too weak to fight against it, takes whatever Dahyun hands her without complaints.

It’s foolish, really. Sohyun knows that. So does Nakyoung and Kotone, because not only have they known Sohyun like the back of their hands for years, they’re also not stupid.



There’s a faint knock on the door before it opens, revealing a fresh out the shower Dahyun, wearing a loose pink t-shirt with droplets of water still sticking to her exposed collarbones. Sohyun bites the tip of her own tongue, tries not to stare too much.

“Hi,” Dahyun says, wraps her arms around Sohyun’s shoulders from behind, and Sohyun has to try her best not to get up from her chair and bury her face into Dahyun’s neck. “You called?”

“Mhm,” Sohyun nods, clears her throat in a foolish attempt to hide how flustered she is. “I came up with a song for the festival. Wanna give it a listen?”

Dahyun gives Sohyun’s shoulders one last squeeze before she untangles herself and sits on the empty chair next to her. “Who am I to say no to a Park Sohyun original?”

Sohyun scratches her nape and looks down, hopes Dahyun can’t see the faint hint of red spreading through her cheeks. Dahyun is a compliment machine, has been since day one, but Sohyun still hasn’t figured out how to take them without feeling as if there are thousands of butterflies soaring inside her stomach.

Without saying another word, Sohyun pressed play in the demo she recorded earlier, and leaned back on her chair as she studied each and every single one of Dahyun’s reactions to her song.

Sohyun can feel her ears burning up, and she isn’t quite sure of what to do with her trembling hands, but she refuses to tear her eyes away, eager to drink all of Dahyun in.

When the song ends, Dahyun remains silent. Her eyes keep darting between Sohyun and the computer screen, hands resting over the headphones in her head, unsure if she should take them off or not.

The lack of an immediate reaction makes Sohyun antsy. She isn’t sure what to say or do, doubts she’d be able to survive if Dahyun gave her a negative feedback, which she usually wouldn’t be hurt by, but this song, it’s just—it’s all about—

“Unnie,” Dahyun breathes out, licks her own lips while staring right at Sohyun’s, then continues, “this song is about me, isn’t it?”
pantomimes: (yerin)
2025-03-27 01:38 am

ring, ring a bell

or, (mostly) kpop songs i've been listening to recently.

is it blood, blood? )
pantomimes: (handong)
2024-03-01 01:46 am

jan & feb media round-up


here i am again, slapping january and february together in a single post because i was too lazy to do one of these last month. and also because my media consumption lately has been... well, basically non-existent. hopefully this will change in the next few months, but while we're here, let's get into it!

echo, echo, echo in my brain )
pantomimes: (aseul)
2024-02-11 10:46 pm

life in fic (2012-2023)


me, waking up in the middle of the night, sweating and panting: what if you collected data about every single fic you’ve written since age 11 for no fucking reason and drove yourself insane while you're at it?
💗✍️ )
pantomimes: (barbie)
2024-01-27 01:25 pm
Entry tags:

yuri introspection

inspired by sleepyshamrocks's and lovebalance's posts. let's get into it!

yuri is love yuri is life )
pantomimes: (aseul)
2024-01-18 09:28 pm
Entry tags:

2023 comment ficathon: fills + commentary

FILLS
# of fills: 3
# of words written: 2.440

bleeding out, then it was donesnsd, jessica/tiffany, 585w
cool about itwjsn, bona/dawon, 655w
doomsday (death of me)snsd, yoona/seohyun, 1.2k

anyone else writing 2nd gen fic in the year of our lord 2024? )
pantomimes: (aseul)
2024-01-06 04:12 pm

wip graveyard '23

decided to do one of these because why not. here's a few wips from 2023 that, unfortunately, never saw the light of day. none of these are proofread and were written late at night, please proceed with that in mind.

heaven in hiding - wjsn, bona/yeonjung + mentions of luda/dawon | college!au, secret relationship | 1.1k | rated m
can you hear my heartbeat, fucking kicking?
“Yeonjung-ah,” Jiyeon mewls, head thrown back against the cold tiles, nails scratching lightly at Yeonjung’s scalp. “You’re so good to me. So, so good.”

Yeonjung, on her knees in front of Jiyeon, lets out a pleased hum, too busy leaving kisses all over Jiyeon’s thighs to come up with a proper answer. She loves when Jiyeon is like this, sitting on her kitchen countertop, drunk on her touches, showering her with all sorts of praises.

Yeonjung looks up for a second and the sight of a disheveled, sweaty Jiyeon sprawled in front of her makes her heart skip a beat or two. It’s been a little over a month since they’ve gotten together, much longer since they started hooking up, and she still hasn’t gotten used to this—having Kim Jiyeon all to herself, even if only behind closed doors.

She loves to tease Jiyeon, to push her to her limits until she’s whining and begging for something, anything, but she decides against it tonight. She craved for her girlfriend the whole day, mostly due to not-so-innocent pictures Jiyeon decided to send her while she was in the middle of an important class, and she can’t wait anymore.

She needs to taste Jiyeon, and she needs to do it now.

So she leaves one last kiss on the inside of Jiyeon’s thigh, wraps her fingers around the waistband of Jiyeon’s panties, starts pulling the fabric down and—

Jiyeon’s phone starts ringing. Loud and annoying and incessantly.

Yeonjung groans, head dropping in defeat over Jiyeon’s thigh, because she already knows what it means—Jiyeon has to leave.

Jiyeon coughs a few times to clear her throat, adjusts her tone, then talks to Sojung—one of her classmates—as if she wasn’t about to get eaten out a second ago. Yeonjung remains in the same place, motionless and frustrated as she listens to the quick exchange.

“Your classmates hate me,” Yeonjung grunts as soon as the call comes to an end. “This happens all the time. It’s like they can sense we’re about to fuck or something.”

“They must hate me too, then. I was really looking forward to spending some time with you,” Jiyeon laments and pats Yeonjung’s head, putting a few loose strands behind her ear. “I miss you.”

Yeonjung lifts her head up, pouting as she admits, “I miss you too.”

“Come here,” Jiyeon beckons her closer with a finger and Yeonjung readily obeys the command, hands resting on each side of Jiyeon’s body, their faces mere centimeters apart. “I’m all yours tomorrow, okay? I’ll make sure there are no interruptions. Just me, you, and nothing else.”

Yeonjung sinks her teeth into her lower lip, butterflies going wild inside her stomach at the mere thought of spending the whole day with her girlfriend. “Promise?”

“I promise.” Jiyeon smiles, pressing multiple kisses over Yeonjung’s cheeks, neck and collarbones, leaving one last peck over her lips before she pulls away. “Now I need a shower.”

Yeonjung bats her eyelashes innocently. “Can I join?”

“It’s just a shower,” Jiyeon warns, trying to sound stern, but Yeonjung’s wounded expression manages to pull a giggle out of her.

“Unnie,” Yeonjung puts a hand over her chest, feigning offense, “When have I ever turned a simple shower into something else?”

“Let me see,” Jiyeon scratches her chin for a moment, pretends to count on her fingers, “A million times?”

“Lies,” Yeonjung protests as she helps Jiyeon come down from the countertop, kissing her shoulder before she trails behind her, “All you do is lie.”


After taking a quick shower and saying goodbye with a kiss that almost has Jiyeon canceling all of her plans, Yeonjung decides to spend the rest of the night at Luda’s apartment.

Luda lives in the building right next to Yeonjung’s, so it doesn’t take more than five minutes before Yeonjung is knocking at her door, a bag with alcohol and snacks hanging from her arm. After multiple knocks, messages and an audio message from Yeonjung that says I’m going to kill you if you don’t get your ass up and open this fucking door, the knob finally turns, revealing an annoyed Lee Luda already in her pajamas, headset draped around her neck.

“Be kinder to me, you brat,” Luda says in lieu of a greeting as she steps aside for Yeonjung to come in. “I’m still older than you.”
“What was I supposed to do, freeze to death outside?” Yeonjung rolls her eyes, leaves the bag over Luda’s coffee table. “What are you playing, anyway?”

“Overwatch,” Luda yawns, removes the headset and leaves it over a chair. “I’m bored, though. No decent opponents for five rounds straight.”

“Where’s your girlfriend?” Yeonjung passes Luda a can of beer, throwing herself over Luda’s couch as if she owns the place. Luda, more than used to Yeonjung’s antics by now, doesn’t bat an eye. “Didn’t you say she was almost as good as you?”

“Dawonie? She’s at some dance club emergency meeting,” Luda sighs, takes a sip of the alcohol in her hands. “They have these all the time, it’s so annoying.”

Oh, so Dawon is there too, Yeonjung thinks, hums as she processes the information. At least I’m not the only one being affected by these stupid dance club reunions.

“Jiyeon unnie is there too,” Yeonjung grumbles, and since Luda is the only person that already knows about their relationship, she continues, “I’m so annoyed. She teased me the whole day and I was so close to finally eating her o—”

“Okay, okay, stop,” Luda closes her eyes, shakes her head and blocks her ears. “I don’t need to know what you two do when you’re alone. Gross.”

Yeonjung scoffs, feeling genuinely affronted when she protests, “You’ve told me worse!”

“I’m older than you.”

“Stop using the older card!”

“Never, brat—”

“I’m not a brat—”

“You know damn well you are—”

“If I’m a brat, then you’re the antichrist—”

Their bickering session gets interrupted by Luda’s phone, some Troye Sivan song Yeonjung can’t remember the title that Dawon chose for Luda because, according to her, it’s the perfect summary of their relationship blasts through the living room and snaps them out of their insult battle.

You’re so gay, Yeonjung remembers telling Luda when she told her the story behind her ringtone choice. Shut the fuck up, Luda answered, ever the sweet talker.

“Hi, Dawonie,” Luda says as she picks up, ignoring Yeonjung pretending to gag from the other side of the couch. “Mhm. No, I’m not busy. Yeonjungie is here. Okay. I’ll be waiting.”

“What is it?”

“She wants to make a video call,” Luda says, and soon enough her phone is ringing again.

getaway car - wjsn, exy/yeonjung + mentions of bona/dawon | canon divergence, wjsn never existed but they're still idols | 1.4k | rated t
the best of times
“Unnie!” Yeonjung calls as she bursts through the door of Sojung’s studio, not even bothering to knock first. She sounds excited, the happiest Sojung has seen her all week. “I heard you got your driver's license. Is it true?”

“Yup,” Sojung smirks, grabs the key sitting beside her empty coffee cup and twirls it on her finger to show off. “The rumors are true.”

“And you already have a car?” Yeonjung asks, eyes shining with hope. Her smile grows once Sojung confirms with a nod, and she doesn’t think twice before she’s throwing herself on Sojung’s lap, nearly breaking the new computer chair Sojung bought last week in the process. “You can finally take me on a road trip, then.”

Sojung raises an eyebrow, resting both hands on Yeonjung’s waist to steady her and make sure she doesn’t fall off. “A road trip?”

Yeonjung nods, wrapping her arms around Sojung’s shoulders. Sojung bites the inside of her cheek, trying not to think too much about how she can feel Yeonjung’s breath on her cheek or how close their faces are. “Just you and me. Seoul to Busan. What do you say?”

“That’s only four hours, though,” Sojung reasons. “Hardly an actual road trip.”

Yeonjung rolls her eyes, shoves Sojung’s arm lightly. “What were you expecting me to suggest, a road trip to Europe? I’m a busy woman, unnie.”

“Fine,” Sojung deflates, pouts, and caresses her own arm. “Busan sounds good.”

Busan does sound good. Too good, actually. The thought of spending some time in her hometown, far away from the company, leaving behind the weight of being the top rapper of the country and the overwhelming mess that is Seoul, with Yeonjung of all people by her side sounds like heaven to Sojung.

Yeonjung nods enthusiastically and presses a kiss on Sojung’s cheek before she gets up, making her way towards the door. Yeonjung waves before she disappears into the corridor. Sojung pretends she doesn’t miss her the second she leaves.


Sojung gets home after sending Dawon a few demos and spending an entire hour in a reunion that could have been replaced by a simple email. I’ll need at least two days off, Sojung explained, knowing exactly what would follow—a bunch of questions about the date she was supposed to go with Jiyeon over the weekend. Not a real date, no—only an excuse for them to be seen in public and boost their reputations.

People love their relationship. No, they are obsessed with it. Rapper Chu Sojung and actress Kim Jiyeon breathe next to each other and tweets go viral, thousands of compilations are uploaded to YouTube and their names trend on Naver for days.

If only they knew it was all fake. If only they knew Sojung’s heart sits in the hands of someone else.

Sojung managed to convince them with the promise of posting a picture dump full of pictures of her and Jiyeon with a cheesy caption, which pleased them immensely. Sojung could see the won bills shining in their eyes as they granted her the two days off she requested.

It was kind of a ridiculous situation. It always is. But after years in the industry, she has learnt to accept that that’s the price she has to pay to be able to do what she loves, for the glory, for the fame.

Sojung worked hard for it, for her songs to chart at number one for consecutive weeks, for her face to be on billboards and for her concert tickets to sell-out in mere seconds. She wouldn’t trade it for the world.

That’s what she learnt to tell herself so she can sleep at night, at least.

Sojung stares at the picture of her and Yeonjung she keeps on her nightstand, taken last year, right after Yeonjung’s first concert. The same night she realized she liked her as more than just a hoobae, than a simple friend.


(“You know,” Jiyeon started, leaning closer to her so no one else could hear what she was about to say, “It’s written all over your face. I don’t know if it’s cute or disgusting.”

Sojung doesn’t tear her eyes away from Yeonjung, who’s shining on stage as usual, when she asked, “What is?”

“Don’t be silly,” Jiyeon frowned and slapped Sojung’s arm. Sojung pretended it didn’t happen, though, too enthralled by how effortlessly Yeonjung hits a high note while performing one of her hardest choreographies. “You know exactly what I’m talking about.”)


Sojung is pulled out of her thoughts when her phone vibrates, Yeonjung’s name flashing on her screen. She smiles to herself and unlocks her phone, wasting no time before she types out an answer to Yeonjung’s question.

yeonjungie 🐻09:56 pm
what time are we leaving tomorrow?

me09:56 pm
be ready by six
let’s leave early

yeonjungie 🐻09:57 pm
will do~
make sure to look good for me, unnie

me09:57 pm
no one looks good that early in the morning

yeonjungie 🐻09:58 pm
i very much do
and you know that

Sojung has seen Yeonjung during the early hours of the morning enough times to know that the statement is, in fact, true. It’s kind of absurd, really, how good Yeonjung manages to look before the sun is even out.

She might be a little biased, given how much of a fool she is for her, but oh well. There’s nothing she can do about it.

me09:58 pm
yeah yeah
keep telling yourself that

yeonjungie 🐻09:59 pm
you were supposed to agree with me!!!!
i’m upset ㅠ

me09:59 pm
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
good night, yeonjungie~

yeonjungie 🐻09:59 pm
have terrible dreams, unnie

Despite Yeonjung’s mean wishes, Sojung dreams of beaches, clear skies and red hair flying against Busans’s fresh wind.


Sojung is inside her car, ready to drive to Yeonjung’s dorm when her phone starts vibrating inside her pocket.

jiyeon05:45 am
had to find out through my manager that you canceled our date
how could you, chu sojung!!!

Sojung scoffs once she reads the message. Kim Jiyeon is unbelievable sometimes. And by sometimes Sojung means all the time.

me05:46 am
ㅋㅋㅋ
don’t be dramatic
i know you despise those dates

jiyeon05:47 am
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ i do
have fun cheating on me~

The audacity, Sojung thinks as she shakes her head, although the thought of something happening between her and Yeonjung during this little trip makes her feel all sorts of funny.

sojung05:47 am
you’re the one that will cheat on me though? ㅋㅋ
tell dawon i said hi by the way

jiyeon05:47 am
no
i’ll be too busy kissing her

sojung05:48 am
🙄
i really hate you sometimes

jiyeon05:48 am
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
make sure to pay attention to the road!!
don’t get too distracted by yeonjungie’s beauty!!!
if my baby gets hurt because of you you’re a dead woman chu sojung

sojung05:48 am
oh my god…
goodbye jiyeon

Sojung ignores all of Jiyeon’s next messages, shoves her phone back into her pocket and drives away.


“Do I look pretty or not?”

That’s the first thing Yeonjung says when Sojung pulls over. Not a hello, not a did you sleep well, not a simple good morning. Sojung should’ve seen that coming.

Yeonjung makes a dramatic pose, one that makes her look like the main character in a superhero movie, but that does the trick. She does look pretty. Too pretty for Sojung’s own good. Kinda makes her want to give up on this road trip, press Yeonjung against the back of her car and—

“You look gorgeous, Yeonjung-ah,” Sojung says, voice laced with fake sweetness. Yeonjung notices that but takes the compliment anyway, beaming as if she had been announced Best Artist on MAMA. “Can we leave now?”

“Of course,” Yeonjung sing-songs, puts her suitcase in the trunk and slides into the passenger seat.

Yeonjung grabs a chapstick from the pocket of her pink hoodie and applies it to her lips, using her finger to remove the excess that was left in the corner of her mouth. Sojung follows the movement, wetting her own lips in the process.

There are a lot of devastating things about Yoo Yeonjung, Sojung has come to learn against her will, but her mouth is definitely on the top three.

Yeonjung closes the chapstick and turns around, grinning as she states, “You’re staring.”

Sojung forces out a cough, blinks a few times as she grabs the steering wheel with much more strength than she was supposed to. “Put on your seatbelt.”

honey, i don't wanna share - wjsn, exy/seola | established relationship | 1k | rated t
a/n: the last two scenes are not linear, but they're still part of the story. i just didn't finish them lmao
is it cool that i said all that?
Hyunjung sprawled on her bed, killing time by watching the ten thousand YouTube videos Soobin sent her throughout the week when her phone starts to ring, the name Yeoreumie flashing on her screen.

“Yeoreum-ah,” Hyunjung greets. “What’s up?”

“Hi, unnie, um—” Yeoreum pauses for a second, and Hyunjung swears she can hear Dayoung screaming at someone in the background, then she continues, “I think you should come pick Sojung unnie up.”

Hyunjung pushes herself up into a sitting position, runs her hands through her face to shake the drowsiness out of her system. “What happened? She told me she was going to crash at Yeonjung’s.”

“Yeah, well, you see,” Yeoreum has to pause again, this time she pulls the phone away from her to scream Im Dayoung, could you please not make things worse—yeah, take Sojung unnie to the bedroom, thank you, then she apologizes to Hyunjung and continues, “Yeonjung is kind of the problem. Luda unnie, too.”

Hyunjung grimaces, feels a chill run down her spine. Not a single situation that included the words Yeonjung, Luda and problem has ever ended well for her—or for any of the members of their friend group, really. “What did they do this time.”

Yeoreum sighs and Hyunjung takes it as an opportunity to put the phone on speaker, leaving it over her nightstand so she can listen to the story while she starts to get dressed.

“We were all drinking and talking in peace, but then Yeonjungie and Luda unnie, being the way they are, decided to start—um,” Hyunjung can tell from Yeoreum’s pained tone that she loathes being the one that has to tell her whatever the hell happened between those three. Hyunjung has the feeling that the responsibility fell on her lap because she’s the only person in the room sober enough to do so. “They started to talk about how hot you are to spite Sojung unnie. And because she was drunk out of her ass, it worked.”

Hyunjung has to take a deep breath to stop herself from bursting into laughter, because what the actual fuck did she just hear. “Did she cry?”

“She did cry,” Yeoreum confirms. “She might start crying again any time soon, so please.

“Yeah, of course,” Hyunjung giggles as she fixes her bangs in the mirror. What a ridiculous situation, really. “I’m on my way.”

They say their goodbyes, and as soon as she’s ready Hyunjung is out of the door—coat, tissues and painkillers, all for her hot mess of a girlfriend, safe inside her bag.


“What the fuck did you two do,” Hyunjung says in lieu of a greeting as she steps into Yeonjung’s apartment, the place where their small gathering was happening before it turned into a circus of screams and tears.

“Nothing,” Luda and Yeonjung say in unison, batting their eyelashes and swinging their feet. Hyunjung rolls her eyes at the unbelievable scene.

“You two are going to hell,” she says, ignores how that sentence makes the two of them cackle like actual demons who were forced to live on earth, then turns to Yeoreum, “Sojung. Where is she?”

Yeoreum gestures for Hyunjung to follow her, guiding her to the guest room where they find Dayoung patting a distraught Sojung on the head.

“Thank God,” Dayoung throws her hands up to the sky, not even hesitating before she gets up and leaves Sojung behind. “She’s all yours now, unnie. Good luck.”

“I’ll leave you to it, unnie. I’ll be in the living room if you need anything,” Yeoreum says, sounding a thousand times more kind and considerate than Dayoung—as usual—before she steps out of the bedroom, gently closing the door behind her.

Hyunjung sits beside Sojung on the bed, letting out a huff when Sojung throws herself into her arms and nearly knocks her out of the mattress. Hyunjung caresses Sojung’s hair for a moment before she speaks, “Hello there.”

“Hi,” Sojung says, hiccups, sinks further into Hyunjung’s embrace. “Glad you’re here.”

Hyunjung smiles, running her hands up and down Sojung’s back. “Wanna tell me what happened?”

Sojung whines and shakes her head, sounding an awful lot like she’s about to start bawling her eyes out again. Oh no.

“Okay, okay,” Hyunjung shushes her. “You don’t have to tell me anything right now.”

That seems to do the trick because Sojung relaxes again, the vicious grip she had on Hyunjung’s sweater loosening considerably. Hyunjung sighs, relieved.

“Can you just keep holding me like this?” Sojung asks, small and vulnerable. Hyunjung’s heart melts.

“Of course,” Hyunjung places a kiss on the crown of Sojung’s head. “Anything you want.”

They remain like that for a while—on the bed, in a comfortable silence, pressed against each other as Hyunjung eventually leaves a few kisses on Sojung’s shoulders, cheeks and forehead.


“It’s not just them, it’s—“ Sojung hiccups. “A lot of people! Don’t you know,” she holds Hyunjung’s face between her hands, squeezing it to the point where it’s uncomfortable and sort of painful, but Hyunjung simply allows her to keep doing it, “how gorgeous you are? How many people would kill me in a heartbeat to get a chance with you—”

“I don’t think anyone would actually kill you to date me—”

“Unnie!” Sojung shrieks, shoves Hyunjung’s shoulder. “Don’t interrupt me.”

“Ow, ow,” Hyunjung giggles, then pretends to zip her lips when Sojung scowls. “Okay, sorry. Go on.”


Sojung is not the jealous type, has never been for the five years they’ve been together—so, for her to be acting like this, there might have been some signs Hyunjung missed, some bad days, some repressed doubts. She wants to wipe them all off, wants Sojung to know her heart belongs to her and no one else.

“You won’t leave me for someone else, right?”

“No.”

“Not even for Kim Taeyeon?”

Hyunjung giggles. “Not even Kim Taeyeon. I swear.”

“What if she serenades you with one of her songs—“

“God, shut up.” Hyunjung rolls her eyes, then pulls Sojung into a kiss.

사랑쪽지 - wjsn, dawon/yeonjung | witches!au, wjsn as a coven as god intended | 1.3k | rated t
throw it in the air
Dear Dawon unnie.

Yeonjung frowns, raises the paper up so she can analyze it. No, too cheesy. It doesn’t feel like her.

Dawon unnie.

Too boring.

Queen of my heart, body and soul.

You can’t Taylor Swift your way out of this one, Yeonjung.

Write, erase, repeat. Write, erase, repeat. Write, erase, repeat—

“Fuck this,” Yeonjung grunts, ripping the nth unfinished letter she wrote that evening into pathetic little pieces before she throws them into the trash can, letting her head drop pitifully against the table as soon as she returns to the chair she’s been sitting on for an entire hour. “I can’t do it. I just can’t.”

Luda, who’s been playing games on her phone while Yeonjung suffers, doesn’t even bother to tear her eyes off her screen as she speaks, “You know, for someone with a shotgun for a mouth and a nuclear bomb for a brain, you suck at putting your feelings into words. The genuine ones, at least.”

Luda has said a lot of insane things regarding Yeonjung’s personality during the five years they’ve known each other, but this one probably takes the cake. Shotgun for a mouth and nuclear bomb for a brain, Yeonjung ponders over the phrase, impressed by Luda’s choice of words. Huh. Sounds about right.

“It’s not that I suck at it,” Yeonjung starts explaining, resting her chin over her closed fist while she uses her free hand to fidget with her pen. “It’s just that— well. It’s Dawon unnie,” Yeonjung’s shoulders deflate and her voice becomes softer as she continues, “It… means a lot to me. That she agrees to go on a date with me, I mean.”

“Like I said, you suck at genuine feelings.”

“Okay, fine, I suck at genuine feelings. You’re right. Is that what you wanted to hear?” Yeonjung grunts, rips another page off her notebook, crumples it and throws it straight into Luda’s forehead. Luda yelps, finally lifting her head up to throw a glare at Yeonjung’s direction. Yeonjung, as usual, is completely unaffected by it. “You’re the one who told me to write her a letter. You should be helping me out instead of playing the same stupid game you’ve been losing sleep over for a week now.”

“You know I suck at genuine feelings as much as you do, maybe even more,” Luda says through a yawn as she gets up from the couch, stretching her limbs once she’s up. “I already gave you a suggestion. There’s nothing else I can do.”

“You could at least stay and offer moral support,” Yeonjung pouts as she watches Luda gather her belongings and put them inside her bag, pacing back and forth around the room to make sure she grabbed everything. Knowing Luda, she probably didn’t.

“I can’t, Sojung unnie asked me to teach the gremlins about my potions tomorrow,” Luda sighs, exhausted at the mere thought of being surrounded by the annoying, loud kids that Sojung teaches for an entire morning. The image of Luda trying to keep it together while children scream and jump around her has Yeonjung suppressing a laugh behind her hands. “And if I don’t get enough sleep I might end up hurting someone. No, not just someone, a whole child. I’d be banned from this city forever.”

“You would,” Yeonjung agrees as she points towards Luda’s wand, forgotten over a cushion. There you are, Luda mutters under her breath, heaving a sigh of relief. “Hunted, even.”

“Yeah, I wouldn’t put it past them to— what the hell is that.

Yeonjung frowns. “What?”

Luda doesn’t have the opportunity to answer, because soon enough Jiyeon and Dayoung stumble through the room, their faces covered in mud while they argue over something Yeonjung can’t quite comprehend. All she knows is that they sound and look ridiculous, as per usual.

They only stop screaming at each other when they notice Luda and Yeonjung staring at them as if they were aberrations. An awkward silence falls between them until Dayoung, always one to act on her impulses to disturb someone’s peace of mind, clears her throat and decides to torment Yeonjung instead.

“What do we have here?” Dayoung sings as she makes Yeonjung’s notebook float in the air, high enough that none of them can catch it, until it’s in her hands. “Dearest Dawon unnie,” Dayoung giggles as she starts reading, her voice an octave lower for dramatic effect. Jiyeon stands behind her, trying to catch a glimpse of the writing over Dayoung’s shoulder. “Would you go on a date with me next week? Love, Yeonjung.”

“This sucks,” Jiyeon laughs out loud like the menace that she is and lets her eyes wander through the other unfinished attempts at a letter scattered throughout the page. “To be honest, all of these suck.”

Luda nods. “I told her it sucks.”

“Can you guys stop?” Yeonjung barks, then with a swift motion of her hand, she manages to take her notebook back and send both Jiyeon and Dayoung crashing against the floor. Yeonjung would make fun of their dumbfounded faces and the fact that they’re looking as if they got hit by a train sprawled all over the wood like that, but the whole situation is starting to get on her nerves.

Like, actually get on her nerves.

So when Dayoung, who clearly didn’t learn her lesson, gets up and resumes her incessant teasing Yoo Yeonjung session, Yeonjung loses it— and by losing it she means that now, instead of sending her to the floor, she leaves her stuck on the ceiling, right next to the fan that is currently spinning at full speed.

Dayoung shrieks, thrashes in the air and begs for mercy, but Yeonjung doesn’t budge, watching her friend struggle with a satisfied— and sort of sadistic— smirk dancing on her lips. Im Dayoung should’ve known better than to piss off the most powerful— and, not to mention, the pettiest— witch in town.

“Okay, okay, I’ll stop making fun of you,” Dayoung cries, trying her best to fly back to the safety of the floor below her, but she’s no match to Yeonjung’s strength. Yeonjung doesn’t answer, only moves Dayoung’s face closer to the fan. “Fuck. I’ll clean your bedroom for a week. No, for a whole month. Just let me go. Please!

Yeonjung, still unsatisfied with the punishment, is about to make Dayoung promise to wash her dishes too when the door to their shop opens again, and this time, Yeonjung completely melts at the sight in front of her. Dawon is wearing a lilac trench coat that’s a few sizes too big for her body, a tote bag full of books hanging from her shoulder and a bunch of snowdrops under her arms, probably the ones she’s going to use on the new potions she’s been working on.

“Hey, I was wondering if one of you could— oh,” Dawon stares at Dayoung, then at Jiyeon, Luda, and finally lets her gaze fall over Yeonjung. She flashes her an apologetic smile as she asks, “Is now not a good time?”

It is always a good time for you, Yeonjung thinks as she tries her best not to yelp over how adorable Dawon looks like that, but she bites her tongue and, instead, she chooses to says, “Oh no, don’t mind, um, this,” she gestures vaguely to Dayoung as she slowly starts to put the girl down. Then she completely ignores the fact that Dayoung is using her powers to get inside her head and call her every bad name under the sun to focus on Dawon, “What do you need, unnie?”

“Do you still have those books about healing potions? I searched for something similar through the entire town but couldn’t find anything,” Dawon laments, using her chin to point towards her bag, “except for a few about flower potions. But they’re all old, and I have to return them by tomorrow.”

make me so hot, make me wanna drop - wjsn, dayoung/yeonjung + mentions of dayoung/gahyeon | college!au, oh no my best friend is suddenly hot | 300w | rated t
it's so ridiculous, i can barely stop
“Yeonjung-ah.”

“I said no.”

“Please!”

“No.”

“Pretty please?”

“No.”

“I’m begging, please—

“No, Dayoung!” Yeonjung screams, finally running out of patience after minutes of non-stop arguing. “I’m not going to take a picture for you to send to your horny crush or whatever the fuck you said.”

“Her name is Gahyeon, you know,” Dayoung huffs, runs her hands through her hair. Yeonjung rolls her eyes. “What am I gonna do then. Should I ask Yeoreumie—”

“She’ll say no, too.”

“I need better friends,” Dayoung laments, throwing herself face-down on the couch. “Friends that actually care about me and help me get some.”

Yeonjung tries to ignore her—which would be easy considering she has a PhD in ignoring Im Dayoung’s dramatic ass—but Dayoung keeps complaining. See, usually she’ll whine for a while, pout when she knows her target is staring, then she’ll get bored out of her mind and find someone else to bother—that someone being, more often than not, Sojung, bless her poor soul.

But she keeps going this time, blurting out complaint after complaint after complaint. It’s driving Yeonjung insane.

“And when you’re old and miserable and I’m still famous and gorgeous, I’ll refuse to help you, too. Then you, Yoo Yeonjung, will spent the rest of your sad life regretting this day forever—”

Yeonjung grabs the cushion behind her and throws it straight into Dayoung’s face. “I’ll take your stupid picture if you shut the fuck up.”

“Thank yo—”

“No,” Yeonjung holds a warning finger up, stopping Dayoung. “I don’t want to hear a single word.”

Dayoung nods and pretends to zip her lips. Yeonjung shakes her head and sighs, not believing she is actually going to do this. Sure, yeah, she knows Lee Gahyeon is hot because anyone with a pair of working eyes can see that, but Jesus fucking Christ, she can’t fathom why Dayoung is acting like she hasn’t felt the touch of another woman for a century—which, considering how popular and confident she is, couldn’t be further from the truth.
pantomimes: (tiffany)
2024-01-03 05:20 pm
Entry tags:

2023 round-up


i was barely active on this website these past few months but why not just shove everything into one single post, right? i actually consumed an obscene amount of media this year and got obsessed with a thousand of different things, so let's get into it!

no return, no reason
⋆ KPOP
snsd
how can i talk about my experience with kpop this year without talking about #them... they took over my brain in the most diabolical way possible. if you know me you know that they were the first kpop group i've ever heard and how much of an insane sone i was when i was fourteen/fifteen, and this year i finally decided to catch up with their 15th anniversary activities and... um. all of sudden it was 2015 again. and the obsession still hasn't left my body, i'm listening to snsd as i type this and i basically haven't listened to anything other than snsd for the past week or so. also, what the fuck do you guys know about ROYAL FAMILY? i'm sorry, i'm never beating the taeny shipper allegations. it was a joy to start reading snsd (esp taeny) fics and watching poorly made fmvs from 2010-2013 sones again, it felt like coming home.
overall
girl, what a meh year... a few girlgroups like aespa (btw i saw them LIVE this year??? this still feels surreal to me), rv, le sserafim, gidle, dreamcatcher, itzy, etc released good music and that was it. and no, the group with the so-called "best release of the year" mini album that isn't even fifteen minutes long is not included in this, what the fuck is wrong with everyone. these new groups are simply not it for me... like, where the fuck is wjsn?!???!?? where the fuck is REAL music? and don't get me start on choi jisu hiatus, i really lost this year. i miss my girl so much it's ridiculous.

⋆ MUSIC
top artists
1. snsd (724)
2. taylor swift (717)
3. lady gaga (249)
4. rosalia (223)
5. glee cast (220)
6. charli xcx (204)
7. little mix (203)
8. troye sivan (183)
9. marina (162)
10. allie x (141)
bonus: 11. reneé rapp (137)
& more
top songs
1. genie - snsd (71)
2. snow angel - reneé rapp (65)
3. foolish one - taylor swift (64)
4. con altura - rosalia (61)
5. loose garment - muna (55)
6. angel - pinkpantheress (55)
7. unforgiven - le sserafim (53)
8. barbie world - nicki minaj & ice spice (53)
9. lingua franca - snsd (51)
10. monsoon - tokio hotel (50)
& more
top albums
1. barbie the album - various artists (510)
2. speak now (taylor's version) - taylor swift (425)
3. snow angel - reneé rapp (134)
4. something to give each other - troye sivan (117)
5. love & peace - snsd (105)
& more

the barbie soundtrack being my most listened album this year just feels right, you know? i'll expand more on my love about barbie in the movie section but god did it rewind my brain completely. continuing on the snsd obsession topic, here you can see how serious i am about it. genie being my most listened song of 2023? not even god could have seen this one coming, but to be honest genie has been and always will be my favorite snsd song and one my favorite songs of all time so it's not that crazy.

to be honest i didn't hear as much music as i thought i would this year, i only have a little over 11k scrobbles on lastfm when i usually have over 20k, so... but that doesn't mean i thought this was a bad year for music! just a little less crowded than 2020 or 2022. other than the barbie soundtrack i also listened to speak now tv a LOT because to be honest i didn't really care or remember much about most of the songs from the stolen version, but man did the new version grab me by the neck! foolish one greatest song of the year. i also need to rant a little bit about reneé rapp... yes i did expand my top artists list to 11 because i HAD to put this girl in. snow angel is such a crazy debut album and it's so satisfying to see how much she's growing as an artist. i love love love this girlie and i can't wait to see what she does next.

⋆ TV AND CINEMA
favorite movies watched in 2023
1. barbie (2023)
2. the marvels (2023)
3. birds of prey (2020)
4. spider-man: across the spider-verse (2023)
5. is it fall yet? (2000)
favorite shows watched in 2023
1. yellowjackets s1 + s2 (2021)
2. warrior nun s1 + s2 (2020)
3. the haunting of bly manor (2020)
4. agents of shield s2 (2013)
5. supergirl s3 + s4 (2015)

first of all, i watched an INSANE amount of shows and movies in 2023 so i forced myself to make a top 5 or else this post would be way too fucking long and i would get bored halfway through. i definitely had more fun with movies/shows than music this year, like, WAY more. and here's me try to briefly go through some of my favorites without going insane... okay!

second of all, are the people who said the marvels was a bad movie okay? it's so cool to say that every mcu thing that comes out is trash now but this is by far my favorite era of the mcu... fuck the infinity saga, fuck iron man and their, what? three main women cast? please, it was so boring. where is the SPARKLE? where are the SILLY GIRLS? that being said i love phase four and phase five a thousand times more than the annoying white men fest from the past phases. the marvels is great and it touched my heart and it immediately became one of my favorite mcu movies.

okay, so... barbie. [incoherent screams] it's been months and i still find myself staring into the void while thinking about this movie. i was obviously expecting it to be a good movie given the cast and greta gerwig but it was so much better than i could've expected, it genuinely healed something in me? not to mention it gave me barbiegloria which is easily, like, top five ships of the year for me. i went through my worst margot robbie obsession so far because of this movie, which led me to rewatching suicide squad 1 (TERRIBLE MOVIE BTW. i only rewatched it because i didn't remember shit about it) and finally watch birds of prey and suicide squad two, which is so much better than the first one? i was genuinely shocked.

which takes us to, birds of prey moment! everyone that knows me knows i love harley so it might be a bit of a shock to learn that i had never watched birds of prey but, well, i finally did, and it didn't disappoint. i enjoyed every second of that movie, and because of it i became the biggest helena bertinelli stan to ever exist. i got so obsessed with her that i started reading the comics she was in and... what can i say. i'm such a birds of prey girlie now. i wish they did another bop movie with barbara gordon in it... can you imagine the power of such joint slay on a movie screen? i'd die.

shows time! which is time to talk about my biggest new obsession of the year, which was yellowjackets. good god this show rewired my brain in ways i thought could never be rewired again. back when the show first aired i was a bit reluctant to watch it because i have never watched anything with that... vibe, if you know what i mean. but now i'm glad i waited because i watched both seasons in like three days and it CHANGED MY LIFE. what a story. what a cast. so so so much thought put into each scene and each character and each arc. i successfully managed to make five different people to watch this show and become equally obsessed with it, so... if you haven't watched it, please give it a chance. this might sound extremely biased but i genuinely think it's impossible not to like yellowjackets. if you're into CRAZY WOMEN and HOMOEROTIC SUBTEXT you'll love this one, i promise.

me when i'm the insane girl that decides to start watching supergirl after the show has already ended. i did it because i have the worst crush on katie mcgrath/lena luthor but i ended up really liking the show...? like of course it's a bit cringe at times because it's a cw show but i really don't mind the occasional Cringe at all? but what i do hate about supergirl is james olsen. and all male villains from this show. get them out of my screen they piss me off SO BAD that i have to take like a week off after watching five episodes so i can decompress.

i want to talk about warrior nun because it also changed my brain chemistry forever but the current situation after the show was "saved" is stressing me out so bad that i simply can't. just know that i would die for beatrice in a heart beat. [phoebe bridger's voice] whatever she wants, whatever she wants...

quick shout-out to bottoms (which i also enjoyed a lot) for making people obsessed with ayo edebiri. that's my girlfriend and i love her more than anything in this world and, wait, did i mention that we're getting married in a few months? you're all invited, by the way.

⋆ FINAL THOUGHTS
i was going to add a reading/writing section but i got lazy... i'll probably try to do a separate post for these + the insane marvel/dc comic book haul i did in december later? no promises, though. well, that's all for now. if you made it this far, thanks for reading ^-^
pantomimes: (hyunjung)
2022-05-30 12:17 am

intp luda and entp yeonjung: a mini thesis


i don't consider myself an expert in mbti or anything, but this is a topic i'm highly interested in and i know enough to see that there's some serious introverted thinking + extroverted intuition mess going on in the minds of these two. so, here's me trying to explain why!

🐹🐻
lee luda 🐹

dob: 06/02/1997
zodiac sign: aquarius
type she got on 16p: isfj (girl what the hell…)
type i think she is: intp

intp functions:
Ti > Ne > Si > Fe
+ dominant Ti: introverted thinking
+ auxiliary Ne: extroverted intuition
+ tertiary Si: introverted sensing
+ inferior Fe: extroverted feeling

it's not hard to come to the conclusion that lee luda is, undoubtedly, a rational person. i think that's one of the first things you come to learn about her when you get into wjsn, because while she might have the cutest face in the world, her tongue and the way her brain works on the other hand are... interesting, to say the least. she has a no bullshit attitude and is always very honest about what she thinks. now, let's take a look on why i think she's an intp:

tutor luda
i really like luda's tutor segment and i want to start with this one because you can see her using all of her functions here. right from the start you can see the members talking about how she helps them solve their problems and is super smart, then as soon as she learns what she has to teach she starts preparing herself for it. she's a bit taken aback when she finds out she's going to teach math because according to her it's her "enemy", but she still had to get good at it because since she wanted to major in science when she was in high school.

mc: she's looking for a textbook at a bookstore?
eunseo: yes!
mc: amazing.
eunseo: we're preparing for our next comeback at the moment, but she's more focused on studying.

she looks so happy and excited when she got a question right T_T my baby... even though wjsn are preparing for a comeback she was more focused on going through textbooks/online courses to make sure she was prepared to teach someone, and here's where i want to start analyzing her mbti. one thing about intps is that they would rather DIE than to be perceived as incompetent at something that has to do with their intellect, so she puts her all into studying, goes through multiple sources (the textbooks and the online courses) and writes everything down so she can understand it better. there's our Ti-Ne-Si.

the Fe (along with a bit of Si) kicks in when she starts talking to the girls she's tutoring. intps are not as empathetic as other Fe users (enfjs, esfjs, infjs, isfjs) because it's an inferior function rather than one they like to/tend to use all the time, but it's still there. she sees the scribbles in one of the students' textbooks and she asks if she's going through a hardship at the moment. then, after the girl explains what's going on, luda talks about how she went through the same thing and offers her a solution to the problem. i really recommend watching at least this part, you can see how comforting people isn't luda's strongest suit but since she knows this is someone who looks up to her + she went through the same thing in the past she still tries, even if in a more rational/direct way, and that's pure inf Fe.

sharp tongue
intps are known for being blunt beings. they usually see their inf Fe as their biggest weakness and tend to ignore it, which makes them come out as "too harsh" or "too honest" but tbh if you're not someone they especially care about, they don't give a fuck if you think they're being mean or not LMAO. not that they're actively trying to come out as mean or anything, they're just incredibly rational and like to work with facts rather than sugarcoating things, which other people might not take lightly. some iconic lee luda Ti dom moments:
other intps in kpop:other Ti doms in kpop (istps):
i honestly don't get how she got a isfj result in 16p. that website needs to be taken away from kpop idols asap because it's not a good source at all. the amount of stupid results i've seen from this website are just... yeah. now, let's move on to the love of my life!

yoo yeonjung 🐻

dob: 03/08/1999
zodiac sign: leo
type she got on 16p: estp/istp
type i think she is: entp

entp functions:
Ne > Ti > Fe > Si
+ dominant Ne: extroverted intuition
+ auxiliary Ti: introverted thinking
+ tertiary Fe: extroverted feeling
+ inferior Si: introverted sensing

everyone get ouf of my way because now it's my time to shine! anyway, i personally think yeonjung's 16p results are not as atrocious as luda's. estps and istps both have high Ti, and for that reason i did consider estp as a possible mbti for yeonjung for a while. but as i started to analyze her personality through focused mbti lenses, i quickly started to notice some pretty obvious Ne-Ti patterns. here's some of them:

→ insane amount of brainpower
one thing about this girl is that if she wants something, she is going to get it. she wants to learn something? she will. she wants to become good at something? she will. she wants to become BETTER than she already was? you better believe she will. i watched some videos on entps before making this post, and two things in particular stood out to me when i was watching this one: "the first thing to know about an entp is that we're probably already bored." + "have you ever watched the marvel movie avengers? he (iron man) basically learned thermogenics overnight. yeah, we kind of do that." this immediately reminded me of how yeonjung dropped out of her japanese class because she was bored and decided to learn it by herself. and she succeeded, because she's good like that (see here and here).

she’s a former sm trainee, but not a lot of people know that she got accepted for her dancing skills rather than her vocals. "while she was a fantastic dancer, she felt that her singing skills lacked compared to other vocalists at the label, so she spent her time focusing on improving her singing abilities" and now she sings Like That... are we kidding. this girl scares the shit out of me but in a good way. i'd also like to point out that yeonjung got accepted into university before she graduated high school and without taking a an university entrance test + "why did you choose musical theater to study in university?" "i want to perform in a musical in the future, so i chose that major to prepare first" and now she's in lizzie and getting a lot of praise even though it's her first musical (bonus).

entps are known as the visionaries of the mbti. they can get bored easily, sure, but they know exactly what needs to get done in order to get their desired outcome, and i think it's pretty obvious that yeonjung is like that too. i recommend reading this thread for more insane Ne-Ti yeonjungisms.

devil's advocate
one of the first things i learned about entps is that they LOVE to argue. they have a good amount of knowledge on a variety of topics, which makes it easier for them to prove their point. but if they don't they will bullshit their way into a convincing argument anyway. in the show i linked, it's said that yeonjung, dayoung and soobin (who i think is also a Ne dom! but an enfp instead) are the members who will argue until the end, and that makes perfect sense to me. you can see how excited yeonjung gets when she finds a way to make the other two "freeze" after she presents a new argument and she manages to keep it up until the end. my favorite part is: dayoung: "nowadays, people add meat to their cold noodles" yeonjung: "if you look at it the other way, people are adding cold noodles to their meat nowadays" like can you even argue with that logic... she's right! soobin and dayoung are constantly like "girl help we can't let her eat us up like this!!!!" it's really funny and impressive. (here's part two of the video)

→ scatterbrained
Ne doms suffer from serious can't shut up disease and forgetfulness (inf Si). it can get hard for other people to keep track of what they're saying because their brains come up with a million ideas and fly into different directions every three seconds. they, quite literally, just be saying anything. they can't help it. let's take a look at some of the examples of these two traits that i've gathered:
other entps in kpop:other Ne doms in kpop (enfps):
the day people stop seeing yeonjung as just "uwu sunshine maknae" and "wow vocals" is the day i'll know peace. as you can see from what i've gathered here she's insanely smart and also one of the funniest/snarkiest members of the group, which doesn't get mentioned a lot. i wish people paid more attention to those sides of her personality as well.

🐹🐻


comparing the intp (luda) to the entp (yeonjung)
  • i'd say yeonjung gets bored easier than luda (Ne > Ti + inferior Si). while introverted sensing isn't intp's biggest strength either, having it as a tertiary function rather than a inferior one still helps them to be more "orderly/focused" than entps. (here's an example)
  • luda is better at "masking what she's thinking/feeling" with a forced laugh or by simply keeping her thoughts to herself. yeonjung, on the other hand, has a harder time keeping her "harsher" opinions to herself, and when she does it still shows on her face. i remember reading somewhere that one of the core differences between an entp and an intp is that the entp won't hesitate to say it as it is to your face, while intps tend to be more cautious even though they're probably thinking the same thing as the entp.
  • they're both members you'd like to have on your team during variety show games. yeonjung is good at coming up with solutions for things on the spot, incredibly witty and good at convincing people to do what she wants or believe what she's saying (tertiary extroverted feeling over luda's inferior extroverted feeling). luda is good at guessing and seeing patterns that the others don't. (here's an example | luda: i got them all right. seola: i think the fact that luda got everything right is more scary.")
  • "i'm envious and want to be like unnie as your thoughts are ideal and realistic. unnie who's a jjoggomi physically but not mentally, you're cool, so cool~" ♥

well, i hope this was a good read and that i managed to convince at least one person of their types. i'm always open to other views, though! trying to type kpop idols can be very exhausting, but that might be just me because analyzing people's behaviors + trying to explain my thoughts in a way that is understandable to others is NOT my passion! anyway, if you made it this far, thanks for reading :)
pantomimes: (lottie)
2022-05-16 09:14 pm

냇완다 compilation

woman finds out about the korean side of the wandanat fandom and goes insane. this is just a small compilation of the best things i've found while lurking through "냇완다" on twitter so my bookmarks and likes won't get all messy.

pain only makes us stronger )