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lettie, she/her, 24.
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2025-05-11 08:53 pm

wip graveyard '24 - mid '25

my second wip graveyard! as i said in the first one, all of these were written in questionable hours of the night so no, i didn't proofread/format them to perfection, but i'd still like to share them anyway.

nobody gets me - snsd, taeyeon/tiffany | canon compliant | 269w | rated t
only like myself when i'm with you
Taeyeon is sitting in the middle of Kibum’s living room when her phone starts vibrating inside her pocket.

Tiffany [08:35 PM]
Hey!!! Look at this!!!
anantara.com/en/riverside-bangkok
Pretty isn’t it?

Taeyeon closes her eyes and sighs. She knows what this means, and she knows that, this time, she won’t be able to say no—doesn’t have to heart so say sorry, I’m busy with work, let’s try to meet another day for the tenth time in a row.

Tiffany deserves better than this. It’s not her fault that—

“What? What is it?” Kibum points to Taeyeon’s phone, stretching his neck to catch a glimpse of the message. Taeyeon lets him, lacking the strength to lock her screen and push him away. Kibum frowns as he reads, shooting Taeyeon a sympathetic look once he’s done. “Oh, girl.”

Taeyeon rests her head on Kibum’s shoulder and stays there for a while, contemplating about what she should do next, about what she should say to Tiffany—beautiful, kind, patient Tiffany who just wants to spend some time with her, as they often did before she moved back to the U.S.

Before Taeyeon had to deal with some uncomfortable truths.

“Are you going to reply or not?” Kibum speaks up after minutes of silence between them, nudging Taeyeon’s ribs with his elbow.

“What should I do,” Taeyeon runs her fingers through her hair. “God, what should I do.

“I’m sure you know the answer already,” Kibum gives Taeyeon’s shoulder an encouraging squeeze. “Just do it.”

Taeyeon [08:56 PM]
Book us a room, Fany-ah
We’re going on a trip

for your eyes only - snsd, taeyeon/tiffany | canon compliant, established relationship | 251w | (was supposed to be) rated e
secretly, without anyone knowing
Taeyeon nearly dies the first time it happens.

She's in the passenger seat of the car, dozing off while her manager drives her to her last schedule of the day, when her phone starts beeping inside her bag.

She considers ignoring it, assuming it's Kibum sending her stupid memes he found on Instagram as usual, but the annoying sound keeps reaching Taeyeon's ears and, by extension, her manager's. Worried that the sound might be disruptive enough to cause an actual accident, Taeyeon unzips her bag and grabs her phone.

블랙티 🖤 sent you 10 new messages.

Taeyeon frowns. She has no idea why Tiffany would be sending her this many messages when it's not even eight in the morning in the U.S yet. Her girlfriend would usually start spamming her around lunch, when she'd spend at least an hour sending her countless links of pet clothes and rambling about how cute they'd look on Zero.

Fear starts taking over Taeyeon's senses, hands shaking at the mere thought of something bad happening to her girlfriend and—

Her phone slips from her grasp the second she unlocks her screen.

“Fuck,” Taeyeon curses under her breath, picking up the device from the floor and shoving it back inside her bag.

Her manager side-eyes her, asks if she's okay, to which she answers with a nod and a tight-lipped smile. Which is far from the truth because, fuck, she's not okay. She's far from okay. Actually, she thinks she might faint any minute now.

it's all me, just don't go - wjsn, seola/soobin | canon compliant, miscommunication, loser hyunjung | 1.2k | rated t
meet me in the afterglow
“Unnie,” Soobin starts tentatively, hands sliding under her own thighs. “Do you like me?”

Hyunjung doesn’t look up from her book, nor does she flinch at the question. She finds the situation kind of silly, actually. Hasn’t she made it obvious, like, a thousand times throughout the years they’ve known each other?

From the second they got over their initial awkwardness towards each other, Hyunjung has stuck to Soobin’s side like a lifeline—patient, unwavering, quietly planting seeds of affection with each action and word, hoping one day they would bloom and turn into a beautiful, endless garden.

“I do,” Hyunjung fixes her glasses with the tip of her finger, flips a page of the book she’s been engrossed in for hours. “Of course I do.”

“No,” Soobin huffs, growing impatient. Hyunjung doesn’t have to look at her to know her cheeks are red and puffed, as they usually are when she’s either embarrassed or annoyed. She’s probably going through a weird mix of both right now, given the situation. “Do you like me like that?

“Yes,” Hyunjung removes her glasses, bookmarks the page she was in, and leaves the novel on the nightstand before she turns to face Soobin. “Unnie likes you like that.

Silence falls between them. Soobin switches her gaze from Hyunjung’s face to the door, then to the floor, then to the abandoned cup of coffee over the computer table. Hyunjung keeps staring at her, lips curling up at the scene. A flustered Park Soobin is always a sight to see, for sure.

Soobin frowns, chews on her lower lip, seeming deep in thought. Then, still staring everywhere but Hyunjung, she asks meekly, “What now?”

“What do you mean, what now?

“God, you’re so frustrating!” Soobin exclaims, runs her fingers through her hair. She gets up from the couch and starts pacing back and forth, muttering nonsense under her breath. Hyunjung worries Soobin might accidentally dig a hole in her bedroom floor with the strength she’s putting in each step. “You like me. You like like me.”

“Do I have to say it again?” Hyunjung chuckles, shakes her head in disbelief. “I do like you. I like you a lot, Soobin-ah—”

“Stop—just stop!” Soobin squeaks, hands resting on each side of her cheeks. Hyunjung can see how flushed her skin is even with Soobin’s useless attempt to hide it. She keeps it to herself, though—Soobin might choke her to death if she dares to comment on it. “I just—I’m going home. See you later.”

“Wait, wait—” Hyunjung jumps out of her bed, grabs Soobin’s wrist before she can get to the knob. “It’s late. Stay over.”

Soobin swats Hyunjung’s hands away as if she’s been electrocuted, eyes all big and panic-stricken. Okay, Hyunjung thinks as she begrudgingly releases Soobin from her hold, now I’m a bit hurt.

Soobin slips out of Hyunjung’s bedroom without uttering another word, leaving Hyunjung bruised, anxious and confused.

“What the hell just happened,” Hyunjung mutters, rushing to grab her phone and type a message to the one person she knows will be, without a doubt, there for her.


김현정 • 11:23 pm
i think i fucked up

근덕이 • 11:25 pm
wow, shocking

김현정 • 11:25 pm
juyeon-ah…
it’s about soobin

근덕이 • 11:26 pm
fuck
i’ll be there in 15 minutes

김현정 • 11:26 pm
bring me some bread
please

근덕이 • 11:27 pm
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
you’re unbelievable, unnie



“You did what now?” Juyeon asks, eyes threatening to jump out of her skull as she leaves the bread bag over the kitchen table, throwing herself in the empty spot on the couch next to Hyunjung.

“I told Soobin I like her,” Hyunjung repeats, firmer this time. “Then she ran away.”

Juyeon pinches the bridge of her nose, body sinking further into the couch. “Out of nowhere?”

“She asked me,” Hyunjung explains, uneasy. “And I said yes, then—”

“No, no” Juyeon shakes her head and puts a hand up to get Hyunjung to stop talking. Hyunjung complies, blinks a few times. “Tell me exactly how it went down.”

“She came over this afternoon,” Hyunjung starts, making herself more comfortable on the couch and letting her eyes wander through the expansion of her living room ceiling. “We spent time as we usually do, each of us doing our own stuff, talking every once in a while. She was on her phone while I was reading a book in bed when she asked me if I liked her, and I said yes, because I do like her. Everyone knows. I thought she knew, too.”

“Unnie,” Juyeon facepalms, exasperated. “This is Park Soobin we’re talking about. She’s probably mad because you said it so, well—so carelessly. No effort, nothing. Did you even stop reading before you said it?”

Fuck, Hyunjung laments internally, throws one arm over her face. “No?”

“And you’re still wondering why she left?” Juyeon scoffs, irritation and disbelief written all over her face. “Soobin unnie loves attention. Your attention, especially. She was probably waiting for you to, I don’t know, kneel in front of her and confess your undying love for her in a million different ways.”

Hyunjung pauses at that, frown forming on her forehead as she processes Juyeon’s words. It didn’t feel careless to Hyunjung, it felt… natural. The sky is blue, grass is green and Hyunjung likes Soobin, simple as that.

“You think so?”

“I know so,” Juyeon sighs, expression melting into something softer, understanding. Juyeon is too kind for her own good, sometimes. Hyunjung is lucky to have her. “You have to fix this, unnie.”

“I will, I will,” Hyunjung says, even though she has no idea how she’s supposed to fix the mess she dragged herself into.

Hyunjung is a calm, subtle and reserved person. She was convinced that loving Soobin in her own, tranquil way would eventually lead them to their happily ever after, but it turns out that’s not the case. It never occurred to her that, after years of dancing around their feelings and hundreds of displays of devotion—some of them public, in front of their fans and friends, much to the rest of the members’ chagrins—Soobin could be expecting the refined, drama type of confession.

It’s a lot to take in.

“It will be fine, unnie,” Juyeon offers Hyunjung a reassuring smile. “Just don't waste time, okay?”



김현정 • 10:35 am
soobin-ah
can we talk?

Seen February 10, 10:35 AM.


김현정 • 02:30 pm
hey
me, sojung and juyeon are going out for dinner tonight
wanna come?

여보 • 02:42 pm
can't, busy

김현정 • 02:42 pm
ah, i see…
let me know when you're free?

Seen February 11, 02:44 PM.


김현정 • 11:15 am
soobin-ah
how long are you going to keep ignoring me? hm?

✓ Seen February 12, 11:15 AM.


Hyunjung lies face down on the bed when she realizes she’s been left on read again, cursing herself a thousand times into her pillows.

This is hell. Hyunjung feels like she’s going through withdrawals—Park Soobin withdrawals, the worst and most violent kind of them all. She isn’t sure how long she’ll be able to function without her daily dose of Soobin, is surprised she even made it this far.

love so sweet - wjsn, yeoreum/yeonjung | canon compliant, fluff | 1.3k | rated t
20, 20 decibel
“It’s time to get up. Come on, Yeonjung-ah.”

“Don’t want to,” Yeonjung whines, pulls the covers over her head. “Leave me alone.”

Yeoreum sighs, drags her hands through her face and groans in frustration. She knew waking Yeonjung up after the two of them stayed up watching movies until three in the morning would be hell, but she gave in to Yeonjung’s request anyway.

Why? Because Yeoreum missed her, terribly so, although she’ll never admit it out loud. Yeonjung would brag about it for months and Yeoreum refuses to give her a reason to tease her for as long as she lives. So she bites her tongue, swallows the words, and decides to show Yeonjung affection in other ways.

Which she kind of regrets now, considering the fact that it’s almost ten and they still have to prepare a cake for Hyunjung before they go to surprise her during music video shooting.

So much for being a fool for Yoo Yeonjung.

“I won’t cook for you anymore,” Yeoreum warns, pokes Yeonjung’s sides over the blanket, laughing quietly behind her fist when Yeonjung tries to slap it away, hands getting tangled in the fabric instead. “I mean it.”

“You wouldn’t dare,” Yeonjung says through a yawn, then pokes her head out. She looks adorable like this, face void of any makeup, eyes soft and puffy. Yeoreum wants to throw herself on top of her and stay there for the rest of the day. “Hi.”

“Hi,” Yeoreum smiles, tugs at the covers, and Yeonjung lets her pull them out of her without complaining this time. “Ready?”

“No,” Yeonjung deadpans, throws an arm over her eyes. “Can’t we just buy her a cake instead?”

Yeoreum rolls her eyes. “Of course not. But fine, keep sleeping if you don’t want to help, i’ll tell Hyunjung unnie you’re not coming anymore and—”

“Fine, fine!” Yeonjung pouts, throwing a glare at Yeoreum once she opens her eyes again. She looks as intimidating as a wet puppy.

“Get your ass up, then!” Yeoreum nags before she steps out of the bedroom, cackling when she hears Yeonjung cursing and telling her to stop treating her as if she’s a spoiled child.
This is bound to be an eventful morning, for sure.



It takes around twenty minutes for Yeonjung to join Yeoreum in the kitchen. She’s wearing an oversized blue hoodie, leggings, fluffy brown slippers and her hair is half up, half down. Yeoreum swoons at the sight, wishes she could wrap her arms around her waist and kiss her stupid until their lungs are about to burst.

She can’t, though, so she settles for a smile and motions for her to come closer, proudly showing off all the different sorts of ingredients and cooking supplies she bought for them to bake together.

Yeonjung looks both amused and confused, picking up a few of Yeoreum’s special spoons and bringing them closer to her face to analyze their shapes. Yeoreum giggles at the scene, aware that Yeonjung has no idea what any of them are meant for. “Always prepared, aren’t you?”

“It’s not like I can count on you to remember shit,” Yeoreum blurts out, and before she can keep teasing Yeonjung over how terrible her attention span is, she’s yelping in pain from the strength of Yeonjung’s hand hitting her arm. She scoffs, offended, and slaps her back. It infuriates her how Yeonjung doesn’t budge, standing there as if she’s been hit by a leaf and not by the hand of an adult woman. “What the fuck, Yeonjung! That hurted.”

“Don’t make fun of me and I won’t hit you,” Yeonjung warns, pointing one of the spoons in Yeoreum’s direction. “Simple as that.”

“Whatever,” Yeoreum huffs and decides to let go. Mostly because she knows she can’t stay mad at Yeonjung for too long, but also because they need to get this cake done for once and for all. “Put on your apron.”

Yeoreum puts her hair up in a bun, grabs her apron from where it lays over one of the kitchen chairs and puts it on, dusting it off as she makes sure it’s covering her clothes properly. Last week she forgot to bring hers and the result was Im Dayoung stumbling and pouring a whole glass of milk over one of her favorite shirts.

Yeoreum has learnt her lesson and will not go through that again, thank you very much.

When Yeoreum turns around, Yeonjung is standing in the same place, waving her obnoxiously pink apron around like a flag. Yeoreum lets out a frustrated huff at the sight, pinches the tip of her nose in order to calm herself down.

“What are you doing.”

“Yeoreum-ah,” Yeonjung calls in lieu of an answer, voice a tone higher, batting her eyelashes. “Put it on me.”

The worst—and most humiliating—part of the whole ordeal is that Yeoreum does find the scene cute. Very cute. There’s a lot of annoying things Yeonjung does that are cute in Yeoreum’s eyes, unfortunately. It turns out that being infatuated with someone does make you stupid. Dayoung was right every single time she told her so.

“Fine,” Yeoreum takes the apron from Yeonjung’s hand and stands behind her, putting it on as if being this close to her neck isn’t killing her inside. Yeonjung smells so good it should be a crime. For a second, Yeoreum considers throwing caution to the wind and placing a kiss on her soft, inviting skin. Maybe even turning her around, pressing her against the kitchen sink and—

“Your hands are shaking,” Yeonjung points out, bringing Yeoreum back to planet earth. Yeoreum can hear the grin in her voice, dangerous and vicious, and braces herself for whatever Yeonjung is about to spill out. “You like me that much?”

Yeoreum pushes Yeonjung away as if she’s been burnt and shoots her a glare, feeling a bit silly for acting like she said something absurd. She’s didn’t. Yeonjung’s never been more correct in her whole life. It’s embarrassing, really, how much Yeoreum likes her.

“Stop talking nonsense and get to work,” Yeoreum tries to scold her, but it comes out weak and weird, lacking bite.

Yeonjung laughs out loud, one hand over her chest, head tilting back. Butterflies fly wildly inside Yeoreum’s stomach, and she starts wondering if it’s possible that she’s falling in love with Yoo Yeonjung all over again.

“Yes, captain.”



“This is not what we planned last night.”

“What are you talking about? Of course it is.”

“No it’s not!” Yeoreum growls, cleaning her hands on her apron before she grabs her phone, handing it over to Yeonjung. “Look.”

Yeonjung takes Yeoreum’s phone, narrowing her eyes as she analyzes the picture for a while. Then, with a bashful smile on her face, she mutters, “I’m sorry, Yeoreum-ah. I won’t doubt you again.”

“You always say that,” Yeoreum sighs, patting Yeonjung’s shoulders when she sees the—adorable, she might add—pout on her lips. “Stop sulking like a baby, it’s okay.”

“I’m always making things harder for you,” Yeonjung says, and Yeoreum is ready to comfort her, but the gloomy look turns into a devilish smile in the blink of an eye. Uh oh. “Good thing you like me, right?”

Yeoreum scoffs, mouth opening and closing a hundred times as she tries to come up with a mean answer to that, something that will make her seem less like a deer caught in headlights, but unfortunately she’s too soft and too head-over-heels and not at all sharp like the leos of the group, so she bites her tongue, takes a deep breath, and says, “I don’t know where you got that idea.”

“Oh, you want me to give you a list? Alright—”

“No I do not—”

“Remember when I was sick and you canceled all your schedules to stay in the dorm with me—”

“I do that for everyone—”

“And you cooked me all of my favorite foods—”

“That too!”

“And stayed in bed with me the whole day, played with my hair to make me feel better and held me when I couldn’t sleep?”

Fuck, Yeoreum thinks, face burning hot even though it’s the middle of winter.

chasing that feeling - wjsn, bona/yeonjung | hero!au, fwb | 551w | rated m
it's all i know
“You,” Yeonjung hisses, removes her mask and shakes her head in an attempt to fix her hair. It’s useless, considering they’re on the rooftop of the tallest building in Seoul right now, wind always cold and unforgiving when you’re this high.

“Me,” Jiyeon sings, not at all bothered by Yeonjung’s disdain for her presence. Her nonchalance only serves to make Yeonjung even more annoyed. “It’s been a long time, Yeonjung-ah.”

“Not long enough,” Yeonjung spits out, mean and sharp. “Why are you back? And why did you look for me?”

“Slow down,” Jiyeon sits at the edge of the building, patting the empty space near her. When Yeonjung refuses to move, she continues, “I missed you. That’s why I’m back.”

Yeonjung scoffs, not believing Jiyeon had the audacity to utter those words. She’s been busy the whole day, relentlessly chasing after clues that would lead her to whatever was causing such a ruckus in the city, only for the culprit to be Kim Jiyeon. Fucking Kim Jiyeon, out of all people.

Last Yeonjung heard, Jiyeon was in Paris screwing some other girl. It was none of her business, but still. It would’ve been nice to have learnt Jiyeon left for another country from Jiyeon herself, not from an apologetic, careful Sojung after a mission debrief.

“Oh, you missed me?” Yeonjung barks through a bitter laugh and the lump forming inside her throat. She’s not one to be overly emotional, but she hasn’t had a second of peace today and she’s exhausted, muscles and bones worn out. All thanks to the woman standing in front of her, acting like this isn’t a big deal. “That’s why you left without saying a fucking word?”

Jiyeon pauses at that, frown visible on her forehead. She’s struggling to come up with something to say, Yeonjung can tell by the way her mouth opens and closes multiple times before she sighs, getting up so she can face Yeonjung properly. Now that they’re standing closer, Yeonjung can see a bruise on her lips and a cut on her cheek. Her hand is patched up, too. Yeonjung almost feels bad for her. Almost.

“I didn’t really know how to say goodbye to you,” Jiyeon confesses, each word dripping with uncharacteristic honesty, fiery gaze burning every inch of Yeonjung’s skin.

All that sincerity is disarming, really—big brown eyes studying her every move, drinking her in, eager for an answer. Yeonjung isn't used to it, not when it comes to Jiyeon.

She refuses to give her what she's silently asking for, though. Kim Jiyeon might be one hell of a sight to see with her dark hair flying against the wind, god-like face sparkling underneath neon lights, but Yeonjung is still hurt.

Hurt enough to not drag Jiyeon to her bedroom and fuck her until she's a panting, whiny mess underneath her, as it usually happens.

“Learn how to be a decent person first, then feel free to try again,” Yeonjung deadpans, hooks a wire around one of the light poles and positions herself on the edge of the building, making sure the equipment is rightfully stuck to her belt before she looks up at Jiyeon one last time. “You better fix all the shit you did today. Terrible way to grab my attention, don't do it again.”

mind if i stay - wjsn, seola/exy | legends of tomorrow!au | 431w | rated t
listen to the universe, you may find an answer
“There’s something I need to tell you.”

Hyunjung takes a step closer to Sojung, then another, then one more until their faces are only a few centimeters apart. Sojung notices that Hyunjung’s hands are shaking and feels the familiar urge to reach out and hold them in between hers, but decides against it.

Then the phrase that would haunt Sojung’s every waking thought finally slipped out of Hyunjung’s mouth, carving a dagger into her chest that would leave her bleeding for weeks.

“I love you, Sojung,” Hyunjung confesses, and Sojung's world ends. “I always have.”



It’s three in the morning and Sojung is getting ready to fly herself to a whole other decade.

Two weeks ago, the team dropped Yeoreum and Yeonjung in 1963 for a mission in Paris on their own. The visit was supposed to be simple and fast—their goal was to chat with a few students from Sorbonne University, gather some intel about the place, and then contact the team once they were done. But then a week passed, then another one, and the radio silence can only mean one thing: trouble.

Sojung didn’t think twice before owning up to her captain role and taking it upon herself to rescue the two of them. Mostly because the rest of the team can’t afford to get distracted about something else when a time anomaly back in 2014 is threatening to turn the entire universe upside down, but it’s also because she’s been grabbing onto any chance to be alone in the Waverider like a lifeline, no matter how dangerous said chance might be.

She wrote a quick note to the others, letting them know where she’s going and that Jiyeon is in charge until she returns, sticking it to the bedroom door of the house they were staying in for the time being before she finally leaves, backpack hanging over her shoulders.

Sojung rushes to the backyard, uncloaks the Waverider, activates the password and enters the ship, leaving her belongings over one of the seats before she turns around—and it’s only then that, to her terror, Sojung realizes that she’s not alone.

“What are you doing here?”

Sojung despises how mean she sounds as soon as the words slip out of her mouth. Hyunjung doesn’t deserve this. She doesn't deserve to be in love with someone like her. She doesn’t, she doesn’t—

“I’m not letting you go to 1963 alone,” Hyunjung explains, calm and collected, as if the reason was obvious and there was nothing weird about this situation. As if nothing changed. “I’ll come with you.”

all my poetry - triples, sohyun/dahyun | band!au | 1.1k | rated t
if i write it, does it matter?
Dahyun steps into Sohyun’s life in the middle of the harshest winter she’s ever faced.

She dropped out of college, her parents kicked her out of their house as retaliation, and to make the whole situation all the more depressing, every single demo she sent to music labels and radio stations were promptly ignored, not even worthy of receiving a single this sucks and we want nothing to do with it as an answer.

Then enters Dahyun, holding the shitty flyer that Nakyoung made in five minutes in her hands, a shy yet determined glow in her eyes as she says, “I’d like to audition for the lead singer spot.”

The sun is here, Sohyun thinks, dumbfounded, unable to form a coherent sentence as Nakyoung and Kotone welcome Dahyun in. God, it’s finally here.



It’s easy, working with Dahyun.

She’s punctual, isn’t afraid to voice out her opinions and, Jesus, Sohyun swears she’s never heard anything quite as breathtaking as her voice in her entire life. Even if Dahyun, in some twisted alternative universe, ended up being the most stuck-up, annoying brat she’s ever met in her life, Sohyun thinks she’d still choose to keep her around for sounding as heavenly as she does.

Thankfully, Dahyun is none of those things. Quite the opposite, Sohyun learns as time goes on and their relationship advances from co-workers, to friends, then to really close friends, then to—

“Unnie,” Dahyun asks, fidgets with the hem of her—Sohyun’s—old sweater. Sohyun hums in lieu of an answer, still staring at the computer in front of her, reading through the emails she received from the multiple music executives she contacted the past week with a frown on her face. “Are you seeing anyone?”

Sohyun freezes. Those four words wipe all the apologies from rich men she was previously reading through from her brain.

Sohyun spins around in her chair, taking in Dahyun’s appearance. Sohyun loves how it looks on her, hates that she can’t pull them off of Dahyun’s body herself. “I’m… not?”

Dahyun’s shoulders relax, her gaze softens. Sohyun tries not to delve too much into what that could mean. “You’d tell me—us, if you were, right?”

“Of course,” Sohyun reassures her with a gentle curl of her lips. Dahyun flashes Sohyun a smile of her own, too, and for a brief second they’re stuck in their own little world, until—

“Look! Look!”

Dahyun nearly drops from the couch in reaction to Kotone’s abrupt entrance, and Sohyun would ask her if she was alright, but Nakyoung comes in next, looking as excited as Kotone, and Sohyun figures she should finally give them her full attention.

Seoul Band Festival, reads the words in the paper Kotone is practically shoving into their faces. Sohyun blinks once, twice, then takes the pamphlet being held out to her, reading carefully through all the conditions to sign up for the festival and—

“This is crazy.”

Kotone nods enthusiastically. “Good type of crazy, right?”

“Yeah, too good,” Sohyun laughs in disbelief. She turns to Nakyoung who’s just as enthusiastic as Kotone, then to Dahyun, and all the air is knocked out of her lungs at the sight in front of her.

Seo Dahyun, all teary-eyed, still staring at the announcement as if she’s waiting for the words to change, to make it impossible for them to join the most prestigious festival in the country. Seo Dahyun, meeting her gaze, biting her lower lip to contain a smile that ends up blooming anyway, sparkling with nothing but hope.
Sohyun decides, right then and there, that they’re winning this thing. Hell, she’d give her own life in a heartbeat if it meant Dahyun would keep smiling at her like that.

As soon as the conversation dies down and they start to leave the studio one by one, Sohyun flops back into her chair and allows her heart to guide her art for the rest of the night.



The next weeks pass by in a blur.

They spend most—if not all—of their free time in Sohyun’s tiny, cramped-up studio, devoting themselves to their craft. The four of them come up with a bunch of songs—some okay, some good, some straight-up awful and a handful of masterpieces that are worth of being sung by thousands of people in a sold-out stadium—and the more they rehearse, the more hope seems to sink deep into their bones, spreading through their veins and creating an euphoric atmosphere whenever they were together.

And Dahyun, well—she’s still the center of Sohyun’s universe, pulling her into her orbit effortlessly. Sohyun’s too weak to fight against it, takes whatever Dahyun hands her without complaints.

It’s foolish, really. Sohyun knows that. So does Nakyoung and Kotone, because not only have they known Sohyun like the back of their hands for years, they’re also not stupid.



There’s a faint knock on the door before it opens, revealing a fresh out the shower Dahyun, wearing a loose pink t-shirt with droplets of water still sticking to her exposed collarbones. Sohyun bites the tip of her own tongue, tries not to stare too much.

“Hi,” Dahyun says, wraps her arms around Sohyun’s shoulders from behind, and Sohyun has to try her best not to get up from her chair and bury her face into Dahyun’s neck. “You called?”

“Mhm,” Sohyun nods, clears her throat in a foolish attempt to hide how flustered she is. “I came up with a song for the festival. Wanna give it a listen?”

Dahyun gives Sohyun’s shoulders one last squeeze before she untangles herself and sits on the empty chair next to her. “Who am I to say no to a Park Sohyun original?”

Sohyun scratches her nape and looks down, hopes Dahyun can’t see the faint hint of red spreading through her cheeks. Dahyun is a compliment machine, has been since day one, but Sohyun still hasn’t figured out how to take them without feeling as if there are thousands of butterflies soaring inside her stomach.

Without saying another word, Sohyun pressed play in the demo she recorded earlier, and leaned back on her chair as she studied each and every single one of Dahyun’s reactions to her song.

Sohyun can feel her ears burning up, and she isn’t quite sure of what to do with her trembling hands, but she refuses to tear her eyes away, eager to drink all of Dahyun in.

When the song ends, Dahyun remains silent. Her eyes keep darting between Sohyun and the computer screen, hands resting over the headphones in her head, unsure if she should take them off or not.

The lack of an immediate reaction makes Sohyun antsy. She isn’t sure what to say or do, doubts she’d be able to survive if Dahyun gave her a negative feedback, which she usually wouldn’t be hurt by, but this song, it’s just—it’s all about—

“Unnie,” Dahyun breathes out, licks her own lips while staring right at Sohyun’s, then continues, “this song is about me, isn’t it?”
pantomimes: (yerin)
2025-03-27 01:38 am

ring, ring a bell

or, (mostly) kpop songs i've been listening to recently.

is it blood, blood? )
pantomimes: (handong)
2024-03-01 01:46 am

jan & feb media round-up


here i am again, slapping january and february together in a single post because i was too lazy to do one of these last month. and also because my media consumption lately has been... well, basically non-existent. hopefully this will change in the next few months, but while we're here, let's get into it!

echo, echo, echo in my brain )
pantomimes: (aseul)
2024-02-11 10:46 pm

life in fic (2012-2023)


me, waking up in the middle of the night, sweating and panting: what if you collected data about every single fic you’ve written since age 11 for no fucking reason and drove yourself insane while you're at it?
💗✍️ )
pantomimes: (barbie)
2024-01-27 01:25 pm
Entry tags:

yuri introspection

inspired by sleepyshamrocks's and lovebalance's posts. let's get into it!

yuri is love yuri is life )
pantomimes: (aseul)
2024-01-18 09:28 pm
Entry tags:

2023 comment ficathon: fills + commentary

FILLS
# of fills: 3
# of words written: 2.440

bleeding out, then it was donesnsd, jessica/tiffany, 585w
cool about itwjsn, bona/dawon, 655w
doomsday (death of me)snsd, yoona/seohyun, 1.2k

anyone else writing 2nd gen fic in the year of our lord 2024? )
pantomimes: (aseul)
2024-01-06 04:12 pm

wip graveyard '23

decided to do one of these because why not. here's a few wips from 2023 that, unfortunately, never saw the light of day. none of these are proofread and were written late at night, please proceed with that in mind.

heaven in hiding - wjsn, bona/yeonjung + mentions of luda/dawon | college!au, secret relationship | 1.1k | rated m
can you hear my heartbeat, fucking kicking?
“Yeonjung-ah,” Jiyeon mewls, head thrown back against the cold tiles, nails scratching lightly at Yeonjung’s scalp. “You’re so good to me. So, so good.”

Yeonjung, on her knees in front of Jiyeon, lets out a pleased hum, too busy leaving kisses all over Jiyeon’s thighs to come up with a proper answer. She loves when Jiyeon is like this, sitting on her kitchen countertop, drunk on her touches, showering her with all sorts of praises.

Yeonjung looks up for a second and the sight of a disheveled, sweaty Jiyeon sprawled in front of her makes her heart skip a beat or two. It’s been a little over a month since they’ve gotten together, much longer since they started hooking up, and she still hasn’t gotten used to this—having Kim Jiyeon all to herself, even if only behind closed doors.

She loves to tease Jiyeon, to push her to her limits until she’s whining and begging for something, anything, but she decides against it tonight. She craved for her girlfriend the whole day, mostly due to not-so-innocent pictures Jiyeon decided to send her while she was in the middle of an important class, and she can’t wait anymore.

She needs to taste Jiyeon, and she needs to do it now.

So she leaves one last kiss on the inside of Jiyeon’s thigh, wraps her fingers around the waistband of Jiyeon’s panties, starts pulling the fabric down and—

Jiyeon’s phone starts ringing. Loud and annoying and incessantly.

Yeonjung groans, head dropping in defeat over Jiyeon’s thigh, because she already knows what it means—Jiyeon has to leave.

Jiyeon coughs a few times to clear her throat, adjusts her tone, then talks to Sojung—one of her classmates—as if she wasn’t about to get eaten out a second ago. Yeonjung remains in the same place, motionless and frustrated as she listens to the quick exchange.

“Your classmates hate me,” Yeonjung grunts as soon as the call comes to an end. “This happens all the time. It’s like they can sense we’re about to fuck or something.”

“They must hate me too, then. I was really looking forward to spending some time with you,” Jiyeon laments and pats Yeonjung’s head, putting a few loose strands behind her ear. “I miss you.”

Yeonjung lifts her head up, pouting as she admits, “I miss you too.”

“Come here,” Jiyeon beckons her closer with a finger and Yeonjung readily obeys the command, hands resting on each side of Jiyeon’s body, their faces mere centimeters apart. “I’m all yours tomorrow, okay? I’ll make sure there are no interruptions. Just me, you, and nothing else.”

Yeonjung sinks her teeth into her lower lip, butterflies going wild inside her stomach at the mere thought of spending the whole day with her girlfriend. “Promise?”

“I promise.” Jiyeon smiles, pressing multiple kisses over Yeonjung’s cheeks, neck and collarbones, leaving one last peck over her lips before she pulls away. “Now I need a shower.”

Yeonjung bats her eyelashes innocently. “Can I join?”

“It’s just a shower,” Jiyeon warns, trying to sound stern, but Yeonjung’s wounded expression manages to pull a giggle out of her.

“Unnie,” Yeonjung puts a hand over her chest, feigning offense, “When have I ever turned a simple shower into something else?”

“Let me see,” Jiyeon scratches her chin for a moment, pretends to count on her fingers, “A million times?”

“Lies,” Yeonjung protests as she helps Jiyeon come down from the countertop, kissing her shoulder before she trails behind her, “All you do is lie.”


After taking a quick shower and saying goodbye with a kiss that almost has Jiyeon canceling all of her plans, Yeonjung decides to spend the rest of the night at Luda’s apartment.

Luda lives in the building right next to Yeonjung’s, so it doesn’t take more than five minutes before Yeonjung is knocking at her door, a bag with alcohol and snacks hanging from her arm. After multiple knocks, messages and an audio message from Yeonjung that says I’m going to kill you if you don’t get your ass up and open this fucking door, the knob finally turns, revealing an annoyed Lee Luda already in her pajamas, headset draped around her neck.

“Be kinder to me, you brat,” Luda says in lieu of a greeting as she steps aside for Yeonjung to come in. “I’m still older than you.”
“What was I supposed to do, freeze to death outside?” Yeonjung rolls her eyes, leaves the bag over Luda’s coffee table. “What are you playing, anyway?”

“Overwatch,” Luda yawns, removes the headset and leaves it over a chair. “I’m bored, though. No decent opponents for five rounds straight.”

“Where’s your girlfriend?” Yeonjung passes Luda a can of beer, throwing herself over Luda’s couch as if she owns the place. Luda, more than used to Yeonjung’s antics by now, doesn’t bat an eye. “Didn’t you say she was almost as good as you?”

“Dawonie? She’s at some dance club emergency meeting,” Luda sighs, takes a sip of the alcohol in her hands. “They have these all the time, it’s so annoying.”

Oh, so Dawon is there too, Yeonjung thinks, hums as she processes the information. At least I’m not the only one being affected by these stupid dance club reunions.

“Jiyeon unnie is there too,” Yeonjung grumbles, and since Luda is the only person that already knows about their relationship, she continues, “I’m so annoyed. She teased me the whole day and I was so close to finally eating her o—”

“Okay, okay, stop,” Luda closes her eyes, shakes her head and blocks her ears. “I don’t need to know what you two do when you’re alone. Gross.”

Yeonjung scoffs, feeling genuinely affronted when she protests, “You’ve told me worse!”

“I’m older than you.”

“Stop using the older card!”

“Never, brat—”

“I’m not a brat—”

“You know damn well you are—”

“If I’m a brat, then you’re the antichrist—”

Their bickering session gets interrupted by Luda’s phone, some Troye Sivan song Yeonjung can’t remember the title that Dawon chose for Luda because, according to her, it’s the perfect summary of their relationship blasts through the living room and snaps them out of their insult battle.

You’re so gay, Yeonjung remembers telling Luda when she told her the story behind her ringtone choice. Shut the fuck up, Luda answered, ever the sweet talker.

“Hi, Dawonie,” Luda says as she picks up, ignoring Yeonjung pretending to gag from the other side of the couch. “Mhm. No, I’m not busy. Yeonjungie is here. Okay. I’ll be waiting.”

“What is it?”

“She wants to make a video call,” Luda says, and soon enough her phone is ringing again.

getaway car - wjsn, exy/yeonjung + mentions of bona/dawon | canon divergence, wjsn never existed but they're still idols | 1.4k | rated t
the best of times
“Unnie!” Yeonjung calls as she bursts through the door of Sojung’s studio, not even bothering to knock first. She sounds excited, the happiest Sojung has seen her all week. “I heard you got your driver's license. Is it true?”

“Yup,” Sojung smirks, grabs the key sitting beside her empty coffee cup and twirls it on her finger to show off. “The rumors are true.”

“And you already have a car?” Yeonjung asks, eyes shining with hope. Her smile grows once Sojung confirms with a nod, and she doesn’t think twice before she’s throwing herself on Sojung’s lap, nearly breaking the new computer chair Sojung bought last week in the process. “You can finally take me on a road trip, then.”

Sojung raises an eyebrow, resting both hands on Yeonjung’s waist to steady her and make sure she doesn’t fall off. “A road trip?”

Yeonjung nods, wrapping her arms around Sojung’s shoulders. Sojung bites the inside of her cheek, trying not to think too much about how she can feel Yeonjung’s breath on her cheek or how close their faces are. “Just you and me. Seoul to Busan. What do you say?”

“That’s only four hours, though,” Sojung reasons. “Hardly an actual road trip.”

Yeonjung rolls her eyes, shoves Sojung’s arm lightly. “What were you expecting me to suggest, a road trip to Europe? I’m a busy woman, unnie.”

“Fine,” Sojung deflates, pouts, and caresses her own arm. “Busan sounds good.”

Busan does sound good. Too good, actually. The thought of spending some time in her hometown, far away from the company, leaving behind the weight of being the top rapper of the country and the overwhelming mess that is Seoul, with Yeonjung of all people by her side sounds like heaven to Sojung.

Yeonjung nods enthusiastically and presses a kiss on Sojung’s cheek before she gets up, making her way towards the door. Yeonjung waves before she disappears into the corridor. Sojung pretends she doesn’t miss her the second she leaves.


Sojung gets home after sending Dawon a few demos and spending an entire hour in a reunion that could have been replaced by a simple email. I’ll need at least two days off, Sojung explained, knowing exactly what would follow—a bunch of questions about the date she was supposed to go with Jiyeon over the weekend. Not a real date, no—only an excuse for them to be seen in public and boost their reputations.

People love their relationship. No, they are obsessed with it. Rapper Chu Sojung and actress Kim Jiyeon breathe next to each other and tweets go viral, thousands of compilations are uploaded to YouTube and their names trend on Naver for days.

If only they knew it was all fake. If only they knew Sojung’s heart sits in the hands of someone else.

Sojung managed to convince them with the promise of posting a picture dump full of pictures of her and Jiyeon with a cheesy caption, which pleased them immensely. Sojung could see the won bills shining in their eyes as they granted her the two days off she requested.

It was kind of a ridiculous situation. It always is. But after years in the industry, she has learnt to accept that that’s the price she has to pay to be able to do what she loves, for the glory, for the fame.

Sojung worked hard for it, for her songs to chart at number one for consecutive weeks, for her face to be on billboards and for her concert tickets to sell-out in mere seconds. She wouldn’t trade it for the world.

That’s what she learnt to tell herself so she can sleep at night, at least.

Sojung stares at the picture of her and Yeonjung she keeps on her nightstand, taken last year, right after Yeonjung’s first concert. The same night she realized she liked her as more than just a hoobae, than a simple friend.


(“You know,” Jiyeon started, leaning closer to her so no one else could hear what she was about to say, “It’s written all over your face. I don’t know if it’s cute or disgusting.”

Sojung doesn’t tear her eyes away from Yeonjung, who’s shining on stage as usual, when she asked, “What is?”

“Don’t be silly,” Jiyeon frowned and slapped Sojung’s arm. Sojung pretended it didn’t happen, though, too enthralled by how effortlessly Yeonjung hits a high note while performing one of her hardest choreographies. “You know exactly what I’m talking about.”)


Sojung is pulled out of her thoughts when her phone vibrates, Yeonjung’s name flashing on her screen. She smiles to herself and unlocks her phone, wasting no time before she types out an answer to Yeonjung’s question.

yeonjungie 🐻09:56 pm
what time are we leaving tomorrow?

me09:56 pm
be ready by six
let’s leave early

yeonjungie 🐻09:57 pm
will do~
make sure to look good for me, unnie

me09:57 pm
no one looks good that early in the morning

yeonjungie 🐻09:58 pm
i very much do
and you know that

Sojung has seen Yeonjung during the early hours of the morning enough times to know that the statement is, in fact, true. It’s kind of absurd, really, how good Yeonjung manages to look before the sun is even out.

She might be a little biased, given how much of a fool she is for her, but oh well. There’s nothing she can do about it.

me09:58 pm
yeah yeah
keep telling yourself that

yeonjungie 🐻09:59 pm
you were supposed to agree with me!!!!
i’m upset ㅠ

me09:59 pm
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
good night, yeonjungie~

yeonjungie 🐻09:59 pm
have terrible dreams, unnie

Despite Yeonjung’s mean wishes, Sojung dreams of beaches, clear skies and red hair flying against Busans’s fresh wind.


Sojung is inside her car, ready to drive to Yeonjung’s dorm when her phone starts vibrating inside her pocket.

jiyeon05:45 am
had to find out through my manager that you canceled our date
how could you, chu sojung!!!

Sojung scoffs once she reads the message. Kim Jiyeon is unbelievable sometimes. And by sometimes Sojung means all the time.

me05:46 am
ㅋㅋㅋ
don’t be dramatic
i know you despise those dates

jiyeon05:47 am
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ i do
have fun cheating on me~

The audacity, Sojung thinks as she shakes her head, although the thought of something happening between her and Yeonjung during this little trip makes her feel all sorts of funny.

sojung05:47 am
you’re the one that will cheat on me though? ㅋㅋ
tell dawon i said hi by the way

jiyeon05:47 am
no
i’ll be too busy kissing her

sojung05:48 am
🙄
i really hate you sometimes

jiyeon05:48 am
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
make sure to pay attention to the road!!
don’t get too distracted by yeonjungie’s beauty!!!
if my baby gets hurt because of you you’re a dead woman chu sojung

sojung05:48 am
oh my god…
goodbye jiyeon

Sojung ignores all of Jiyeon’s next messages, shoves her phone back into her pocket and drives away.


“Do I look pretty or not?”

That’s the first thing Yeonjung says when Sojung pulls over. Not a hello, not a did you sleep well, not a simple good morning. Sojung should’ve seen that coming.

Yeonjung makes a dramatic pose, one that makes her look like the main character in a superhero movie, but that does the trick. She does look pretty. Too pretty for Sojung’s own good. Kinda makes her want to give up on this road trip, press Yeonjung against the back of her car and—

“You look gorgeous, Yeonjung-ah,” Sojung says, voice laced with fake sweetness. Yeonjung notices that but takes the compliment anyway, beaming as if she had been announced Best Artist on MAMA. “Can we leave now?”

“Of course,” Yeonjung sing-songs, puts her suitcase in the trunk and slides into the passenger seat.

Yeonjung grabs a chapstick from the pocket of her pink hoodie and applies it to her lips, using her finger to remove the excess that was left in the corner of her mouth. Sojung follows the movement, wetting her own lips in the process.

There are a lot of devastating things about Yoo Yeonjung, Sojung has come to learn against her will, but her mouth is definitely on the top three.

Yeonjung closes the chapstick and turns around, grinning as she states, “You’re staring.”

Sojung forces out a cough, blinks a few times as she grabs the steering wheel with much more strength than she was supposed to. “Put on your seatbelt.”

honey, i don't wanna share - wjsn, exy/seola | established relationship | 1k | rated t
a/n: the last two scenes are not linear, but they're still part of the story. i just didn't finish them lmao
is it cool that i said all that?
Hyunjung sprawled on her bed, killing time by watching the ten thousand YouTube videos Soobin sent her throughout the week when her phone starts to ring, the name Yeoreumie flashing on her screen.

“Yeoreum-ah,” Hyunjung greets. “What’s up?”

“Hi, unnie, um—” Yeoreum pauses for a second, and Hyunjung swears she can hear Dayoung screaming at someone in the background, then she continues, “I think you should come pick Sojung unnie up.”

Hyunjung pushes herself up into a sitting position, runs her hands through her face to shake the drowsiness out of her system. “What happened? She told me she was going to crash at Yeonjung’s.”

“Yeah, well, you see,” Yeoreum has to pause again, this time she pulls the phone away from her to scream Im Dayoung, could you please not make things worse—yeah, take Sojung unnie to the bedroom, thank you, then she apologizes to Hyunjung and continues, “Yeonjung is kind of the problem. Luda unnie, too.”

Hyunjung grimaces, feels a chill run down her spine. Not a single situation that included the words Yeonjung, Luda and problem has ever ended well for her—or for any of the members of their friend group, really. “What did they do this time.”

Yeoreum sighs and Hyunjung takes it as an opportunity to put the phone on speaker, leaving it over her nightstand so she can listen to the story while she starts to get dressed.

“We were all drinking and talking in peace, but then Yeonjungie and Luda unnie, being the way they are, decided to start—um,” Hyunjung can tell from Yeoreum’s pained tone that she loathes being the one that has to tell her whatever the hell happened between those three. Hyunjung has the feeling that the responsibility fell on her lap because she’s the only person in the room sober enough to do so. “They started to talk about how hot you are to spite Sojung unnie. And because she was drunk out of her ass, it worked.”

Hyunjung has to take a deep breath to stop herself from bursting into laughter, because what the actual fuck did she just hear. “Did she cry?”

“She did cry,” Yeoreum confirms. “She might start crying again any time soon, so please.

“Yeah, of course,” Hyunjung giggles as she fixes her bangs in the mirror. What a ridiculous situation, really. “I’m on my way.”

They say their goodbyes, and as soon as she’s ready Hyunjung is out of the door—coat, tissues and painkillers, all for her hot mess of a girlfriend, safe inside her bag.


“What the fuck did you two do,” Hyunjung says in lieu of a greeting as she steps into Yeonjung’s apartment, the place where their small gathering was happening before it turned into a circus of screams and tears.

“Nothing,” Luda and Yeonjung say in unison, batting their eyelashes and swinging their feet. Hyunjung rolls her eyes at the unbelievable scene.

“You two are going to hell,” she says, ignores how that sentence makes the two of them cackle like actual demons who were forced to live on earth, then turns to Yeoreum, “Sojung. Where is she?”

Yeoreum gestures for Hyunjung to follow her, guiding her to the guest room where they find Dayoung patting a distraught Sojung on the head.

“Thank God,” Dayoung throws her hands up to the sky, not even hesitating before she gets up and leaves Sojung behind. “She’s all yours now, unnie. Good luck.”

“I’ll leave you to it, unnie. I’ll be in the living room if you need anything,” Yeoreum says, sounding a thousand times more kind and considerate than Dayoung—as usual—before she steps out of the bedroom, gently closing the door behind her.

Hyunjung sits beside Sojung on the bed, letting out a huff when Sojung throws herself into her arms and nearly knocks her out of the mattress. Hyunjung caresses Sojung’s hair for a moment before she speaks, “Hello there.”

“Hi,” Sojung says, hiccups, sinks further into Hyunjung’s embrace. “Glad you’re here.”

Hyunjung smiles, running her hands up and down Sojung’s back. “Wanna tell me what happened?”

Sojung whines and shakes her head, sounding an awful lot like she’s about to start bawling her eyes out again. Oh no.

“Okay, okay,” Hyunjung shushes her. “You don’t have to tell me anything right now.”

That seems to do the trick because Sojung relaxes again, the vicious grip she had on Hyunjung’s sweater loosening considerably. Hyunjung sighs, relieved.

“Can you just keep holding me like this?” Sojung asks, small and vulnerable. Hyunjung’s heart melts.

“Of course,” Hyunjung places a kiss on the crown of Sojung’s head. “Anything you want.”

They remain like that for a while—on the bed, in a comfortable silence, pressed against each other as Hyunjung eventually leaves a few kisses on Sojung’s shoulders, cheeks and forehead.


“It’s not just them, it’s—“ Sojung hiccups. “A lot of people! Don’t you know,” she holds Hyunjung’s face between her hands, squeezing it to the point where it’s uncomfortable and sort of painful, but Hyunjung simply allows her to keep doing it, “how gorgeous you are? How many people would kill me in a heartbeat to get a chance with you—”

“I don’t think anyone would actually kill you to date me—”

“Unnie!” Sojung shrieks, shoves Hyunjung’s shoulder. “Don’t interrupt me.”

“Ow, ow,” Hyunjung giggles, then pretends to zip her lips when Sojung scowls. “Okay, sorry. Go on.”


Sojung is not the jealous type, has never been for the five years they’ve been together—so, for her to be acting like this, there might have been some signs Hyunjung missed, some bad days, some repressed doubts. She wants to wipe them all off, wants Sojung to know her heart belongs to her and no one else.

“You won’t leave me for someone else, right?”

“No.”

“Not even for Kim Taeyeon?”

Hyunjung giggles. “Not even Kim Taeyeon. I swear.”

“What if she serenades you with one of her songs—“

“God, shut up.” Hyunjung rolls her eyes, then pulls Sojung into a kiss.

사랑쪽지 - wjsn, dawon/yeonjung | witches!au, wjsn as a coven as god intended | 1.3k | rated t
throw it in the air
Dear Dawon unnie.

Yeonjung frowns, raises the paper up so she can analyze it. No, too cheesy. It doesn’t feel like her.

Dawon unnie.

Too boring.

Queen of my heart, body and soul.

You can’t Taylor Swift your way out of this one, Yeonjung.

Write, erase, repeat. Write, erase, repeat. Write, erase, repeat—

“Fuck this,” Yeonjung grunts, ripping the nth unfinished letter she wrote that evening into pathetic little pieces before she throws them into the trash can, letting her head drop pitifully against the table as soon as she returns to the chair she’s been sitting on for an entire hour. “I can’t do it. I just can’t.”

Luda, who’s been playing games on her phone while Yeonjung suffers, doesn’t even bother to tear her eyes off her screen as she speaks, “You know, for someone with a shotgun for a mouth and a nuclear bomb for a brain, you suck at putting your feelings into words. The genuine ones, at least.”

Luda has said a lot of insane things regarding Yeonjung’s personality during the five years they’ve known each other, but this one probably takes the cake. Shotgun for a mouth and nuclear bomb for a brain, Yeonjung ponders over the phrase, impressed by Luda’s choice of words. Huh. Sounds about right.

“It’s not that I suck at it,” Yeonjung starts explaining, resting her chin over her closed fist while she uses her free hand to fidget with her pen. “It’s just that— well. It’s Dawon unnie,” Yeonjung’s shoulders deflate and her voice becomes softer as she continues, “It… means a lot to me. That she agrees to go on a date with me, I mean.”

“Like I said, you suck at genuine feelings.”

“Okay, fine, I suck at genuine feelings. You’re right. Is that what you wanted to hear?” Yeonjung grunts, rips another page off her notebook, crumples it and throws it straight into Luda’s forehead. Luda yelps, finally lifting her head up to throw a glare at Yeonjung’s direction. Yeonjung, as usual, is completely unaffected by it. “You’re the one who told me to write her a letter. You should be helping me out instead of playing the same stupid game you’ve been losing sleep over for a week now.”

“You know I suck at genuine feelings as much as you do, maybe even more,” Luda says through a yawn as she gets up from the couch, stretching her limbs once she’s up. “I already gave you a suggestion. There’s nothing else I can do.”

“You could at least stay and offer moral support,” Yeonjung pouts as she watches Luda gather her belongings and put them inside her bag, pacing back and forth around the room to make sure she grabbed everything. Knowing Luda, she probably didn’t.

“I can’t, Sojung unnie asked me to teach the gremlins about my potions tomorrow,” Luda sighs, exhausted at the mere thought of being surrounded by the annoying, loud kids that Sojung teaches for an entire morning. The image of Luda trying to keep it together while children scream and jump around her has Yeonjung suppressing a laugh behind her hands. “And if I don’t get enough sleep I might end up hurting someone. No, not just someone, a whole child. I’d be banned from this city forever.”

“You would,” Yeonjung agrees as she points towards Luda’s wand, forgotten over a cushion. There you are, Luda mutters under her breath, heaving a sigh of relief. “Hunted, even.”

“Yeah, I wouldn’t put it past them to— what the hell is that.

Yeonjung frowns. “What?”

Luda doesn’t have the opportunity to answer, because soon enough Jiyeon and Dayoung stumble through the room, their faces covered in mud while they argue over something Yeonjung can’t quite comprehend. All she knows is that they sound and look ridiculous, as per usual.

They only stop screaming at each other when they notice Luda and Yeonjung staring at them as if they were aberrations. An awkward silence falls between them until Dayoung, always one to act on her impulses to disturb someone’s peace of mind, clears her throat and decides to torment Yeonjung instead.

“What do we have here?” Dayoung sings as she makes Yeonjung’s notebook float in the air, high enough that none of them can catch it, until it’s in her hands. “Dearest Dawon unnie,” Dayoung giggles as she starts reading, her voice an octave lower for dramatic effect. Jiyeon stands behind her, trying to catch a glimpse of the writing over Dayoung’s shoulder. “Would you go on a date with me next week? Love, Yeonjung.”

“This sucks,” Jiyeon laughs out loud like the menace that she is and lets her eyes wander through the other unfinished attempts at a letter scattered throughout the page. “To be honest, all of these suck.”

Luda nods. “I told her it sucks.”

“Can you guys stop?” Yeonjung barks, then with a swift motion of her hand, she manages to take her notebook back and send both Jiyeon and Dayoung crashing against the floor. Yeonjung would make fun of their dumbfounded faces and the fact that they’re looking as if they got hit by a train sprawled all over the wood like that, but the whole situation is starting to get on her nerves.

Like, actually get on her nerves.

So when Dayoung, who clearly didn’t learn her lesson, gets up and resumes her incessant teasing Yoo Yeonjung session, Yeonjung loses it— and by losing it she means that now, instead of sending her to the floor, she leaves her stuck on the ceiling, right next to the fan that is currently spinning at full speed.

Dayoung shrieks, thrashes in the air and begs for mercy, but Yeonjung doesn’t budge, watching her friend struggle with a satisfied— and sort of sadistic— smirk dancing on her lips. Im Dayoung should’ve known better than to piss off the most powerful— and, not to mention, the pettiest— witch in town.

“Okay, okay, I’ll stop making fun of you,” Dayoung cries, trying her best to fly back to the safety of the floor below her, but she’s no match to Yeonjung’s strength. Yeonjung doesn’t answer, only moves Dayoung’s face closer to the fan. “Fuck. I’ll clean your bedroom for a week. No, for a whole month. Just let me go. Please!

Yeonjung, still unsatisfied with the punishment, is about to make Dayoung promise to wash her dishes too when the door to their shop opens again, and this time, Yeonjung completely melts at the sight in front of her. Dawon is wearing a lilac trench coat that’s a few sizes too big for her body, a tote bag full of books hanging from her shoulder and a bunch of snowdrops under her arms, probably the ones she’s going to use on the new potions she’s been working on.

“Hey, I was wondering if one of you could— oh,” Dawon stares at Dayoung, then at Jiyeon, Luda, and finally lets her gaze fall over Yeonjung. She flashes her an apologetic smile as she asks, “Is now not a good time?”

It is always a good time for you, Yeonjung thinks as she tries her best not to yelp over how adorable Dawon looks like that, but she bites her tongue and, instead, she chooses to says, “Oh no, don’t mind, um, this,” she gestures vaguely to Dayoung as she slowly starts to put the girl down. Then she completely ignores the fact that Dayoung is using her powers to get inside her head and call her every bad name under the sun to focus on Dawon, “What do you need, unnie?”

“Do you still have those books about healing potions? I searched for something similar through the entire town but couldn’t find anything,” Dawon laments, using her chin to point towards her bag, “except for a few about flower potions. But they’re all old, and I have to return them by tomorrow.”

make me so hot, make me wanna drop - wjsn, dayoung/yeonjung + mentions of dayoung/gahyeon | college!au, oh no my best friend is suddenly hot | 300w | rated t
it's so ridiculous, i can barely stop
“Yeonjung-ah.”

“I said no.”

“Please!”

“No.”

“Pretty please?”

“No.”

“I’m begging, please—

“No, Dayoung!” Yeonjung screams, finally running out of patience after minutes of non-stop arguing. “I’m not going to take a picture for you to send to your horny crush or whatever the fuck you said.”

“Her name is Gahyeon, you know,” Dayoung huffs, runs her hands through her hair. Yeonjung rolls her eyes. “What am I gonna do then. Should I ask Yeoreumie—”

“She’ll say no, too.”

“I need better friends,” Dayoung laments, throwing herself face-down on the couch. “Friends that actually care about me and help me get some.”

Yeonjung tries to ignore her—which would be easy considering she has a PhD in ignoring Im Dayoung’s dramatic ass—but Dayoung keeps complaining. See, usually she’ll whine for a while, pout when she knows her target is staring, then she’ll get bored out of her mind and find someone else to bother—that someone being, more often than not, Sojung, bless her poor soul.

But she keeps going this time, blurting out complaint after complaint after complaint. It’s driving Yeonjung insane.

“And when you’re old and miserable and I’m still famous and gorgeous, I’ll refuse to help you, too. Then you, Yoo Yeonjung, will spent the rest of your sad life regretting this day forever—”

Yeonjung grabs the cushion behind her and throws it straight into Dayoung’s face. “I’ll take your stupid picture if you shut the fuck up.”

“Thank yo—”

“No,” Yeonjung holds a warning finger up, stopping Dayoung. “I don’t want to hear a single word.”

Dayoung nods and pretends to zip her lips. Yeonjung shakes her head and sighs, not believing she is actually going to do this. Sure, yeah, she knows Lee Gahyeon is hot because anyone with a pair of working eyes can see that, but Jesus fucking Christ, she can’t fathom why Dayoung is acting like she hasn’t felt the touch of another woman for a century—which, considering how popular and confident she is, couldn’t be further from the truth.
pantomimes: (tiffany)
2024-01-03 05:20 pm
Entry tags:

2023 round-up


i was barely active on this website these past few months but why not just shove everything into one single post, right? i actually consumed an obscene amount of media this year and got obsessed with a thousand of different things, so let's get into it!

no return, no reason
⋆ KPOP
snsd
how can i talk about my experience with kpop this year without talking about #them... they took over my brain in the most diabolical way possible. if you know me you know that they were the first kpop group i've ever heard and how much of an insane sone i was when i was fourteen/fifteen, and this year i finally decided to catch up with their 15th anniversary activities and... um. all of sudden it was 2015 again. and the obsession still hasn't left my body, i'm listening to snsd as i type this and i basically haven't listened to anything other than snsd for the past week or so. also, what the fuck do you guys know about ROYAL FAMILY? i'm sorry, i'm never beating the taeny shipper allegations. it was a joy to start reading snsd (esp taeny) fics and watching poorly made fmvs from 2010-2013 sones again, it felt like coming home.
overall
girl, what a meh year... a few girlgroups like aespa (btw i saw them LIVE this year??? this still feels surreal to me), rv, le sserafim, gidle, dreamcatcher, itzy, etc released good music and that was it. and no, the group with the so-called "best release of the year" mini album that isn't even fifteen minutes long is not included in this, what the fuck is wrong with everyone. these new groups are simply not it for me... like, where the fuck is wjsn?!???!?? where the fuck is REAL music? and don't get me start on choi jisu hiatus, i really lost this year. i miss my girl so much it's ridiculous.

⋆ MUSIC
top artists
1. snsd (724)
2. taylor swift (717)
3. lady gaga (249)
4. rosalia (223)
5. glee cast (220)
6. charli xcx (204)
7. little mix (203)
8. troye sivan (183)
9. marina (162)
10. allie x (141)
bonus: 11. reneé rapp (137)
& more
top songs
1. genie - snsd (71)
2. snow angel - reneé rapp (65)
3. foolish one - taylor swift (64)
4. con altura - rosalia (61)
5. loose garment - muna (55)
6. angel - pinkpantheress (55)
7. unforgiven - le sserafim (53)
8. barbie world - nicki minaj & ice spice (53)
9. lingua franca - snsd (51)
10. monsoon - tokio hotel (50)
& more
top albums
1. barbie the album - various artists (510)
2. speak now (taylor's version) - taylor swift (425)
3. snow angel - reneé rapp (134)
4. something to give each other - troye sivan (117)
5. love & peace - snsd (105)
& more

the barbie soundtrack being my most listened album this year just feels right, you know? i'll expand more on my love about barbie in the movie section but god did it rewind my brain completely. continuing on the snsd obsession topic, here you can see how serious i am about it. genie being my most listened song of 2023? not even god could have seen this one coming, but to be honest genie has been and always will be my favorite snsd song and one my favorite songs of all time so it's not that crazy.

to be honest i didn't hear as much music as i thought i would this year, i only have a little over 11k scrobbles on lastfm when i usually have over 20k, so... but that doesn't mean i thought this was a bad year for music! just a little less crowded than 2020 or 2022. other than the barbie soundtrack i also listened to speak now tv a LOT because to be honest i didn't really care or remember much about most of the songs from the stolen version, but man did the new version grab me by the neck! foolish one greatest song of the year. i also need to rant a little bit about reneé rapp... yes i did expand my top artists list to 11 because i HAD to put this girl in. snow angel is such a crazy debut album and it's so satisfying to see how much she's growing as an artist. i love love love this girlie and i can't wait to see what she does next.

⋆ TV AND CINEMA
favorite movies watched in 2023
1. barbie (2023)
2. the marvels (2023)
3. birds of prey (2020)
4. spider-man: across the spider-verse (2023)
5. is it fall yet? (2000)
favorite shows watched in 2023
1. yellowjackets s1 + s2 (2021)
2. warrior nun s1 + s2 (2020)
3. the haunting of bly manor (2020)
4. agents of shield s2 (2013)
5. supergirl s3 + s4 (2015)

first of all, i watched an INSANE amount of shows and movies in 2023 so i forced myself to make a top 5 or else this post would be way too fucking long and i would get bored halfway through. i definitely had more fun with movies/shows than music this year, like, WAY more. and here's me try to briefly go through some of my favorites without going insane... okay!

second of all, are the people who said the marvels was a bad movie okay? it's so cool to say that every mcu thing that comes out is trash now but this is by far my favorite era of the mcu... fuck the infinity saga, fuck iron man and their, what? three main women cast? please, it was so boring. where is the SPARKLE? where are the SILLY GIRLS? that being said i love phase four and phase five a thousand times more than the annoying white men fest from the past phases. the marvels is great and it touched my heart and it immediately became one of my favorite mcu movies.

okay, so... barbie. [incoherent screams] it's been months and i still find myself staring into the void while thinking about this movie. i was obviously expecting it to be a good movie given the cast and greta gerwig but it was so much better than i could've expected, it genuinely healed something in me? not to mention it gave me barbiegloria which is easily, like, top five ships of the year for me. i went through my worst margot robbie obsession so far because of this movie, which led me to rewatching suicide squad 1 (TERRIBLE MOVIE BTW. i only rewatched it because i didn't remember shit about it) and finally watch birds of prey and suicide squad two, which is so much better than the first one? i was genuinely shocked.

which takes us to, birds of prey moment! everyone that knows me knows i love harley so it might be a bit of a shock to learn that i had never watched birds of prey but, well, i finally did, and it didn't disappoint. i enjoyed every second of that movie, and because of it i became the biggest helena bertinelli stan to ever exist. i got so obsessed with her that i started reading the comics she was in and... what can i say. i'm such a birds of prey girlie now. i wish they did another bop movie with barbara gordon in it... can you imagine the power of such joint slay on a movie screen? i'd die.

shows time! which is time to talk about my biggest new obsession of the year, which was yellowjackets. good god this show rewired my brain in ways i thought could never be rewired again. back when the show first aired i was a bit reluctant to watch it because i have never watched anything with that... vibe, if you know what i mean. but now i'm glad i waited because i watched both seasons in like three days and it CHANGED MY LIFE. what a story. what a cast. so so so much thought put into each scene and each character and each arc. i successfully managed to make five different people to watch this show and become equally obsessed with it, so... if you haven't watched it, please give it a chance. this might sound extremely biased but i genuinely think it's impossible not to like yellowjackets. if you're into CRAZY WOMEN and HOMOEROTIC SUBTEXT you'll love this one, i promise.

me when i'm the insane girl that decides to start watching supergirl after the show has already ended. i did it because i have the worst crush on katie mcgrath/lena luthor but i ended up really liking the show...? like of course it's a bit cringe at times because it's a cw show but i really don't mind the occasional Cringe at all? but what i do hate about supergirl is james olsen. and all male villains from this show. get them out of my screen they piss me off SO BAD that i have to take like a week off after watching five episodes so i can decompress.

i want to talk about warrior nun because it also changed my brain chemistry forever but the current situation after the show was "saved" is stressing me out so bad that i simply can't. just know that i would die for beatrice in a heart beat. [phoebe bridger's voice] whatever she wants, whatever she wants...

quick shout-out to bottoms (which i also enjoyed a lot) for making people obsessed with ayo edebiri. that's my girlfriend and i love her more than anything in this world and, wait, did i mention that we're getting married in a few months? you're all invited, by the way.

⋆ FINAL THOUGHTS
i was going to add a reading/writing section but i got lazy... i'll probably try to do a separate post for these + the insane marvel/dc comic book haul i did in december later? no promises, though. well, that's all for now. if you made it this far, thanks for reading ^-^
pantomimes: (hyunjung)
2022-05-30 12:17 am

intp luda and entp yeonjung: a mini thesis


i don't consider myself an expert in mbti or anything, but this is a topic i'm highly interested in and i know enough to see that there's some serious introverted thinking + extroverted intuition mess going on in the minds of these two. so, here's me trying to explain why!

🐹🐻
lee luda 🐹

dob: 06/02/1997
zodiac sign: aquarius
type she got on 16p: isfj (girl what the hell…)
type i think she is: intp

intp functions:
Ti > Ne > Si > Fe
+ dominant Ti: introverted thinking
+ auxiliary Ne: extroverted intuition
+ tertiary Si: introverted sensing
+ inferior Fe: extroverted feeling

it's not hard to come to the conclusion that lee luda is, undoubtedly, a rational person. i think that's one of the first things you come to learn about her when you get into wjsn, because while she might have the cutest face in the world, her tongue and the way her brain works on the other hand are... interesting, to say the least. she has a no bullshit attitude and is always very honest about what she thinks. now, let's take a look on why i think she's an intp:

tutor luda
i really like luda's tutor segment and i want to start with this one because you can see her using all of her functions here. right from the start you can see the members talking about how she helps them solve their problems and is super smart, then as soon as she learns what she has to teach she starts preparing herself for it. she's a bit taken aback when she finds out she's going to teach math because according to her it's her "enemy", but she still had to get good at it because since she wanted to major in science when she was in high school.

mc: she's looking for a textbook at a bookstore?
eunseo: yes!
mc: amazing.
eunseo: we're preparing for our next comeback at the moment, but she's more focused on studying.

she looks so happy and excited when she got a question right T_T my baby... even though wjsn are preparing for a comeback she was more focused on going through textbooks/online courses to make sure she was prepared to teach someone, and here's where i want to start analyzing her mbti. one thing about intps is that they would rather DIE than to be perceived as incompetent at something that has to do with their intellect, so she puts her all into studying, goes through multiple sources (the textbooks and the online courses) and writes everything down so she can understand it better. there's our Ti-Ne-Si.

the Fe (along with a bit of Si) kicks in when she starts talking to the girls she's tutoring. intps are not as empathetic as other Fe users (enfjs, esfjs, infjs, isfjs) because it's an inferior function rather than one they like to/tend to use all the time, but it's still there. she sees the scribbles in one of the students' textbooks and she asks if she's going through a hardship at the moment. then, after the girl explains what's going on, luda talks about how she went through the same thing and offers her a solution to the problem. i really recommend watching at least this part, you can see how comforting people isn't luda's strongest suit but since she knows this is someone who looks up to her + she went through the same thing in the past she still tries, even if in a more rational/direct way, and that's pure inf Fe.

sharp tongue
intps are known for being blunt beings. they usually see their inf Fe as their biggest weakness and tend to ignore it, which makes them come out as "too harsh" or "too honest" but tbh if you're not someone they especially care about, they don't give a fuck if you think they're being mean or not LMAO. not that they're actively trying to come out as mean or anything, they're just incredibly rational and like to work with facts rather than sugarcoating things, which other people might not take lightly. some iconic lee luda Ti dom moments:
other intps in kpop:other Ti doms in kpop (istps):
i honestly don't get how she got a isfj result in 16p. that website needs to be taken away from kpop idols asap because it's not a good source at all. the amount of stupid results i've seen from this website are just... yeah. now, let's move on to the love of my life!

yoo yeonjung 🐻

dob: 03/08/1999
zodiac sign: leo
type she got on 16p: estp/istp
type i think she is: entp

entp functions:
Ne > Ti > Fe > Si
+ dominant Ne: extroverted intuition
+ auxiliary Ti: introverted thinking
+ tertiary Fe: extroverted feeling
+ inferior Si: introverted sensing

everyone get ouf of my way because now it's my time to shine! anyway, i personally think yeonjung's 16p results are not as atrocious as luda's. estps and istps both have high Ti, and for that reason i did consider estp as a possible mbti for yeonjung for a while. but as i started to analyze her personality through focused mbti lenses, i quickly started to notice some pretty obvious Ne-Ti patterns. here's some of them:

→ insane amount of brainpower
one thing about this girl is that if she wants something, she is going to get it. she wants to learn something? she will. she wants to become good at something? she will. she wants to become BETTER than she already was? you better believe she will. i watched some videos on entps before making this post, and two things in particular stood out to me when i was watching this one: "the first thing to know about an entp is that we're probably already bored." + "have you ever watched the marvel movie avengers? he (iron man) basically learned thermogenics overnight. yeah, we kind of do that." this immediately reminded me of how yeonjung dropped out of her japanese class because she was bored and decided to learn it by herself. and she succeeded, because she's good like that (see here and here).

she’s a former sm trainee, but not a lot of people know that she got accepted for her dancing skills rather than her vocals. "while she was a fantastic dancer, she felt that her singing skills lacked compared to other vocalists at the label, so she spent her time focusing on improving her singing abilities" and now she sings Like That... are we kidding. this girl scares the shit out of me but in a good way. i'd also like to point out that yeonjung got accepted into university before she graduated high school and without taking a an university entrance test + "why did you choose musical theater to study in university?" "i want to perform in a musical in the future, so i chose that major to prepare first" and now she's in lizzie and getting a lot of praise even though it's her first musical (bonus).

entps are known as the visionaries of the mbti. they can get bored easily, sure, but they know exactly what needs to get done in order to get their desired outcome, and i think it's pretty obvious that yeonjung is like that too. i recommend reading this thread for more insane Ne-Ti yeonjungisms.

devil's advocate
one of the first things i learned about entps is that they LOVE to argue. they have a good amount of knowledge on a variety of topics, which makes it easier for them to prove their point. but if they don't they will bullshit their way into a convincing argument anyway. in the show i linked, it's said that yeonjung, dayoung and soobin (who i think is also a Ne dom! but an enfp instead) are the members who will argue until the end, and that makes perfect sense to me. you can see how excited yeonjung gets when she finds a way to make the other two "freeze" after she presents a new argument and she manages to keep it up until the end. my favorite part is: dayoung: "nowadays, people add meat to their cold noodles" yeonjung: "if you look at it the other way, people are adding cold noodles to their meat nowadays" like can you even argue with that logic... she's right! soobin and dayoung are constantly like "girl help we can't let her eat us up like this!!!!" it's really funny and impressive. (here's part two of the video)

→ scatterbrained
Ne doms suffer from serious can't shut up disease and forgetfulness (inf Si). it can get hard for other people to keep track of what they're saying because their brains come up with a million ideas and fly into different directions every three seconds. they, quite literally, just be saying anything. they can't help it. let's take a look at some of the examples of these two traits that i've gathered:
other entps in kpop:other Ne doms in kpop (enfps):
the day people stop seeing yeonjung as just "uwu sunshine maknae" and "wow vocals" is the day i'll know peace. as you can see from what i've gathered here she's insanely smart and also one of the funniest/snarkiest members of the group, which doesn't get mentioned a lot. i wish people paid more attention to those sides of her personality as well.

🐹🐻


comparing the intp (luda) to the entp (yeonjung)
  • i'd say yeonjung gets bored easier than luda (Ne > Ti + inferior Si). while introverted sensing isn't intp's biggest strength either, having it as a tertiary function rather than a inferior one still helps them to be more "orderly/focused" than entps. (here's an example)
  • luda is better at "masking what she's thinking/feeling" with a forced laugh or by simply keeping her thoughts to herself. yeonjung, on the other hand, has a harder time keeping her "harsher" opinions to herself, and when she does it still shows on her face. i remember reading somewhere that one of the core differences between an entp and an intp is that the entp won't hesitate to say it as it is to your face, while intps tend to be more cautious even though they're probably thinking the same thing as the entp.
  • they're both members you'd like to have on your team during variety show games. yeonjung is good at coming up with solutions for things on the spot, incredibly witty and good at convincing people to do what she wants or believe what she's saying (tertiary extroverted feeling over luda's inferior extroverted feeling). luda is good at guessing and seeing patterns that the others don't. (here's an example | luda: i got them all right. seola: i think the fact that luda got everything right is more scary.")
  • "i'm envious and want to be like unnie as your thoughts are ideal and realistic. unnie who's a jjoggomi physically but not mentally, you're cool, so cool~" ♥

well, i hope this was a good read and that i managed to convince at least one person of their types. i'm always open to other views, though! trying to type kpop idols can be very exhausting, but that might be just me because analyzing people's behaviors + trying to explain my thoughts in a way that is understandable to others is NOT my passion! anyway, if you made it this far, thanks for reading :)
pantomimes: (lottie)
2022-05-16 09:14 pm

냇완다 compilation

woman finds out about the korean side of the wandanat fandom and goes insane. this is just a small compilation of the best things i've found while lurking through "냇완다" on twitter so my bookmarks and likes won't get all messy.

pain only makes us stronger )
pantomimes: (lottie)
2022-05-06 01:08 am

multiverse of madness thoughts


alternatively titled local wanda stan loses her mind after watching multiverse of madness. this post contains major multiverse of madness (2022) spoilers, please proceed with caution. that being said, let's get into it!

every morning, the same nightmare
🕒 18:28
strange: runes.
wong: this isn't sorcery.
strange: it's
witchcraft.

  • the movie starts with america and strange running away from some sort of demon? which doesn't end well, because stephen decides to sacrifice america so he can use her powers for the "greater good". it turns out that it's all a dream, or at least that's what stephen believes for a while- until he's proven wrong during christine's wedding.
  • it was a solid start and it immediately had me excited for what was about to come. i was sooo happy to finally see miss america chavez in the mcu and let me say, she's adorable. i wanted to take care of her so bad, but then the wandavision theme started playing and suddenly nothing else mattered. ladies and gentlemen, it was time for #HER.

🕒 19:11
wanda: you know, a family is forever. we never could truly leave each other, even if we tried.

  • what we first see of wanda in this movie is her, billy and tommy living in the same house from wandavision. she's cooking with the boys and puts them to sleep after, saying the iconic "family is forever" phrase from the show. then, like strange, she wakes up and realizes it was all a dream.
  • this is where i started descending into complete madness because why must my girl go through so much pain all the time. i was so ready to start crying already but i held myself together and kept watching the movie. little did i know wanda's situation was about to become so much worse!!!!!!!!!!! yay fun.

🕒 21:52
wanda: you never told me her name, did you?
strange: no. no i didn't.

  • strange visits wanda and asks for her help with the multiverse situation. wanda then slips and ends up mentioning america's name, which gives away the fact that she's the one sending demons that have been chasing america down.
  • shit starts to get reeeeeal crazy after this part and to me it was the peak of the movie. wanda going absolutely nuts and destroying kamar taj ALL BY HERSELF? sign me up. she looked so hot while she was murdering all of those people. i want her to do it again. also, the "run" part? i got chills.

(the look of complete insanity on this woman's face... mommy? sorry)

  • strange attempts to imprison wanda in the mirror dimension, but it isn't enough to hold her. wanda quickly finds a way out of it and shows up in the room where america, strange and wong are in.
  • this was such a badass moment and i was so proud of my girl. wanda managing to escape the mirror dimension is just one of many moments where she "wins" over strange throughout the movie, showcasing how powerful she actually is. i can't wait to be able to see this in full hd when the movie is on disney plus.

(wanda my beloved stop looking at me like that. i'm getting shy)

  • the scene from the screenshot above is from when wanda takes over the body of her variant, which is the second most emotional (in my opinion, at least) moment from the entire movie. the kids ask her where she's going, she says she's going to take out the trash but they have something to show her. they sing her a song to convince her to let them have ice cream and wanda is tearing up while they do it, because that's the first time since the events of westview that she's seeing her children in front of her.
  • OOF... that hurted like a bitch. the look in her when she heard the word "mom" broke me into a million pieces. this woman literally just wants to be happy for once in her life :( it's so, so sad.

🕒 54:33
wanda
: i need the darkhold's spells. you're the sorcerer supreme, tell me what you know.
wong
: you'll have to kill me, witch.
wanda
: not you. them.

  • the rollercoaster of emotions i went through during these scenes. like yes wanda my poor meow meow is such a sad little person but she is also so HOT as a villain, what am i supposed to say? she's so mean when she's threatening wong and forcing him to take her to the mountain where she can find a copy of the darkhold and i'm obsessed with the energy... name a hotter milf. actually don't waste your time because wanda maximoff is the only milf to ever exist.

(shout-out to my best friend maria rambeau)

  • this is the high anticipated illuminati scene, but to be honest it was actually the worst part of the movie for me? like, yes, i liked to see maria rambeau, but everything else was so...? i don't know if the scene was actually boring or if i was expecting more people who were rumored (loki? sylvie?) to appear and ended up being disappointed. plus the movie theater i went to was full of boring old people and no one screamed... like what. this is a marvel movie and you're BRAZILIAN, you have to scream. it's the rule. anyways.
  • i did, of course, LOVE seeing wanda killing them all. i know how this sounds and call me insane but how is she so... !@#$%#$ what haven't i said about this woman at this point? she is GOD to me and she can do ANYTHING SHE DESIRES because she's HOT AND PERFECT!

🕒 1:06:14
wanda
: look around you. it’s carved in stone, i was meant to rule everything. but that’s not what i want. i just want my boys.
wong
: at the cost of a child’s life? aren’t you in peace knowing even though you can’t be with the ones you love there are worlds where you are together? is that not enough?
wanda:
no.

  • now wong sir... i kinda like you and everything but what kind of question was that LMAO. i said NO so fast, isn't that obvious to you and everyone else already? she does not give a fuck if she's with them in another universe- she wants, and honestly, deserves, to be happy in her universe too.
  • and after this it just gets... really depressing.

(my precious girl...)

  • this scene destroyed me. like, this was literally the worst thing that could happen to wanda now and of course it fucking did. and by "this" i mean the boys being terrified of her, throwing things and her and telling her to not hurt them- or their mom, which is the wanda from another universe. this has to be one of the saddest marvel scenes ever, and if you don't feel sorry for this woman at this point do you even have a heart?
  • the other wanda calms the boys down by telling them it's okay, gets up and comforts "our" wanda, assuring her that the boys will be very loved. it's heartbreaking to think that this is the first time she's been comforted by someone after everything she went through since westview, and the fact that the person who did it is herself... ouch. it can't get more painful than this.

(this summarizes how i feel about this movie better than this entire post)

doctor strange in the multiverse of madness (2022) ★★★★½
when did i watch: may 5th, 2022
overall: i liked the movie. i thought of giving it five starts, but i'll wait and see if any of my opinions will change after being able to rewatch the whole thing properly. most of my thoughts on this movie revolve around wanda, of course, but i'm excited to see how the events of this movie are going to affect future marvel projects too. do i think wanda is dead? no. do i have any idea of what's going to happen to her next or how she's going to make it out of that place alive? also no. but lizzie said she's aware of two new projects with wanda in the moment, so i'll hold on to that and hope for the best. if you made it this far, thank you so much for reading!

pantomimes: (miyeon)
2022-05-05 02:15 am
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january-april media round-up


shoving four months into one single media round-up because i can and because god knows i don't have the energy to do one of these for every month. i tried last year but i officially give up lmao. anyway, let's get into it!

she was an observer, that's who she was
shows and movies
+ eternals (2021) ★★★★½
+ encanto (2021) ★★★½
+ titans s1 (2018) ★★½
+ titans s2 (2019) ★★★½
+ euphoria s1 (2019) ★★★★
+ euphoria s2 (2022) ★★★½
+ moon knight (2022) ★★★½
+ daredevil s1 (2015) ★★★★
+ turning red (2022) ★★½
+ pitch perfect (2012) ★★★★★ ↻
+ pitch perfect 2 (2015) ★★★★ ↻
+ pitch perfect 3 (2017) ★★★
+ x-men (2000) ★★½
+ x2 (2003) ★★★
+ x-men: the last stand (2006) ½
+ x-men: first class (2011) ★★★
+ loki (2021) ★★★½
+ x-men: days of future past (2014) ★★★
+ x-men: apocalypse (2016) ★★
+ dark phoenix (2019) ★★★½
+ what if (2021) ★★★



(me after watching 1827348 x-men movies, finishing loki and what if in the span of four days)

can you smell CRAZY in this list? because if you don't, you should. pre-mom panic hit me hard this week so i finally sat down to watch what i had to watch before the movie after procrastinating for months. i'm gonna be honest, i thought i would enjoy the x-men movies way more than i did... the characters i was actually interested in did get much time to shine (cough storm cough) and it felt like all the movies were THE SAME THING ALL OVER AGAIN. but i have to be fair, i enjoyed the "first class era" way more than the first one, maybe because magneto wasn't as annoying as he was in the first mov- [gets dragged out of the stage] and because jean wasn't as blan- [gets dragged out of the stage again]. all in all i don't hate it but i'm not obsessed with it either, my relationship with these movies right now is just "things that make you go mmmmm" you know. still have to watch the most recent movie, so let's hope i like that one!

now moving on to loki. i started watching loki last year but i stopped after episode three (i don't remember why lol) so i just continued from there, and let me tell you... I'M SO IN LOVE WITH SYLVIE RN. people can say what they want about her i don't care, she's so hot and badass and charming and skdfhkfjg attractive. yes i always fall in love with insane women, leave me alone. i do not vibe with sylki tho because what the hell... sylvie be with me instead, i'll follow you into as many apocalypses as you want <3

moon knight officially ended today which means i'm cheating adding it here but i can do whatever i want. i had zero expectations for this show because as i mentioned multiple times before, i'm rarely ever interested in male characters or any sort of media that revolves around men, but let me tell you, i was pleasantly surprised. i absolutely ADORE steven grant and i grew to like marc too, not to mention: LAYLA EL-FAOULY. she's so pretty and interesting and i really hope we get more of her in the future, which i think we will considering the last episode. moon knight season 2 maybe? fingers crossed

while we're on the topic of male characters, let me share a few thoughts on daredevil. i was once again proven wrong because why am i so emotionally attached to this white man!!!! marvel stop this madness right now it's embarrassing. the last three episodes of season one are a rollercoaster, it literally had me hiding under the covers at some point because there were jumpscares all the time. i'd say more but i'll wait until i finish the whole show so i can make a whole post about it. for now i'll just say FUCK WILSON FISK'S GREASY BALD ASS.

i was planning on making a whole post on eternals because it made me feel so insane when i watched it, but now it's been months and i no longer have the energy- however, that doesn't mean i stopped loving this movie. actually, i think i love eternals more now than when i first watched it. where did people get the idea that this movie is bad. WHERE. eternals had me shaking crying throwing up kicking the wall etc etc it blew my mind. i love their dynamics, i love their story and i love how the movie goes back and forth between the time where they were together and the present. the only thing about this movie i don't like is ikaris. fuck that guy.

encanto and turning red were both very cute, but i have to admit i liked encanto way more. i'm a sucker for musicals and the songs are so good? i couldn't stop listening to we don't talk about bruno and the family madrigal after watching the movie. also, isabela madrigal <3 that's my girl right there!

my pitch perfect rewatch was such a good and fun moment. i suddenly missed the barden bellas and decided it was time for me to finally watch pp3 so i just went for it, resulting into bechloe madness and listening to the soundtrack non-stop ever since. after going through all the movies i watched the whole thing AGAIN a few days later after with my best friend aka amy aka the biggest hailee steinfeld in the universe. it was sooooooo funny to see her reactions to emily junk and to see her decend into bechloe madness with me. we need to do something like this again asap lmao

euphoria, am i right? the euphoria binge watching week was another crazy time i had this year... some distant family members came to my house to spend carnaval and i was so annoyed because i just wanted to watch euphoria in PEACE but yeah. i watched the first few episodes of euphoria back in 2019 and since everyone was talking about it when s2 dropped i decided to continue watching it and i loved it. when i first watched it i was really drawn to jules but miss lexi howard stole my heart as i kept watching it, why is she the cutest smartest prettiest girl in the world? i want to give her everything. her play was my favorite moment of the entire show and i was so happy that she got her own little moment ah... T_T that's my girl. i also really like maddy, don't you just love when the popular girl who's supposed to be the mean one is actually just the sweetest person in the whole galaxy and actually a great friend and good with kids? one thing that made me see red though was jules and rue's storyline in season two... WHAT REASON DID THEY HAVE TO FUCK UP THEIR RELATIONSHIP SO BAD? sam levinson i am under your bed. this is a threat. last but not least, fuck nate jacobs.

oh wait,
i have one thing to say about titans. here we go. MISS WONDER GIRL DONNA TROY. that's it. thank you for your attention. i'll have more to say after finishing season 3

reading
comics:
+
young avengers (2013)
+ ms. marvel (2014)


(i love a hero who is literally just a fic writer)

look i am deeply aware that i should've read a bunch of other comics before the 2013 young avengers but can you blame me. i wanted to see my best friend america chavez and i also wanted to experience AMERIKATE. guys i literally love the young avengers so much it's insane, they're just a extremely powerful and also gay group of friends who go through some #heavy_messy_shit, what more could you want?

now miss kamala khan... that's my best friend slash little sister slash favorite fic writer right there. she's sooooo fun and it's so funny how obsessed she is with the avengers (especially carol, miss danvers what are you waiting to adopt this girl? she's your #1 fan). the moments where she's lost in her intense avengers daydreaming are god-tier. i recommend it 100% and i can't wait to read more about her ^^

fics:
+ in this moment now (capture it, remember it) by qaisal | wjsn, seola/bona, 15.2k
now user
[personal profile] bboya why did you have to go so hard with this one. cat has some sort of secret talent that makes me obsessed with tropes i never thought i would be obsessed with and this one isn't different. i had so much fun reading the first chapter and i can't wait for the second one, i'm sure it will be just as iconic

+ you smile when you dive in (like you're never going back) by aserenitatum | mcu, sharon/maria, 1.2k
i found this fic by accident while searching for pitch perfect fics (yeah, i promise this makes sense) and i ended up falling so hard for this ship. maria and sharon having history, maria getting blipped and then the whole sharon being the power broker thing??? the OPTICS. not a lof ot people would understand. but my big brain did

+ longing by truthbetold | mcu, wanda/natasha, 4.3k 🔞
top!wanda mixed with angst. what am i supposed to do, say no?

+ feel it still by widownats | mcu, wanda/natasha, 3.5k 🔞
this is not the first time i read this fic and definitely not the last time i'm reading it again. this is perfect. this is peak wandanat. this fic is my only personality trait at this point, it is that serious

+ i'm a little unsteady (hold onto me) by gilligankane | pitch perfect, chloe/beca, 4.5k
help me i am so fond of chloe beca and emily it's a disease. this fic put a smile on my face, it's so adorable

+ you know my heart is feeling ready by iphone | pitch perfect, chloe/beca, 5.2k 🔞
i literally combusted reading this... goodbye

writing
+ love persevering | wjsn, seola/bona, exy/bona, 1.6k

um that's it. that's all i wrote this year so far. nothing too serious. lmao

k-pop


ANYONE ELSE A WJSN SUPREMACIST HERE???? i have so much to say about them hold on. let's start with yeonjung literally kissing a woman in her play.

that day was literally the craziest day of my ujung life i am not even kidding. yoo yeonjung out of ALL members kissing a WOMAN on her play? i repeat, KISSING A WOMAN? in a play? a woman? kissing? woman? yeonjung? kissing? play? touching her titties? it's like every moment of my life lead me to this one. as someone who's in love with yoo yeonjung since produce 101 i deserved this and i am enjoying my win, thank you very much.


(me when the. me when. me when the when the. yes. !@#$%#?? i am going to combust)

another amazing that happened is wjsn on queendom! i have yet to watch the full episodes but i've been keeping up with their performances and their moments in the show and i'm loving every second of it, except for when orbits decide to open their mout- [GUNSHOTS]

another big ujung win for me is that they finally performed pantomime???!@#$!@?? dreamwidth user pantomimes loses it over wjsn performing pantomime on queendom. i've been asking for this for so long it's not even funny... i'm so used to give and now i get to receive. i really wish dawon was there for this though... cries in ot10

i'm planning on making a guide to wjsn post here since there's a lot of new people joining the fandom now, but i'm still not sure i'm actually going to do it because i always lose motivation for these things after a while lmao. but i swear i'll try! i'll also make a post about their queendom journey after it ends, so look forward to that!

music
songs:
1. shine - doja cat (114)
2. malvadão 3 - xamã (93)
3. beg for you - charli xcx feat. rina sawayama (85)
4. pool mashup: just the way you are/just a dream - barden bellas (80)
5. in the party - flo milli (68)
6. it's on again - alicia keys (64)
7. dead to me - kali uchis (60)
8. rules - doja cat (52)
9. brazil - declan mckenna (50)
10. just a stranger - kali uchis (50)

artists:
1. taylor swift (317)
2. doja cat (316)
3. marina (316)
4. one direction (315)
5. chase atlantic (237)
6. the neighbourhood (237)
7. charli xcx (168)
8. lady gaga (166)
9. kali uchis (137)
10. allie x (118)

albums:
1. hot pink - doja cat (211)
2. isolation - kali uchis (123)
3. hard to imagine the neighbourhood ever changing - the neighbourhood (115)
4. chase atlantic - chase atlantic (100)
5. cry baby - melanie martinez (95)

when will i be free of malvadão 3... i am NOT going to let that song be one of my top songs of the year. this is all wandanat's fault. "why is it wandanat's fault?" well, you see, in the beginning of the year this song went viral on tiktok and a specific wandanat edit someone made with this song kicked me in the ribs, spit on my face and called me a whore. so i listened to this song like an insane person for a week and now i kind of regret it because, second place?!??!? too high.

looking on the bright side, i discovered a lot of great music this year and i've been listening to kali uchis a lot recently! her songs are incredibly good and i find her voice so so so unique, it pulls me in every time. also, anyone else a DOJA CAT stan here? i love her so much and hopefully i'll never get tired of her songs.

in conclusion, my spotify wrapped is about to be a unpredictable mess this year. god bless. thanks for reading this post! ^-^
pantomimes: (she-hulk)
2022-05-01 06:58 am
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ships i've been obsessed with (2011-2021)


i recently decided to watch all the pitch perfect movies again, which resulted in multiple bechloe breakdowns and also made me remember i have a full list of all the ships i've been obsessed with since i was a literal child on my notes (because yes, i'm also obsessed with making lists and rankings and writing random shit on my phone at 4am, i can't help it) so i decided to make a dreamwidth post about it, because 1. i love to ramble about women kissing women and 2. why the hell not?

list + commentary
brittany/santana ♡
show: glee
year i got into them:2011
canon: ✅
++ the blueprint. what can i say, this is literally the ship of a lifetime. these two literally raised me and were my first "real" ship, as in i didn't even know what shipping and fanfic etc etc was before i started googling about these two. and it was also through them that i had the realization that i was a lesbian at age TEN so thanks for that ig <3

quinn/rachel
show: glee
year i got into them: 2011
canon: ❌
++ *scratches head* yes it happened look away i was literally a CHILD. faberry aka baby's first queerbait <3

emily/alison
show: pretty little liars
year i got into them: 2011
canon: ✅
++ i can still use the i was a child argument for this one and I WILL! i know it's a terrible ship etc etc but that scene from season 2 when emily wakes up and alison is there and they kiss made me feel so insane back then i'm sorry

jade/tori ♡
show: victorious
year i got into them: 2011
canon: ❌
++ i absolutely adore these two and i still remember how fucking insane i felt when i learned people actually shipped them. i had a whole #jori_obsessed moment last year when i was rewatching victorious and i kind of already want to do it again

princess bubblegum/marceline
show: adventure time
year i got into them: 2011
canon: ✅
++ does anything smells more like CHILDHOOD and INNOCENCE and FIRST REPRESENTATION than bubbline? i don't think so. and i'll always love them for that

naomi/emily
show: skins
year i got into them: 2011/2012
canon: ✅
++ baby's first bury your gays. skins fire you are my worst enemy

luce/rachel
movie: imagine me and you
year i got into them: 2011/2012
canon: ✅
++ um you guys have no idea how many times i've rewatched this movie. it's one of my favorite movies of all times and i remember watching it EVERY SINGLE school break when i was younger while drinking toddynho <333 a massive comfort ship/movie

beca/chloe ♡
movie: pitch perfect
year i got into them: 2012
canon: ❌
++ here these fuckers are. i literally have so much to say about these two and about pitch perfect too that i'd had to make a whole post about it. they just make me so happy it's crazy? the happiness that hit me while watching the pitch perfect movies again + reading bechloe fics + consuming bechloe content after so long was something else. the just a dream/just the way you are mashup????? MASTERPIECE. 10/10 would recommend

laura/carmilla
show: carmilla
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ✅
++ why does it feel like the carmilla era never happened even though it was like... A BIG DEAL ON TUMBLR?? creampuffs were literally everywhere. where are they. why no one talks about this camp ass youtube show anymore. i miss them

marina/clara
novela: em família
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ✅
++ the absolute CHAOTIC vibes of being a closeted lesbian in brazil when this novela was airing. me constantly sneaking into the living room to watch it + obsessing hard over the actress who played them at the time... how was my family NOT suspicious

emma/regina ♡
show: once upon a time
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ❌
++ [bites fist] it was so serious guys. they had a son. THEY HAD A SON. sometimes i forget this ship isn't canon because that does not make sense at all?? and i'm actually thinking of watching ouat again so i'm already expecting some swanqueen insanity to hit me somewhere through this year

misty/cordelia
show: american horror story: coven
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ❌
++ i’m gonna be honest, i don’t remember much about ahs plus i was actually terrified of that damn show so. i’m putting them here because i do remember i liked them a lot

allison/lydia
show: teen wolf
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ❌
++ i literally started watching teen wolf because i thought the girls were so pretty and they were EVERYWHERE on tumblr/twitter so i decided to give it a try… and became obsessed with allydia. i even had a journal where i used to write about them *sigh* i miss my teen wolf era

malia/kira
show: teen wolf
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ❌
++ i’ll never forget that scene where they dance together. like come on they had so much chemistry plus the fics were soooo nice too. like i mentioned before i miss my teen wolf era a lot

karma/amy
show: faking it
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ✅
++ faking it was such a questionable show and they were such a questionable ship but i loved it. sue me. that stupid show was my everything when it first aired i swear to god

daisy/jemma ♡
show: agents of shield
year i got into them: 2014
canon: ❌
++ baby’s first marvel-related obsession. skimmons was so so so so so good my brain is melting just thinking about it and the FICS? god-tier i’m not even kidding. it used to scratch my brain just right. i need to watch agents of shield again asap because i know it’ll be even better now

lica/samantha
show: malhação
year i got into them: 2018
canon: ✅
++ not the four year gap between this and the previous one thanks to KPOP OBSESSION (derogatory) but anyways, me when i’m the best version of malhação <3 limantha were so fun and refreshing

syd/elena
show: one day at a time
year i got into them: 2018
canon: ✅
++ one minute of silence to remember the death of the BEST SHOW TO EVER EXIST. i’ll never get over the fact that odaat got canceled not once but twice? anyways. i miss syd and elena so much they were my everything SOBS

kate/emaline
show: everything sucks
year i got into them: 2018
canon: ✅
++ og sydney sweeney stans let me hear you make some NOISE. i was in love with this woman way before euphoria was a thing and this show is the reason why so i’m forever thankful <3 still pissed it got canceled tho

izzie/casey
show: atypical
year i got into them: 2018
canon: ✅
++ THE CULTURAL IMPACT OF CAZZIE… “oh but izzie is so toxic how can people even like her bla bla bla” do i look like i give a fuck? exactly. i’ll always stand up for my beloved baby she did absolutely nothing wrong!

hana/hana
show: a-teen
year i got into them: 2019
canon: ❌
++ the way korean lesbians ate this ship up. the fanarts? incredible. and i ate it up too 2hana forever idc

cheryl/toni
show: riverdale
year i got into them: 2019
canon: ✅
++ “are you not EMBARAZZED??????” yes i am but listen. every lesbian is allowed to go through a phase where they become obsessed with a ship from a terrible cw show for character development. i no longer know or am interested in what's happening in that show or to them but i promise you those 100k fics on ao3 i used to read about these two like an insane person in 2019 were GOOD

yuna/nari
show: girls’ world
year i got into them: 2020
canon: ❌
++ any YUNARI shippers here????!??? [me and my two mutuals who also watched this webdrama raise our hands] this was such a fun little ship i was so sad when girls’ world ended :/

kieu my/fatou ♡
show: druck
year i got into them: 2021
canon: ✅
++ godddd kieutou. i love these two so much it makes me want to cry. don’t you just love a sapphic ship that doesn’t involve WHITE PEOPLE?????? because i do. i love their dynamic and their height difference and their kisses and EVERYTHING <3 they’re such a blessing

sol/jiwan ♡
show: nevertheless
year i got into them: 2021
canon: ✅
++ screaming crying throwing up etc etc what can i even say about soljiwan that i haven’t said a million times already. they live in my head rent free to this day. one thing about me is that i’m SOLJIWANIST before i’m human

neil/todd
movie: dead poets society
year i got into them: 2021
canon: ❌
++ anderperry is the only non-sapphic ship in this list which says a lot about me LMAO. anderperry is a curious case because there’s nothing in this life i hate more than white boys but they get a pass. my beloved artistic gay sons who i’ll protect forever

luna/monet
show: gossip girl reboot
year i got into them: 2021
canon: ❌
++ ummm this was like a quick obsession considering i didn’t even watch the second half of the first season yet so… but the fics i’ve read were so good istg

luz/amity
show: the owl house
year i got into them: 2021
canon: ✅
++ [holds lumity in my arms while crying] they are my daughters and i will protect them

emily/sue
show: dickinson
year i got into them: 2021
canon: ✅
++ emisue is so delicious are we kidding. i still have to finish dickinson but it’s not like i haven’t watched 90% of their scenes already anyway soooooo. what’s there not to love about a ship that involves an unhinged writer? exactly

wanda/natasha ♡
movie: mcu
year i got into them: 2021
canon: ❌
++ i’m literally holding myself together to not make a literal WANDANAT PRIMER right now but… everyone already knows that i’ve been obsessed with these motherfuckers for what? seven months now? and it’s still so strong + i still read fics about them every single day + daydream about wandanat headcanons all the damn time??? and it’s not like i want it to end any time soon because why is this literally the ship of my dreams. the one i’ve been waiting for all these years. a ship that is so not canon and completely built on nothing but insanity + headcanons can be so important and fulfilling actually. i have thousands of other wlw mcu ships that i adore but nothing will ever come close to wandanat so i won’t even put them in the list LMAO

so, that’s all i have to say! thanks for reading this mess <3
pantomimes: (miyeon)
2022-01-06 01:35 am
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2021 round-up


2021 was the weirdest and the worst year of my life. however, it was also the year where i consumed most media since probably 2014 and the whole tumblr fandom era, so i couldn't skip the opportunity to talk about some of the favorite things i watched, wrote, read and listened to this year. let's get into it!

writing
STATS
# of fics: 5 + 1 drabble ▲
2020: 5
total word count: 30,870 ▼
2020: 66776
fandoms: 4 (itzy, wjsn, blackpink, nevertheless) ▲
2020: 2 (itzy, dreamcatcher)

LIST OF FICS
+ as you wish | itzy, chaeryeong/yuna, 10.1k
+ the secrets that you know | itzy, lia/ryujin, 8.3k
+ untouched (and i need you so much) | wjsn, seola/exy, 4.4k
+ as long as i'm here | wjsn, seola/exy, 3.4k
+ i hear my heart breaking tonight (do you hear it too?) | nevertheless, jiwan/sol, 3.7k
+ summertime is meant to fall in love | itzy, blackpink, rosé/lia, 702w (locked, for priv/dw moots only)

SONGS USED FOR TITLES
+ as you wish by wjsn
+ white roses by charli xcx
+ untouched by the veronicas
+ everything i wanted by billie eilish
+ pink in the night by mitski
+ summertime in paris by jaden, willow

overall reflection:
i wrote WAY LESS than i thought i would this year lol, but i'll try to focus on the fact that i wrote for more fandoms this year, one of them not being kpop, which is something i really wanted to do! writing about fictional characters is easier/more fun for me because, well, they're fictional lmao so the fandoms are less strict about what you can or can't write about them. before writing for kpop i used to write about a bunch of tv shows so it felt really nice to go back even if it was just one fic. i also wrote two 2jung fics this year which is a relief because i tried finishing 2jung fics last year but ended up dropping all of them. everyone that knows me knows i love them to death and no other kpop ship will ever compare to these two in my heart so.. let's just say i would be very frustrated if i hadn't written anything for them this year. i also wrote a crossover fic for the first time in forever this year! it was only a small drabble i wrote late at night for my twitter moots (shout-out to amy, cat, andy, min and gaz) but it was a very fun experience.

best/favorite story of the year:
as you wish and untouched were, without a doubt, the best fics i wrote this year. making a witch/writer fic was part of my 2021 goals and i'm so glad i managed to write one with my itzy babies. plus, it's my first yuchae fic too! i love these two a lot and i hope i can write more about them in the future. untouched took a long time to write even though it's just 4k because i wanted to make 2jung aka my favorite kpop ship ever justice, and from all the lovely comments i got in this fic i'm sure i made a good job with this one.

most popular story of the year:
i hear my heart breaking tonight! i just realized this fic has 482 kudos what the HELL... soljiwan nation is insane in the best way possible. i like this fic a lot and i LOVED writing jiwan pov because she's such an endearing character to me + i love sculpture department f4 so.. i'm really really really glad this is my most popular fic of the year :)

2022 writing goals:
after 2021 i know better than to set a bunch of unrealistic goals because i always end up getting obsessed with something unexpected so i'll try to be quick here. i reaaaaaaaaally really really want to write mcu wlw fic because it's my current obsession, most specifically WANDANAT fic because they are my favorite ship and also the loves of my fucking life. now for kpop i'm not really sure... i'll keep writing for itzy and wjsn i guess? a fic with jisu as the main character instead of the love interest? maybe some blackpink? i think that's all ;_;
reading
AO3 STATS
top bookmarked fandoms:
1. marvel cinematic universe (49)
2. wjsn (14)
3. itzy (12)
top bookmarked ships:
1. wanda maximoff/natasha romanoff (45)
2. seo jiwan/yoon sol (8)
3. tori vega/jade west (6)
# of bookmarks overall: 139

overall reflection:
can you tell the mcu took over my life out of nowhere LMAO... this is what i meant when i said i never know what to expect when it comes to what i'm going to become obsessed with next. i never EVER thought i would become a mcu fan but look at my silly ass now:


anyway... i read a lot of fic this year (139 bookmarks wtf????) and i feel like my reading preferences changed a little bit, mainly after i got into the mcu (i love reading some sadder/heavier stuff now LOL and lots of blood/injury/chaos overall) but i still love some good old fluff with #idiots_in_love. i can't wait to see how my 2021 reads are going to affect my 2022 writing!

FAVORITE FICS
+ give us a chance (please) by qaisal | itzy, yeji/ryujin, 23.9k
user qaisal aka user ryusace aka user [personal profile] bboya aka person who's literally obsessed with me went ALL OUT with this fic and the result was fantastic. this was such a moment in midzy fandom i'm actually sorry for you if you missed it. this fic is so good [bites fist] the way cat wrote the soulmate trope with her own twist to it? incredible. amazing. never the same. etc. if you haven't read this please do yourself a favor and READ IT.

+ into somethings by sonria | stayc, sieun/sumin, 4.7k
i literally will never shut up about how much i adore this fic. i'm obsessed with the way it was written, the vibes, their dynamic, EVERYTHING!! i 100% recommend this fic even if you aren't into stayc/don't know them very well because it's just that good.

+ the way i loved you by jendeukie | blackpink, jisoo/rosé, 14.6k
this fic singlehandedly carried me through my chaesoo obsession moment of the year and i'm so thankful for its existence because there aren't many chaesoo fics ;_; and this one is SO good and so entertaining too!

+ did you write the book of love and do you have faith in god above? by endofdaysforme | marvel cinematic universe, yelena & natasha, wanda/natasha, 50.3k
dear god this is FOTY (fic of the year) to me. i am nothing if not endofdaysforme fan, yelenat fan and wandanat fan. i read this in two nights and i was so sad when i finished reading it because it was SO good i didn't want it to end. i love everything about this: yelenat healing, yelena meeting the avengers (and being friends with pietro!!! and lena being all excited to meet thor!! GOD I LOVE THEM SM) and wandanat's dynamic was so sweet here too. i'll definitely read this again. i can't recommend this fic enough.

+ drabarni and the firebird by lightsaroundyourvanity | marvel cinematic universe, wanda/natasha, 6.1k
baby's first wandanat/mcu fic ;_; this will always have an special place in my heart. when i read this i was fresh out of wandavision and didn't really know anyone other than wanda and natasha so i was kinda lost with the other names in this fic LOL but it was still such a good read. this made me realize "damn this is the ship i want and i will go with them until the end" and now i'm unhinged wandanatist that cries over them every single day <3

+ feel it still by widownats | marvel cinematic universe, wanda/natasha, 3.5k
NATASHA ROMANOFF IN THE WHITE SUIT [screams] [cries] [punches wall] [breaks table] this fic is so tender and so hot at the same time it drives me insane. i've read this one a thousand times and i never get tired because i love their dynamic here + i'm weak for infinity war wanda and that's exactly how i imagine her here so... [screams again]

+ a little room to sway by dollylux | marvel cinematic universe, wanda/natasha, 20.7k
ah yes, a wandanat classic. i love post-aou pre-cw fics and this one is so sweet. my favorite part is when nat braids wanda's hair because that's sooooooo skdjfkdjfkg ;_; braiding each other's hair is such a wandanat thing and i love it whenever i see it in fics. i'll never get tired of this headcanon.

+ it's nice to have a friend by becks41319 | marvel cinematic universe, wanda/natasha, 4.5k
wandanat fics with yelena in them... UGHHHHHHHH [yells] i love these three more than anything in my life. and i love when yelena gives natasha a hard time about her obvious crush on wanda because i love some good old #annoying_little_sis #tired_older_sis dynamics and this fic is full of it.

+ professionalism is... hard by novoaa1 | marvel cinematic universe, wanda/natasha, 15.2k
novoaa1 is like the god of wandanat ao3 tag and i've read a bunch of their fics but i chose this one for this list because i had a lot of fun reading it! one wandanat fic "cliche" that i can't get enough of is natasha trying to help wanda with her nightmares and wanda accidentally smacking natasha into christmas eve while still sleeping <3 and natasha not being mad at her <3 and i often think about how natasha got blasted out the fucking avengers tower in this one... my poor baby. anyway, i love this one a lot.

+ go, with love by onethought | wjsn, seola/exy, 6.2k
this is a masterpiece. i think about this fic all the time because it's perfectly written + the plot is amazing + it's 2jung so... yeah... a 10/10 right here.

+ ganymede by astrals | wjsn, xuanyi/exy, 22k
this fic was a whole moment in the little gc i have with andy and cat because we couldn't shut up about it and talk about himbo sojung dying 192834847 times. i love callisto (the seolbo version of the story) so i was really excited to read ganymede too and god was it a mind-blowing read.

+ curtain call by yejism (fuwafuwado) | aespa, karina/winter, 11.9k
WINRINA CLASSIC!!!! if you like winrina and you haven't read this fic yet what are you doing. really. open this fic right now and read it. stop missing out.

+ international love song (my playlist for you) by gloomyeji | gidle, miyeon/minnie, 21.4k
this was one of the first fics (if not the first) i've read in 2021 and i still haven't forgot about it because it's so damn good. i love the pacing and i love all the characters and i love MIMIN <3
music
STATS
top songs:
1. helena beat - foster the people (167)
2. need to know - doja cat (161)
3. everything i wanted - billie eilish (143)
4. just a stranger - kali uchis (131)
5. him - lily allen (118)
6. walking on air - kerli (105)
7. wandavision! - wandavision soundtrack (97)
8. gloomy girl - softcult (91)
9. heat waves - glass animals (82)
10. hey you got drugs? - tove lo (81)
11. you broke me first - tate mcrae (80)
12. line without a hook - rick montgomery (75)
13. sweet ophelia - zella day (72)
14. mad sounds - arctic monkeys (70)
15. burning pile - mother mother (68)
16. robbers - the 1975 (66)
17. party tattoos - dodie (65)
18. break it off - pinkpantheress (65)
19. agatha all along - wandavision soundtrack (62)
20. gold rush - taylor swift (60)

top albums:
1. am - arctic monkeys (348)
2. the fame monster - lady gaga (347)
3. it's not me, it's you - lily allen (287)
4. cry baby - melanie martinez (273)
5. folklore - taylor swift (269)
6. born this way - lady gaga (234)
7. the family jewels - marina (231)
8. punisher - phoebe bridgers (228)
9. reputation - taylor swift (212)
10. electra heart - marina (202)

overall reflection:


i decided to make a non-kpop version of my top songs because i looped a bunch of kpop songs in the first half of the year and it kind of fucked up my list LOL so i wanted to see what i listened to without looping it like an insane person, and this list is actually pretty accurate to what i enjoyed listening to this year!

if you're familiar with tv show/movie fandom spaces you're going to recognize some of the songs in here as being overused in edits and such, but i honestly don't mind because they are soooo good and fit my tastes just fine. i'm actually thankful for these edits (and tiktok trends because yes i live like this) for kind of carrying my 2021 music catalog on their backs LMAO.

one song of this list that i REALLY want to recommend is gloomy girl by softcult. this song has like, 300k plays on spotify and i think it's too little because it's so good. if you like sad music that make you feel like you're climbing the golden stairs to heaven please give it a chance, you won't regret it.

it's not on my top songs/albums but i enjoyed a lot of songs by olivia rodrigo this year too, it was impossible to escape them and no matter what people say they are GOOD. i don't care. she did what she had to do. another artist that was impossible to escape was doja cat and god was planet her filled with perfect ass songs that carried me on their backs. the neighborhood didn't appear in my list too but i started listening to them a lot during the last months of 2021 for #reasons (i am gay) (fandom culture) (edits) (i am gay) (lesbian) (gay) (homossexual) (so many songs remind me of wanda and natasha) (girl kisser) and even though i know most of their songs for years i can't seem to get enough of them. aaaaaand of course i want to talk about taylor and phoebe releasing a song together because WHAT THE HELL. nothing new broke me in two why is that song so PERFECT and so incredibly SAD. they are going to pay for my therapy i don't care. i'm sending them my bills.


movies + shows
STATS
# of shows: 12
# of movies: 30

favorites of the year:
#10 little women (2019) ★★★★½
#9 the perks of being a wallflower ★★★★½
#8 captain marvel (2019) ★★★★½
#7 shang-chi and the legend of the ten rings (2021) ★★★★½
#6 spider-man: no way home (2021) ★★★★½
#5 captain america: the winter soldier (2014) ★★★★½
#4 black panther (2018) ★★★★★
#3 dead poets society (1989) ★★★★★ 🥉
#2 black widow (2021) ★★★★★ 🥈
#1 wandavision (2021) ★★★★★ 🥇

favorite characters of the year:
#10 amy march little women
#9 emily dickinson dickinson
#8 harley quinn harley quinn
#7 neil perry dead poets society
#6 peter parker mcu
#5 fatou jallow druck
#4 seo jiwan nevertheless
#3 yelena belova mcu 🥉
#2 natasha romanoff mcu 🥈
#1 wanda maximoff mcu 🥇

overall reflection:
look, first of all: WANDAVISION YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS. second, NATASHA ROMANOFF YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS. that's all i have to say. goodbye.

i'm kidding. well, as you can see, 2021 was the year where i got into the mcu so most of the movies on the list are marvel movies. but none of them hit me as hard as wandavision, which is the best thing i watched this year and one of the best things i've watched in my whole entire life. to me wandavision is art, poetry, pain, sadness and romance all squished together into one big masterpiece of a tv show. "what is grief if not love persevering?" WHAT??????????!???!?? I'M SORRY WHAT???!?? not to mention wanda is such an endearing, lovely and powerful woman and it's been a long time since i was this in love with a fictional character and it feels very refreshing to have found The One again. wandavision hits all the right spots for me and as of now i've watched the whole thing around eleven times because i can't get enough of it. whenever i watch it again i find something new to love about this show.


it was thanks to wandavision that i decided to get into the mcu and god am i thankful i did because it's so fun and also painful, very very painful, when will i stop crying over natasha romanoff aka my baby my angel my everything who deserved better the BEST and PRETTIEST and NICEST and CUTEST and GAYEST and SMARTEST avenger ever and entertaining, the content simply never ends and there's always something new to look forward to. like, the experience of watching no way home on a movie theater was completely INSANE because everyone was losing their damn minds together (also i'm a brazilian and brazilians are fucking insane so you can imagine just how hyped everyone in the cinema was LOL) and to see my beloved wanda maximoff as the scarlet witch in the post-credit scene too... let's just say i screamed my lungs out. i don't know how i came out of that mall alive. i don't care what happens in multiverse of madness, she can kill everyone and their mothers and i'll still be on her side!


soljiwan was also an iconic moment of my year! i'm so grateful for the twitter people who didn't shut up about them since nevertheless aired because they are my BABIES. i love their dynamic, i love seo jiwan my pretty little angel and i love sculpture department f4. god do i miss seeing everyone losing their minds over these two every weekend lmao. soljiwan was lesbians' biggest win of 2021.

i was also obsessed with dead poets society (anderperry my beloveds, they were boyfriends and you can't tell me otherwise) and thanks to this movie i started watching a bunch of other sad-ish coming-of-age movies and i'm enjoying this genre a lot. maybe i do need therapy but will i stop watching them? no. no i won't <3


also, the way there are not one but two florence pugh characters on this list. me when i'm a white woman's whore.
kpop
FAVORITES
top groups:
1. wjsn
2. blackpink
3. itzy
4. dreamcatcher
5. aespa
top biases
:
1. exy
2. lia
3. yeonjung
4. seola
5. jisoo + rosé

overall thoughts:
hmmmm where do i even begin with kpop this year lol. yes, there were a few good releases (like wjtb, unnatural, itzy's albums, bp's solos, txt's releases which were surprisingly really good?? etc) but overall this is my least favorite year as a kpop stan so far. a bunch of groups that i loved disbanded, 3rd gen aka my favorite generation is at the verge of disappearing, just a lot of upsetting stuff in general... my only hope for 2022 is a blackpink ot4 comeback at this point LMAO. i'll keep stanning the groups i mentioned but i'm not sure if i'll ever get into anything new again :/

that was it! i hope you guys enjoyed my silly little thoughts and that this was an entertaining post! see you all next time~
pantomimes: (miyeon)
2021-08-02 11:10 pm
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july media round-up

how crazy is it that i'm doing a media round-up for the second time. how crazy is it that i actually consumed content. how crazy is that i actually have things to say. also why did this month feel like three months when the rest of 2021 combined felt like one month... anyways. let's get into it!

📺 shows
atypical season 4 (2021)


like every other season of atypical i went to netflix and watched the whole thing in one sitting and girl was this season a ride wtf 😃 literally so much happened. this season was darker if compared to the other ones, which is understandable because well the world is ENDING and of course that would have an impact on the writers, but i did not see all of that coming ummm. anyways CAZZIE <3 i knew in my heart they were going to be endgame because there was no fucking way they were going to DARE not giving me that but i’m still so glad it actually happened. also rest in peace “izzie no last name” jokes and hello to “izzie taylor love of my life” like yes atypical is over now but i will never stop being part of the SHOOTERS FOR IZZIE movement it is that serious. also #fuck_izzie’s_mother’s_lives and #fuck_doug_lives etc i don’t wanna know about them!!! you mess with izzie taylor you mess with me <3 also, cazzie spin-off when...

victorious season 2 (2011)


yes, the victorious re-watching continues. let me just start this part by saying i did not notice beck was gone until he came back like... when you don't care about MEN at all. victorious is just tori, jade, cat, andré, trina and sometimes beck is there i guess and robbie and the puppet are just annoying so i just ignore their existence most of the time <3 no but tbh this season was so weak if compared to season 1 which is :/ not just the plot but the jori moments from season 1 are just soooooo much better. yes the jori insanity continues too... everyone is allowed to have one (1) ship from a kids/teens channel that you unironically love okay. let me BE

druck season 6 (2020-2021)


[lady gaga’s voice] talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, completely not ever been done before etc… i won’t talk much about them here because i already made an entire post screaming about why i love kieutou so much. but please please please do yourself a favor and watch druck season 6.

other than that i started watching nevertheless for soljiwan and oh my god why are they PERFECT. the main pairing sucks and i find myself skipping 90% of their scenes but i don't mind because i'll do anything for SOLJIWAN. expect a soljiwan screaming post once nevertheless is over <3
💿 music
tracks
1. you broke me first - tate mcrae (67)
2. la luz (fin) - kali uchis (45)
3. fever - dua lipa (38)
4. gam3 boi - seventeen (38)
5. everything i wanted - billie eilish (37)
6. love fool - stayc (34)
7. mind if i stay - kadebostany (33)
8. harden the paint - foster the people (29)
9. robbers - the 1975 (29)
10. where is love - (g)i-dle (26)

artists
1. wjsn (525)
2. blackpink (105)
3. dreamcatcher (81)
4. marina (70)
5. tate mcrae (67)

albums
1. you broke me first - tate mcrae (67)
2. happy moment - wjsn (63)
3. neverland - wjsn (59)
4. unnatural - wjsn (58)
5. wj stay? (52)

the impact druck’s soundtrack had on me… 4/10 of the songs in the list are from druck’s soundtrack and those aren’t the only ones i fell in love with because of the show. another songs i’ve discovered thanks to druck were like you do by joji and summertime in paris by jaden which i’m still obsessed with and listen to them daily. actually i already knew fever by dua but i didn’t really care about this song that much… kieutou changed everything <3

as usual wjsn can’t let me live, but what can i do if their discography is perfect and never gets old? also BLACKPINK!! i’ve read a lot of blackpink fics this month and it made me want to listen to their songs all the time. love fool and where is love came out months ago and i'm still not over these songs... not only i love the production from both songs but the lyrics make me go insane too ;_; i find myself listening to them a lot when i'm reading or writing.

other songs i listened to a lot this month were safe from heartbreak (if you never fall in love) by wolf alice and your heart is a muscle by carly rae jepsen! i absolutely adore the lyrics from both of these songs and i think they'll become part of a lot of my fic playlists in the future.

dreamcatcher’s comeback was literally perfect i am losing my mind the title track the mv the bsides everything… expect a bunch of dreamcatcher scrobbles in august!
💖 kpop content

i didn't watch any actual variety shows this month because 1. i was busy watching atypical/victorious/druck/nevertheless + 2. olympics started and my only personality trait during the olympics is being BRAZILIAN. but i still wanted to register a few kpop-related things that were on my mind through the month here!

WJSN

[UZZU TAPE] EP.139 Story of How They Won Immortal Songs
>> GIRL WHAT. the amount of dajung content this moment was absolutely insane. it still feels like a dream. from all the pictures to the performance to the uzzu tape... i will never complain about lack of dajung content again except i will most definitely be complaining next week. yes i live like this

[우주소녀 설아 엑시] 우리 몰래 추소정이 캐롤을 녹음했다
>> why. just why is this the single funniest thing i've seen in my whole entire life. when will wjsn stop making me gasp for air by being absolute idiots. also hyunjung saying sojung-ah instead of exy-ah- [GUNSHOTS]

bonasoo gfs
>> 95 liners who are in love with each other is something that can be so personal

BLACKPINK

rosé being in love with jisoo + jisoo being the best girlfriend
>> these two videos are so cute oh my god ;_; this channel was the push i needed to become even more obsessed with chaesoo i think... they're just so adorable and like each other so much it hurts

바다와 하늘, 적당한 바람으로 스며드는💕 로제(ROSÉ)의 〈The Only Exception〉
>> PARK CHAEYOUNG ROSEANNE PARK WHY ARE YOU THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. i loved all her videos from sea of hope but of course this one was my favorite ;_;

ITZY

ITZY LIA "Issues (Julia Michaels)" COVER
>> my most beloved angel... i'm so glad this cover finally came out ;_;

[ITZY VLOG] CHAERYEONG @ITZY
>> not only was this vlog super cute but chaeryeong casually talking about how she's good at skating?? HELLO???? the audience (me) needs to see it please

[ITZY VLOG] YEJI
>> hwang yeji is the cutest person in the world actually. the way she was genuinely suffering after leaving her dolls in the doll hospital thing... i want to marry her

(G)I-DLE

miyeon being in love with shuhua for 5 minutes straight
>> the rumors are true, i will never get over mishu <33 (plus this channel has really good cut of their vlives that i must watch later!)

miyeon and minnie being wives
>> mimin are so. they are soooooooo. you know? you feel me?

jeans squad
>> i always forget these three have a group chat and every time i am randomly reminded of it i lose my mind again. please for the love of god i will sell my soul for a eunseo/sinb/soojin picture

EVERGLOW

please please | everglow online concert
anyone else emotionally affected by this live performance? the emotion they put in this song ESPECIALLY MIA i was shaking... han eunji who hurt you? tell me and i'll go after them



there's probably more stuff that i can't remember right now because my brain is fried but oh well. all in all i literally couldn't shut about park chaeyoung and cho miyeon on priv this month. i am sorry. except i am not and will keep on doing it because i have no self control <3
📖 reading
into somethings by sonria | sumin/sieun, 4.7k
Things with Sieun keep changing. It doesn’t help that Sumin’s first instinct when she walks into a room is to search for Sieun's eyes.
  • i don't think you guys understand how obsessed i am with this fic actually... it's SO GOOD help me. the first stayc fic i've ever read and it's from my favorite ship + the writing is perfect + the story is perfect ;_; please for the love of god read this <3

lingering fever by lostway7 | bona/eunseo, 3.7k
Detective Son realized the dangers of a simple exchange of places with the same clarity she figured her partner's playful betrayal, and she would pretty much strangle Seola once she got the chance, but first she had something else to take care of.
  • this was so good??? i loved the writer's take on easy's universe, the teasing + the bickering + the feelings in between... absolutely delicious

feverish waves by lostway7 | seola/exy, 3.8k
Detective Kim liking to play with fire was no news, she knew damn well the hell Eunseo would make out of her life after another one of her tricks, but the reason for her appreciation for the flames had a name and feeling guilty about it was useless.
  • *bites fist* when i tell you i was screaming inside while reading this fic i meant it. "Because Hyunjung could pretend but she wasn’t dumb. Sojung had love written in her fingertips when caressing her skin and she, for one, didn’t have a heart to call hers anymore." changed me as a person i swear

ganymede by astrals | xuanyi/exy, 22.1k
Sometimes being in love with Xuan Yi makes Sojung forget they're not in a real relationship.
  • this has to be the craziest fake dating fic i've seen in my whole entire life. also one of the most perfect things i've ever read. i will never be the person i was before i read this fic. it is that serious. i am astrals fan

all along there was some invisible string (tying you to me) by rokkuhato | jisoo/jennie, 7.6k
Jennie was left watching the older girl strut away when the thought struck her. Like a bolt of lightning zapping right through her. She wanted to kiss Jisoo. Her bestfriend. On the lips. Like full on lip-lock and definitely not in a platonic way kiss. She’s fucked. She’s so, so fucked.
  • thank you jensoo writers for my life. this fic was so cute and so fun too... i found myself laughing a lot while reading it because jennie's crush on jisoo was so relatable, kim jisoo IS a dream girl after all <3

sunday morning by beneaththemask125 | miyeon/minnie, 2k
Minnie wears a crop top.
  • any MIMINISTS here??? i'm sad that i can't link the fanart that inspired this fic here because it's gone now ;_; but still, i really liked this fic! we love some tension in this house

breathe you in (till i hallucinate) by ohjenniekim | jennie/rosé, 3.8k
Kim Jennie knows two things about Park Chaeyoung. Park Chaeyoung is the school’s troublemaker. From showing up late to most of her classes, to getting caught smoking under the bleachers—usually when the name Park Chaeyoung is mentioned, it’s not anything good. That’s why the second thing Jennie knows about Park Chaeyoung is that she has to stay far, far away from her.
  • omg channie enjoyers... this was cuter than i expected it would be and i liked it a lot!

8577 by ohjenniekim | jennie/rosé, 5.2k
Roseanne is willing to sit on a damn plane for fourteen hours for Jennie because Jennie loves Valentine's Day and Roseanne loves Jennie.
  • i never knew i needed long distance gfs chaennie until i read this fic... the end was so cute oh my god ;_; i need to read op's other fics asap because i really like their style!!

blossom by effymaybe | jisoo/rosé, 2.7k
Rosé receives bouquets of flowers throughout the years. One day, she receives her favorite one.
  • chaesoo + flowers is a concept that can never go wrong and that i'll never get tired of. very sweet and romantic

a night to remember by minjiyeon | bona/luda, 4.4k
A story inspired by Luda's own drinking habit: drunken confessions sealed with kisses.
  • wjsn the group with the most batshit insane stories that are extremely fic-worthy. i'm so glad someone wrote about this incident, it was so good!

nothing is quite like you
by underthesunshine | yeji/lia, 3.5k
It’s crazy, Yeji thinks, how she has seen Jisu in the most beautiful dresses and yet, every time she lays her eyes on Jisu, she still finds her more beautiful than the day before.
  • "through the years" type of fics are always so cute and this one was no different. thank you op for feeding my yejisu-starved self

hearticulations (at long last, love has arrived) by hellogoodbyeanon | lia/ryujin, 5.8k
Ryujin doesn't believe in the idea of first loves. And she has every reason not to. But Jisu becomes that reason to.
  • oomf wrote this fic for jisu day and oh my god did i feel emotional reading this... what can i say, i'm a fool for first love fics ;_;

walk our paradise by breadfruits | yves/kim lip, 1.6k
Sooyoung and Jungeun’s almost-kisses.
  • i am in love with this fic actually... it fits lipves so well and it was so cute!!

watch you spin around in your highest heels (you are the best one of the best ones) by sindubu | yves/kim lip, 12.1k
Sooyoung joins Blockberry Creative and in the time it takes for her to learn everyone’s names, she’s debuting.
  • GIRL OH MY GOD i'm still recovering from this. lipves fic with leader line dynamics???!!??!? this is everything i needed in my life. i can't recommend this enough. lipves nation may we rise and never fall
✍️ writing
forget everything positive i said during last month's media round-up because i'm back at feeling insane because of fic writing. i had about 1923874 writing crisis this month and moved my old itzy fics to an archive account because i couldn't stand seeing that ITZY (Band) (10) on my profile knowing damn well i didn't like most of them anymore... but anyways. i will get better and stop feeling like a broken writer/failure soon <3 hopefully <3

what i wrote this month:
  • as long as i'm here | seola/exy, 3.4k — sometimes i forget i wrote this, not because i don't like it (actually i do like this one a lot) but because i wrote it SO FAST and didn't SUFFER while doing it like it usually happens lmao. the idea came to me, i wrote everything in one day and published it. i can't remember the last time something like this happened to me but i'm really glad i wrote this (and the comments were so sweet too omg ;_;). let's go 2jung nation!
  • untitled wip | jisoo/rosé, 800w — chaesoo brainrot is real etc... i think my problem with this wip is that the beginning is sounding a bit weird to me and i can't figure out how to fix it and that's why i haven't continued it yet ;_; please root for me, it would make me so happy to put out a chaesoo fic this year :(

and that's all for this month! thank you so much fof reading~
pantomimes: (lottie)
2021-07-18 09:10 pm

druck s6 thoughts


 
space girl, show me the stars
⚠️ DRUCK S6 SPOILERS AHEAD


first of all… the fact that kieutou are NOT WHITE. can i get an amen. can i please get an amen. i literally can’t remember the last time i saw a wlw ship where there wasn’t a white person involved (is there any, really…? i honestly can’t remember) so i knew i was going to enjoy this show from that alone, but i did not expecting EVERYTHING ELSE?!??

as a black lesbian i don’t think i’ve ever related as much to a character as i related to fatou. i still can’t believe this is real, like… a black lesbian struggling with numbers in school/life in general? what the fuck. i feel so SEEN for the first time in my life and- okay i’ll stop before i get too emotional again. i’m just so happy this show exists and that fatou got her season and that her story was so relatable and UGHHH. it might not be that impactful for other people but i literally spent my whole life thinking “okay i guess people like me aren’t meant to be the main characters after all lol” but then i watched this and?? it literally means so so so so much to me... well i got emotional again. okay i’ll really stop now ❤️

now kieutou as a ship !@#$%$#@ i love them so much. of course there were parts where i was just kieu my what are you doing baby?? stop?? ❤️ but i knew things would be alright in the end and they WERE!! i enjoyed the sad/tense parts as much as enjoyed the cute ones to be honest, because what can i say… i love me some angst with a happy ending. and i actually enjoyed the pacing of the show so much? i love it when things are slow and slice of life-y and not a lot happens. i could’ve watched everything in one day (it’s just ten episodes that are around 25 minutes each) but i wanted to make it last simply because it made me feel so good and i didn’t want to stop thinking about kieutou 24/7 <3

one thing i love about kieutou (other than their perfect height difference and the fact that they are the most good looking ship i’ve ever seen) is when they talk in star language (yes i will call it star language shut up) oh my GOD. “I think if you were like me, we’d still be lonely and alone swimming around somewhere in the universe” THIS IS WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT!!!! this is MY definition of love!!! whenever kieu my started nerding out about astrophysics i was just so ♡_♡ i could listen to kieu my talking about the universe and the stars and everything in between for hours she’s so ksjdfkgjfk can you tell i have the biggest crush on her. because i do. i felt like i was two seconds away from fainting every time her beautiful face was on the screen.

can we talk about cashqueens too ♡_♡ I LOVE FRIENDSHIPS. and i love ava? so much? can i please become a character in druck just to be ava’s gf? please? sorry but skfhkf i’m in love with her. really. i love her friendship with fatou so much they are just so great and so good for each other and get each other so much. when fatou made the friendship proposal for ava AAAAAA i loved that scene so much i was screaming inside… one of my favorite scenes of the whole show <3 i think i’ll watch season five just so i can see more of cashqueens.

another thing i wanna talk about is the soundtrack. HELLO? IT’S SO GOOD? the way i almost died on the spot when rina_sawayama_love_me_4_me.mp3 started playing… and even the songs i didn’t know were so good and so my style T_T i can’t stop listening to this playlist tbh. tfw you get a good ship + poc characters + good music as a bonus <3 i’m obsessed i truly am.

i don’t know how skam/druck works at all because this is the first time i watched something from this universe but i really hope we get a kieu my season one day because i really want to know more about her and, of course, i want to see more kieutou too. it’s been less than 24 hours that i finished watching s6 and i already miss them :(

i’m already making sure to let everyone around me know that kieutou are perfect (shoutout to my priv moots and to all the kieutou edits/fanarts i’ve been retweeting and the gifsets i’ve been reblogging on tumblr) and that season 6 is worth watching. you can watch it here, if you’re interested! my thoughts are still kind of messy and this is all a big "i love kieutou" mess because i literally just finished watching everything but i needed to let them out before i lost the motivation to make a new post lmao… thanks for reading ^^